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He hugged me today. For the first time in weeks. I'm really relieved. Finally, a sign that he cares. It sort of scares me how much he means to me. He has so much power over me. He dosn't realise that the choices he makes affect me and my life so much. This kid is my best friend. Every single night when 11:11 rolls around it's the same wish every ( Read more... ) -
urg
It's five in the morning and I'm delirious from lack of sleep. I'm exhausted and I can't think straight. My head is screaming at me to sleep but my body won't let me. All I can think about is how I want to be with daniel right now laying watching stars like we used to every night. I miss my old daniel, I miss my old self. I wouldn't go back to the ( Read more... ) -
I'm gonna collapse
2:17 am
still working on my project. -
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I don't have to go to 2nd and 3rd period tomorrow cause I'm going dress shopping with Danielle. Me and Danielle have been getting along better lately. We both sorta just gave up on being mad at each other and now if one of us does something bitchy we just ignore it because we are both the biggest assholes to each other and we know it. I'm glad ( Read more... ) -
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I miss my bestfriend. He's doing that "let's ignore Haley" thing again. It sucks. I wanna rip my hair out. What did I do? Fuuuuuuuuuck. -
thinking
I'm sick of people making me sad, or mad, or upset, or aggravated, or annoyed. I don't need that. Why do I let it bother me? I don't know. Everyone's goal in life is to be happy. That's what everyone wants right? Happiness? Well then why do we let others stand in the way of that? I don't know the answer to that, but its got to stop. I'm just not ( Read more... ) -
thoughts
I have come to the conclusion that I miss summer more than anything right now. Summer is a time of freedom and happiness. I feel so locked up lately. Ah. Well I can't change the seasons so I guess theres no point sulking over it. At least Christmas is coming. Christmas is even better than Summer. But it only lasts 24 hours. I think its worth it -
well
I think too much about things too far ahead in my future. Like marriage. I don't even know if I will get married. I hope to.. The thought of spending the rest of my life with some boy scares me. What if I marry the wrong person? What if I don't really love him, I just think I do.. or what if he doesn't really love me but I am madly in love with him ( Read more... ) -
so.
I'm growing up. My life is going by so quickly. My sister Jordan just had her very first baby.. while she was in the middle of giving birth, I couldnt believe it was actually happening. It seems like just yesterday she was slamming doors in my face, and locking me in closets. It dosnt seem real, its all just a dream right? How could 7 years go by ( Read more... ) -
rawr
Im in a good mood
I am going to the giants game tonight.
look for me!!
love you all so much.
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