and, yes, on some level everything is perfect and as it is meant to be
to die is only the dematerialization of the physical body
we are already everything

but this death is so abrupt and faith-shattering

we just stare at the walls together

nothing is too personal. nothing is greater than opening to the possibility of living into myself. every day is an endless celebration of creation through art and contemplative conversation ( Read more... )

today, like every other day, we wake up empty
and frightened. don't open the door to the study
and begin reading. take down a musical instrument.

let the beauty of love be what we do.
there are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.

RUMI

its beautiful and its going to be cozy
everyone shares a plane of communal comfortable reality
and ive managed not to build a shell of newness around me
but the fact still remains that when i want to crawl into a warm nest, i have no one to share it with yet

ohhh mexico
that paradox of natural beauty and its continuous exploitation
beach, jungle, trash strewn in every direction, and the endless mob of tourists whose "you are here to serve me" attitude makes me wish i was a gun weilding terrorist.

this was to be the end of my farm adventure, and i said my long and arduous goodbyes, but a couple miles down the road my car protested the negative 13 degree temperatures and required me to coast to the side of the road, luckily in front of a friendly dairy farm. now i am at the library while kate has an interview to be the childrens librarian, ( Read more... )

sometimes the mountain ( Read more... )

i wake to sleep, and take my waking slow ( Read more... )

i have a book of poems that illuminate my depths. when i am lost or tired or seeking, i turn to it, and each time it gives me the substance i need on the first open page. it does not provide balms, but we're going for growth not stagnancy, so that's okay ( Read more... )

suprise number one: dan has tons of tupac on this computer, which i have been using for months while blindly remaining unaware
suprise number two: shoshanna may like tupac almost as much as dan does, but it would be best for long road trips, and those have been temporarily discontinued