Hey!!! Wow I haven't written on this forever but figured I'd come back and update just to have some interaction with all my old friends ( Read more... )

I had such a wonderful dream last night. I was at a BBQ that a friend was throwing..my friend was the hottie from TLC's "Take Home Chef". If you haven't seen that show he is this incredibly hot British chef *drool*. Anyway, he was having a BBQ so I went. One of his friend came and starting hitting on me. His friend was absolutely gorgeous as well. ( Read more... )

So last night was interesting. Went to Deja Vu with Mike and partook in the beautiful thing that is $5 bottomless wells. A screwdriver, long island ice tea and vodlka and cranberry juice later I was feeling pretty good. After The Vu Lola, Mike, Maame and i went to Tonic. Tonic was AMAZING. Packed to the brim. Music was hot. I guess everyone just ( Read more... )

This last week has been so odd. Suddenly I felt like I broke free of this heavy depression that has encased me since August. i feel lighter, free almost. I dunno what happened but I am not going to complain about it....i needed a break from constantly being sad. It is really draining. So, I survived the snow storm. I don't think mid-missouri has ( Read more... )

There is BLIZZARD in Missouri! This is freakin' insane. The University shut down today...which is a single of how bad it is here. I-70 has been shut down. There is more than a foot of snow on the ground and its still coming down. So I am super excited I don't have to go to class or work....i am gonna stay in all day, do some cleaning, work on ( Read more... )

Well, this will be my first non-private entry in quite some time. I'll probably make another private one after this but i might as well let everyone know I am still alive. I've been home since Tuesday night. It's been just as uncomfortable and unpeaceful as I thought it would be. My mom came over Wednesday night and started in on me. Then on ( Read more... )

I am awake at 2 am in the morning. My sleep schedule is completely off. The last two nights I've passed out by 9 pm and then gotten up VERY early in the morning to start my day. Anyway, this morning as I tried to get through the reading for my political science call it was put on my heart to pray. I needed to talk to God. So,I did. I said things to ( Read more... )

*sigh* last night was just ANOTHER stupid night for me. Will I ever learn? How is it possible that the older I get I seem to be getting dumber? What I am I looking for and why do I keep coming up empty?

I am sick! Throwing up, runny nose, sore throat...GROSS. I missed my first class today which is very bad. I feel like crap now. I met a boy on sunday. He was really cute and we flirted alot and we even kissed. I thought that maybe he would just be a fun guy to hang out with but im not so sure he is interested:(. I told Matt I needed a break from ( Read more... )

Things here at school are a little bit better. I think the main thing that I have to learn and accept is that everything is changing and nothing is ever going to be the same. Friends come and go and shift. People change their purpose in your life. Interests change, locations change. LIFE CHANGES. It's hard to accept and its scary but it is. I can't ( Read more... )