Extremes; I cant seem to do anything by measures.

[gwyneda]

Yesterday’s emo-rant: [Italicized to show past tense]

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[shini_chii]

Am I the only one who thinks this way or do I just think too much? (...) Why don’t people ever realize that I’m giving them myself in these small small gestures. Why don’t people UNDERSTAND that when I’m doing something that’s new to me, I’m TRUSTING you to lead me. But they never do, and they never even think twice about all these subtle things I do to change.
That, I feel often, too, but I'm resigned to it because I know I dug the hole myself and I'm happy just having people I love around me. Also, most people can't understand that sometimes, trust is really an issue. And sometimes it's our own fault, I guess. I know, okay. I do. I really do. This is why I'll die alone. miserable and insane and alone. because I cant- I WONT put anyone through this BULLshit.
What about the people who would like to be part of that, as you call it, bullshit?.

You know, ideally, you could make it work. Isn't there a middle ground you can be in without totally dismissing the things you two want most?. Love usually involves change (which is why I don't

[shini_chii]

Mother of tl;dr, I'm gonna go crawl into a hole and die now *hides in shame*.

[gwyneda]

No Honey, I kind of really needed/wanted to see/read this. serously.

If I ever- EVER have you right in front of me, you can bet your ASS I'll take you to San Fran and Legalize you. I dont wanna give you my last name cause- lets face it, its gay. and I really want to have the money so we can go to Japan as our Honeymoon.

[I find it REALLY weird that I feel so drawn to you, yet I'd never make any advances- unless you're okay with that *mortified*]

I really love you too. I dont know HOW to explain it.

I'd love you forever. And that's a promise.

I'm planning on talking to him on Halloween. I really want to define this... THING and I need him to tell me so that I can move on or shoot myself.

[another wierd fact is that you're advising me about my crush/love from hell, yet I'd MARRY you in a freakin heartbeat. wtf.]

♥

[shini_chii]

Aww, of course you can. It's you. I love you enough not to pay attention to my dislike of being touched. And even if I shriek, we know you'd like it, you big meanie :P ♥. Remember, I agreed when you promised cuddling.

gsddhdfj good luck. All the good luck in the freaking world. I hope everything goes well.

Ah, you play with my heart so. Woe is me (kidding, kidding, I just want you to feel better, you know).

But seriously, I'm glad I could help you, even a little. And I promise, too. Ah, I'm so glad you aren't mad or weirded out or anything...

❤