Akuroku FST (the same one orz)
Oh my god, I am so overwhelmed and happy right now. Crono8 over on dA took a liking to my FST, and she and KleeB made me a beautiful cover to go with it ;A;
So, even though I've posted this old thing before, it has better notes and an amazing cover now, so I'm gonna do it again! /shameless
looklooklook~
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.LYRICS+NOTES.
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[0] prelude: wake the dead
[Nobody] "You don’t feel a thing-you can’t. Do you want meaning?"
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Yeah, this is not natural
A bunch of holes where the dead used to be underground
Forget supernatural
'Cause all those resting in peace are out walking the streets
Yeah, with no heartbeat
Across the sky they can hear you on the other side
A scream that's loud enough to wake the dead
And all alone you bought tickets for the nightmare as you
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
No, this is not possible
An empty hole in your chest where your heart used to beat
Does this mean what I think it means?
Just how could both you and me be about as dead as we could be
Yeah, with no heartbeat
Across the sky they can hear you on the other side
A scream that's loud enough to wake the dead
And all alone you bought tickets for the nightmare as you
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
Take a walk with me, walk with the dead
'Cause you knew that we had to die sometime
Well darling, tonight could be
Let your voice shred miles of diamond skies
Just to walk as they wake in the darkness
Well darling tonight could be
A beautiful night to die
A beautiful night to die
Wake the dead, fuck it, you're dead
Wake the dead, fuck it, you're
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
Across the sky they can ha ha hear you
A scream that's loud enough to wake the dead
And all alone you bought tickets for the nightmare as you
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
Across the sky they can hear you on the other side
A scream that's loud enough to wake the dead
And all alone you bought tickets for the nightmare as you
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
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[1] intro: on my own
[Roxas] 'Every time I asked, Saix said the same thing: "we're looking into it." Today, I wish he'd tell me that again. I'm too scared to ask. I'll never see Axel again.'
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See all those people on the ground, wasting time
I try to hold it all inside, but just for tonight
The top of the world, sitting here wishing
The things I've become, that something is missing
Maybe I...
But what do I know
And now it seems that I have found nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud, slow it down, slow it down
Without it all, I'm choking on nothing
It's clear in my head, and I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all
On my own...
Without it all, I'm choking on nothing
It's clear in my head, and I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all
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[2] i caught fire
[Axel and Roxas] "Bet you don't know why the sun sets red."
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Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my
Hear your voice again
Could we dim the sun and wonder where we've been
Maybe you and me
So kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin
I'm melting, I'm melting
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
Now
Never caught my breath
Every second I'm without you I'm a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
Why cuts aren't healing
Learning how to love
I'm melting, I'm melting
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
Stay with me
Lay with me now
You could stay and watch me fall
And of course I'll ask for help
Just stay with me now
We could take our heads off
Stay in bed, just make love that's all
Just stay with me now
I'm melting, I'm melting
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
Stay with me
Lay with me
In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes
I'm melting in your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes
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[3] blood on my hands
[Axel] "What about Marluxia and the others?" Roxas asked, turning around, and Axel frowned, lowering his eyes slightly. "Didn’t they come back with you?"
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You felt the coldness in my eyes, and something I'm not revealing
Though you got used to my disguise, you can't shake this awful feeling
It's the me that I let you know
'Cause I never show
I have my reasons
I hate to say that I told you so
But I told you so, yeah
There's blood on my hands like the blood in you
Some things can't be treated, so
Don't make me, don't make me be myself around you
Straight from your eyes it's burying me, beautifully, so disfigured
This other side that you can't see, just praying you won't remember
Feel the pain that I never show
And I hope you know
It's never healing
I hate to say that I told you so
But I told you so, yeah
There's blood on my hands like the blood in you
Some things can't be treated, so
Don't make me, don't make me be myself around you
Straight from your eyes it's burying me, beautifully, so disfigured (there's blood)
This other side that you can't see, just praying you won't remember (there's blood)
There's blood
There's blood, blood, blood
There's blood on my hands like the blood in you
Some things can't be treated, so
Don't make me, don't make me be myself around you
There's blood on my hands like the (there's) blood in you
(There's blood) Some things can't be treated, so (there's blood)
Don't make me, don't make me be myself around you
There's blood
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[4] lunacy fringe
[Axel and Roxas] 'The day will probably come when I have to choose between our own goal, and this inexplicable 'thing' I have for Roxas now.'
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Wake up, my love
Never thought you'd make me, break me
Now I'm up, from below
Such a brilliant star you are
And will your love keep burning baby
Burn a hole right through my eyes
All these short times feel like no time
I thought you ought to know
I'm so far gone now, I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
Do you wanna take me on?
Do, do you, do you know?
Do you know how long I've waited?
To look up from below
Just to find someone like you?
And will your love light burn me baby?
Burn a hole right through my heart
I think I might just trust you, maybe
But I'm not sure
I'm not sure I'd wanna know
I'm so far gone now, I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
I'm so far gone now, I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
Do you wanna take me on?
I think you could make me, girl
Could make me and take my life
I know you could break me, girl
Take all of me, all of me, yeah hey
Wake up, my love
Never thought you'd make me, break me
Now I'm up, from below
Such a brilliant star you are
I'm so far gone now, I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
I'm so far gone, I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
Do you wanna take me on?
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[5] with me tonight
[Axel] "You've just gotta trust me, Roxas." "I don't."
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The way I broke your heart very literally
This ghost haunts me more than it should be
I'm not gonna walk away or turn my head in shame
I never thought it could kill me
A clean slate, one more day further away
I want you, you don't want me
My mistake for wasting yours and mine
I want you, but will you stay with me today, with me today?
Just let me make some time to take it back a little
The way you smile shines the heavens above me
Never going to let you go, I want you all the time
I gotta prove you can trust me
A clean slate, one more day further away
I want you, you don't want me
My mistake for wasting yours and mine
I want you but will you stay with me today, with me today?
I need you, you don't need me
When you are low, I am not okay
I want you, but will you stay with me today, with me today, with me today, with me today?
A clean slate, one more day further away
I want you, you don't want me
My mistake for wasting yours and mine
I want you but will you stay with me today, with me today?
I need you, you don't need me
When you are low, I am not okay
I want you, but will you stay with me today, with me today, with me today, with me today?
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[6] the taste of ink
[Roxas] 'I tried, but...there's nothing left for me here. The answers are out there.'
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Is it worth it? Can you even hear me
Standing with your spotlight on me
Not enough to feed the hungry
I'm tired and I've felt it for awhile now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old, it's
Four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free
So here I am, it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am, alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
And won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing atop the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
We'll drink and dance the night away
We'll drink and dance the night away
So here I am, it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am, alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
Savor every moment of this
As long as you're alive, here I am
I promise I will take you there
As long as you're alive, here I am
I promise I will take you there
And won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing atop the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
So here I am, it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am, alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
Savor every moment of this
Savor every moment of this
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[7] watered down
[Roxas] "No one would miss me."
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In my eyes, close and jaded
It's no surprise the lights have faded
I'll always walk away
You'll always hear me say I don't need this
I've been given such a gift
Shame to take advantage of it
Watch it, wasting leaves you wanting more
Be careful what you're wishing for
Nothing that I can hold onto with my broken hands
I'm not thinking that I should anyway
So I leave holding nothing
Don't care what you say
'Cause it makes no difference if I throw it away
Yeah, it makes no difference if I throw it away
Now, my days are feeling numbered
The sad cliche, I'm hiding under this
Spiderweb of dreams
I'm stuck here as it seems to be breaking
Shining brighter than you burn
Something that I would never learn
I could never lay this curse on you
'Cuz I've seen the days when there's...
Nothing that I can hold on to with my broken hands
I'm not thinking that I should anyway
So I leave holding nothing
Don't care what you say
'Cause it makes no difference if I throw it away
'Cause it makes no difference
Yeah it makes no difference if I throw it away
It makes no difference
It makes no difference if I throw it away
Makes no difference if I throw it away
It all just ends up tasting watered down (stop being so complicated)
And everyone has found an easy way out, an easy way out
It all just ends up tasting watered down (stop being so complicated)
And everyone has found an easy way out, an easy way out
Nothing that I can hold on to with my broken hands
I'm not thinking that I should anyway
So I leave holding nothing
Don't care what you say
'Cause it makes no difference if I throw it away
'Cause it makes no difference
Yeah it makes no difference if I throw it away
It makes no difference
It makes no difference if I throw it away
Yeah it makes no difference if I throw it away...
(Get outta town by sundown.
I say if they don't get outta town,
We kill the men, we kill the women,
we kill the children, we kill the babies,
we kill the blind, we kill the crippled, we kill the crazy...)
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[8] all that i've got
[Axel] Axel stood on the castle balcony looking up at the moon, frowning slightly.
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So deep that it didn't even bleed, and catch me
Off guard, red handed, now I'm far from lonely
Asleep, I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed, and catch me, I..
I need something else, would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out, and let me go back to sleep
I can laugh all I want, inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed, and catch me, I...
I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got
I guess I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
Eyes closed so hard I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..
I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
So deep that it didn't even bleed, and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me
I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
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[9] paralyzed
[Axel] "I’m so FLATTERED!"
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BURN
Before I could ever let you go, gonna beg until I drive you mad
Say something you could understand
I'm a statue baby, knock me out
Oh how these moments fade away, you say you never loved me
We say things we didn't mean to say
I take it back, I take it all back now
I take it back, I take it all back
Paralyzed by the same old antics
Back and forth like some walking spastic
How can a fistfight be romantic?
Thinking back now will you ever feel the same?
You mean more to me than you'll ever know
You're my girl, and I think it's a shame
That we get along this way
I'm just a statue try to knock me out
I guess these moments fade away, you say you never loved me
We say things we didn't mean to say
I take it back, I take it all back now
I take it back, I take it all back
Paralyzed by the same old antics
Back and forth like some walking spastic
How can a fistfight be romantic?
Thinking back now will you ever feel it?
Paralyzed by the same old antics
Back and forth like some walking spastic
How can a fistfight be romantic?
Thinking back now will you ever feel the same?
Yeah, I know you feel the same
You gotta let me know, dying inside to know
Knock me out, I'm dying inside to know
Let me know, knock me out
Knock me out
K-k-k-k-nock me out
K-k-k-k-nock me
Paralyzed by the same old antics
Back and forth like some walking spastic
How can a fistfight be romantic?
Thinking back now will you ever feel the same?
Paralyzed by the same old antics
Back and forth like some walking spastic
How can a fistfight be romantic?
Thinking back now were you ever feeling
Paralyzed by the same old antics
Back and forth like some walking spastic
How can a fistfight be romantic?
Thinking back now could you feel the same?
You gotta let me know, dying inside to know
Knock me out, dying inside to know
Gotta let me know, knock me out
Knock me out
K-k-k-k-nock me out
K-k-k-k-nock me
Out
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[10] light with a sharpened edge
[Roxas] "Looks like my summer holiday is… over…"
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Free from the torment of sin
All this I'm giving up, much as the sun would decide to give in
Explode into orange and hear all the voices sing praises with hymns
Mark the birth of a change
Free from the torment of sin
All this I'm giving up
It's not me, buried wreckage my soul
It's not me, so who am I now?
Over and over again
Light with a sharpened edge cut through the black empty space we call sky
Beginning the cycle that stays, and I know in my heart we all die
Like the day and the night
Like the sun in the sky
All this I'm giving up
It's not me, buried wreckage my soul
It's not me, so who am I now?
It's not me, buried wreckage my soul
It's not me, so who am I now?
Is there another side
Beyond the black and the white
Place I could meet you by
A place on the other side
I'll let you know when I go
I'll let you know when I go
When I'm gone
It's not me, buried wreckage my soul
It's not me, so who am I now?
IIt's not me, buried wreckage my soul
It's not me, so who am I now?
It's not me, buried wreckage my soul
It's not me, so who am I now?
Who am I now?
(Um, let's just go back to the beginning.)
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[11] maybe memories
[Axel] ‘I was told I'd be destroyed if I disobeyed this command, and I failed it.’
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As we trudge along through the mud
We tried to call it home
But we weren't alright, not at all
Not for one for one for one second
Never have been one to write it down
Now I think I can
I know I'm stronger now
Who's looking south
Not me I'm not looking back
I'm done denying the truth to anyone
Cause I'm alive
As we trudge along through the mud
We tried to call it home
But we weren't alright, not at all
Not for one for one for one second
You showed me how
You seemed to find a hole
But I just laughed and smiled
Begged and rolled my eyes
Even cried and
Denied the truth to you
Just like the truth to me
Mostly lied
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
White it out like glittering wax butterflies
Never have been one to write it down
Now I think I can
I know I'm stronger now
Who's looking south
Not me I'm not looking back
I'm done denying the truth to anyone
Cause I'm alive
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
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[12] sold my soul
[Axel] "We both miss someone we care about."
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I think of the worm that I've become
Left blind from the brightness of your halo
No one shines like you do
My filthy mouth and broken words
This small disease that leaves me crawling
Crawling to you
Crawl on the ground for cover
Staying close to the dark to keep from falling, falling
From falling
Sold my life to bring the rain, maybe to wash me clean
Sold my soul to stop the pain, hoping you'd set me free
All your fear, all your shame
You know that you can lay it all on me
That you can lay it all on me
I took every chance to lash my tongue
You wore the scabs just like an angel
There's something about you
Horrible things that I have done
Seems this disease is slowly spreading
Start running
What would you do?
I crawl on the ground for cover
Staying out of my mind to keep from dying, dying
From dying
Sold my life to bring the rain, maybe to wash me clean
Sold my soul to stop the pain, hoping you'd set me free
All your fear, all your shame
You know that you can lay it all on me
You know that you can lay it all on me
Could you forget then what I said, and how I died inside my head
We're starting over, not pretending that the past is dead
All the pain you feel you owed, and times I've should have known
Don't keep it inside, let it out and lay it all on me
Sold my life to bring the rain, maybe to wash me clean
Sold my soul to stop the pain, hoping you'd set me free
All your fear, all the blame
You know that you can lay it all on me
That you can lay it all on me
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[13] let it bleed
[Axel] "Nah… I can handle these punks. Watch this!"
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This poison's my intoxication
I broke the needle off in my skin
Picked the scabs and picked the bleeding
And assumed that it was all in vain
A positive scab that's never healing
Calloused hit me in the face
A burning bridge that's so misleading
Poison's more potent now with the flame
Let it bleed
Take the red for what it's worth, woah
Watch the fire
Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying you might wanna sing
The fire department couldn't drown the city
They didn't even try to wash it clean
And what did you think, that I was sober?
Put me out cause I'm on fucking fire
A positive scab that's never healing
Regret that I kept this clean
The most that I can do for you is keep on lying
It's not a lie if you can let it sing
Let it bleed
Take the red for what it's worth, woah
Watch the fire
Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying you might wanna sing
Ohoh you might wanna sing
Ahaha you might wanna sing
Hahah you might wanna sing
Hahahaha sing
You might wanna sing
You might wanna sing
You might wanna sing or scream it...
This poison's my intoxication
I broke the needle off in my skin
Picked the scabs and picked the bleeding
Yeah assumed that it was all in vain
Let it bleed
Take the red for what it's worth, woah
Watch the fire
Mamma fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying
If you feel like dying
If you feel like dying, you might wanna sing
Hahaha you might wanna sing
Haha you might wanna sing
Ha you might wanna sing or scream it...
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[14] outro: sun comes up
[Axel] "I wanted to see Roxas. He...was the only one I liked... He made me feel... like I had a heart. It's kind of...funny... You make me feel...the same..."
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[Even in a place where sunlight cannot penetrate, and it's unknown whether time even flows, there is morning.
Waking up in bed, Axel stared blankly at the ceiling.
'Today I have a mission to bring Roxas back. Failure won't be forgiven.
If I was asked whether I'm confident I’ll succeed... I wouldn't really know.
That day, exactly seven days ago, Roxas went to seriously pull out of the organisation, and I couldn't stop him, or even fight. Why, I wonder.
I couldn't stop Roxas.
I couldn't stop Roxas as he went to betray the organisation.'
"I'm... lonely, aren't I...” muttered Axel, in a small voice.]
And it all falls down at once
And I try to get some sleep
And the comforts of this bed
Have all been shattered to pieces
I have a knack for feeling lost
All those times I couldn't eat
Like I couldn't yell enough
But getting tired of screaming
[Axel: Get goin'!
Sora: Why?
Axel: Don't ask. Just do it!]
The sun comes up and now you have a chance again
The world falls down, we all forget where to begin
The world collapses
You hold it in
[Sora: You're...fading away...
Axel: Well, that's what happens when you put your whole being into an attack.
You know what I mean? Not that Nobodies actually HAVE beings...right? Anyway, I digress. Go, find Kairi. Oh, almost forgot... Sorry for what I did to her.
Sora: When we find her, you can tell her that yourself.
Axel: Think I'll pass. My heart just wouldn't be in it, you know? Haven't got one.]
Maybe I have said too much
Or really haven't said enough
All these words they come undone
I'm getting lost in the meaning
And all the coldness in my thoughts
Of being frozen all alone
In a world that we destroy
And try to pick up the pieces
The sun comes up and now you have a chance again
The world falls down, we all forget where to begin
The world collapses
You hold it in
The sun comes up and now you have a chance again
[Sora: Axel, what were you trying to do?
Axel: I wanted to see Roxas. He...was the only one I liked... He made me feel...like I had a heart. It's kind of...funny... You make me feel... the same...]
All you've lost
Leave yourself you drift away and your eyes
Open up as you catch me
Caught before I hit the ground I'm
Dying for you only
My feeling is forever, happens
All at once
All at once
[Axel: Kairi's in the castle dungeon. Now go.]
The sun comes up and now you have a chance again
The world falls down, we all forget where to begin
The world collapses
You hold it in
The world collapses
You hold it in
The sun comes up and now you have a chance again
*All quotes borrowed from music by The Used, KH2, KH358/2 Days, and my own translations of lines from Japanese media such as KH2FM+, KH game novels, and short stories
*Cover by Crono8 and KleeB of deviantArt, cover line art taken from doujin "X External Brigtness -Diamond-" (thank you thank you <3)
So, even though I've posted this old thing before, it has better notes and an amazing cover now, so I'm gonna do it again! /shameless
looklooklook~
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[0] prelude: wake the dead
[Nobody] "You don’t feel a thing-you can’t. Do you want meaning?"
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Yeah, this is not natural
A bunch of holes where the dead used to be underground
Forget supernatural
'Cause all those resting in peace are out walking the streets
Yeah, with no heartbeat
Across the sky they can hear you on the other side
A scream that's loud enough to wake the dead
And all alone you bought tickets for the nightmare as you
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
No, this is not possible
An empty hole in your chest where your heart used to beat
Does this mean what I think it means?
Just how could both you and me be about as dead as we could be
Yeah, with no heartbeat
Across the sky they can hear you on the other side
A scream that's loud enough to wake the dead
And all alone you bought tickets for the nightmare as you
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
Take a walk with me, walk with the dead
'Cause you knew that we had to die sometime
Well darling, tonight could be
Let your voice shred miles of diamond skies
Just to walk as they wake in the darkness
Well darling tonight could be
A beautiful night to die
A beautiful night to die
Wake the dead, fuck it, you're dead
Wake the dead, fuck it, you're
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
Across the sky they can ha ha hear you
A scream that's loud enough to wake the dead
And all alone you bought tickets for the nightmare as you
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
Across the sky they can hear you on the other side
A scream that's loud enough to wake the dead
And all alone you bought tickets for the nightmare as you
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
Wake the dead
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[1] intro: on my own
[Roxas] 'Every time I asked, Saix said the same thing: "we're looking into it." Today, I wish he'd tell me that again. I'm too scared to ask. I'll never see Axel again.'
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See all those people on the ground, wasting time
I try to hold it all inside, but just for tonight
The top of the world, sitting here wishing
The things I've become, that something is missing
Maybe I...
But what do I know
And now it seems that I have found nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud, slow it down, slow it down
Without it all, I'm choking on nothing
It's clear in my head, and I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all
On my own...
Without it all, I'm choking on nothing
It's clear in my head, and I'm screaming for something
Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all
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[2] i caught fire
[Axel and Roxas] "Bet you don't know why the sun sets red."
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Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my
Hear your voice again
Could we dim the sun and wonder where we've been
Maybe you and me
So kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin
I'm melting, I'm melting
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
Now
Never caught my breath
Every second I'm without you I'm a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
Why cuts aren't healing
Learning how to love
I'm melting, I'm melting
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
Stay with me
Lay with me now
You could stay and watch me fall
And of course I'll ask for help
Just stay with me now
We could take our heads off
Stay in bed, just make love that's all
Just stay with me now
I'm melting, I'm melting
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
Stay with me
Lay with me
In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes
I'm melting in your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes
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[3] blood on my hands
[Axel] "What about Marluxia and the others?" Roxas asked, turning around, and Axel frowned, lowering his eyes slightly. "Didn’t they come back with you?"
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You felt the coldness in my eyes, and something I'm not revealing
Though you got used to my disguise, you can't shake this awful feeling
It's the me that I let you know
'Cause I never show
I have my reasons
I hate to say that I told you so
But I told you so, yeah
There's blood on my hands like the blood in you
Some things can't be treated, so
Don't make me, don't make me be myself around you
Straight from your eyes it's burying me, beautifully, so disfigured
This other side that you can't see, just praying you won't remember
Feel the pain that I never show
And I hope you know
It's never healing
I hate to say that I told you so
But I told you so, yeah
There's blood on my hands like the blood in you
Some things can't be treated, so
Don't make me, don't make me be myself around you
Straight from your eyes it's burying me, beautifully, so disfigured (there's blood)
This other side that you can't see, just praying you won't remember (there's blood)
There's blood
There's blood, blood, blood
There's blood on my hands like the blood in you
Some things can't be treated, so
Don't make me, don't make me be myself around you
There's blood on my hands like the (there's) blood in you
(There's blood) Some things can't be treated, so (there's blood)
Don't make me, don't make me be myself around you
There's blood
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[4] lunacy fringe
[Axel and Roxas] 'The day will probably come when I have to choose between our own goal, and this inexplicable 'thing' I have for Roxas now.'
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Wake up, my love
Never thought you'd make me, break me
Now I'm up, from below
Such a brilliant star you are
And will your love keep burning baby
Burn a hole right through my eyes
All these short times feel like no time
I thought you ought to know
I'm so far gone now, I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
Do you wanna take me on?
Do, do you, do you know?
Do you know how long I've waited?
To look up from below
Just to find someone like you?
And will your love light burn me baby?
Burn a hole right through my heart
I think I might just trust you, maybe
But I'm not sure
I'm not sure I'd wanna know
I'm so far gone now, I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
I'm so far gone now, I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
Do you wanna take me on?
I think you could make me, girl
Could make me and take my life
I know you could break me, girl
Take all of me, all of me, yeah hey
Wake up, my love
Never thought you'd make me, break me
Now I'm up, from below
Such a brilliant star you are
I'm so far gone now, I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
I'm so far gone, I've been running on empty
I'm so far gone now, do you wanna take me on?
Do you wanna take me on?
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[5] with me tonight
[Axel] "You've just gotta trust me, Roxas." "I don't."
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The way I broke your heart very literally
This ghost haunts me more than it should be
I'm not gonna walk away or turn my head in shame
I never thought it could kill me
A clean slate, one more day further away
I want you, you don't want me
My mistake for wasting yours and mine
I want you, but will you stay with me today, with me today?
Just let me make some time to take it back a little
The way you smile shines the heavens above me
Never going to let you go, I want you all the time
I gotta prove you can trust me
A clean slate, one more day further away
I want you, you don't want me
My mistake for wasting yours and mine
I want you but will you stay with me today, with me today?
I need you, you don't need me
When you are low, I am not okay
I want you, but will you stay with me today, with me today, with me today, with me today?
A clean slate, one more day further away
I want you, you don't want me
My mistake for wasting yours and mine
I want you but will you stay with me today, with me today?
I need you, you don't need me
When you are low, I am not okay
I want you, but will you stay with me today, with me today, with me today, with me today?
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[6] the taste of ink
[Roxas] 'I tried, but...there's nothing left for me here. The answers are out there.'
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Is it worth it? Can you even hear me
Standing with your spotlight on me
Not enough to feed the hungry
I'm tired and I've felt it for awhile now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old, it's
Four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free
So here I am, it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am, alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
And won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing atop the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
We'll drink and dance the night away
We'll drink and dance the night away
So here I am, it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am, alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
Savor every moment of this
As long as you're alive, here I am
I promise I will take you there
As long as you're alive, here I am
I promise I will take you there
And won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing atop the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there so you can see
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
So here I am, it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am, alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
Savor every moment of this
Savor every moment of this
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[7] watered down
[Roxas] "No one would miss me."
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In my eyes, close and jaded
It's no surprise the lights have faded
I'll always walk away
You'll always hear me say I don't need this
I've been given such a gift
Shame to take advantage of it
Watch it, wasting leaves you wanting more
Be careful what you're wishing for
Nothing that I can hold onto with my broken hands
I'm not thinking that I should anyway
So I leave holding nothing
Don't care what you say
'Cause it makes no difference if I throw it away
Yeah, it makes no difference if I throw it away
Now, my days are feeling numbered
The sad cliche, I'm hiding under this
Spiderweb of dreams
I'm stuck here as it seems to be breaking
Shining brighter than you burn
Something that I would never learn
I could never lay this curse on you
'Cuz I've seen the days when there's...
Nothing that I can hold on to with my broken hands
I'm not thinking that I should anyway
So I leave holding nothing
Don't care what you say
'Cause it makes no difference if I throw it away
'Cause it makes no difference
Yeah it makes no difference if I throw it away
It makes no difference
It makes no difference if I throw it away
Makes no difference if I throw it away
It all just ends up tasting watered down (stop being so complicated)
And everyone has found an easy way out, an easy way out
It all just ends up tasting watered down (stop being so complicated)
And everyone has found an easy way out, an easy way out
Nothing that I can hold on to with my broken hands
I'm not thinking that I should anyway
So I leave holding nothing
Don't care what you say
'Cause it makes no difference if I throw it away
'Cause it makes no difference
Yeah it makes no difference if I throw it away
It makes no difference
It makes no difference if I throw it away
Yeah it makes no difference if I throw it away...
(Get outta town by sundown.
I say if they don't get outta town,
We kill the men, we kill the women,
we kill the children, we kill the babies,
we kill the blind, we kill the crippled, we kill the crazy...)
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[8] all that i've got
[Axel] Axel stood on the castle balcony looking up at the moon, frowning slightly.
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So deep that it didn't even bleed, and catch me
Off guard, red handed, now I'm far from lonely
Asleep, I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed, and catch me, I..
I need something else, would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out, and let me go back to sleep
I can laugh all I want, inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed, and catch me, I...
I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got
I guess I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
Eyes closed so hard I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..
I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
So deep that it didn't even bleed, and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me
I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
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[9] paralyzed
[Axel] "I’m so FLATTERED!"
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BURN
Before I could ever let you go, gonna beg until I drive you mad
Say something you could understand
I'm a statue baby, knock me out
Oh how these moments fade away, you say you never loved me
We say things we didn't mean to say
I take it back, I take it all back now
I take it back, I take it all back
Paralyzed by the same old antics
Back and forth like some walking spastic
How can a fistfight be romantic?
Thinking back now will you ever feel the same?
You mean more to me than you'll ever know
You're my girl, and I think it's a shame
That we get along this way
I'm just a statue try to knock me out
I guess these moments fade away, you say you never loved me
We say things we didn't mean to say
I take it back, I take it all back now
I take it back, I take it all back
Paralyzed by the same old antics
Back and forth like some walking spastic
How can a fistfight be romantic?
Thinking back now will you ever feel it?
Paralyzed by the same old antics
Back and forth like some walking spastic
How can a fistfight be romantic?
Thinking back now will you ever feel the same?
Yeah, I know you feel the same
You gotta let me know, dying inside to know
Knock me out, I'm dying inside to know
Let me know, knock me out
Knock me out
K-k-k-k-nock me out
K-k-k-k-nock me
Paralyzed by the same old antics
Back and forth like some walking spastic
How can a fistfight be romantic?
Thinking back now will you ever feel the same?
Paralyzed by the same old antics
Back and forth like some walking spastic
How can a fistfight be romantic?
Thinking back now were you ever feeling
Paralyzed by the same old antics
Back and forth like some walking spastic
How can a fistfight be romantic?
Thinking back now could you feel the same?
You gotta let me know, dying inside to know
Knock me out, dying inside to know
Gotta let me know, knock me out
Knock me out
K-k-k-k-nock me out
K-k-k-k-nock me
Out
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[10] light with a sharpened edge
[Roxas] "Looks like my summer holiday is… over…"
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Free from the torment of sin
All this I'm giving up, much as the sun would decide to give in
Explode into orange and hear all the voices sing praises with hymns
Mark the birth of a change
Free from the torment of sin
All this I'm giving up
It's not me, buried wreckage my soul
It's not me, so who am I now?
Over and over again
Light with a sharpened edge cut through the black empty space we call sky
Beginning the cycle that stays, and I know in my heart we all die
Like the day and the night
Like the sun in the sky
All this I'm giving up
It's not me, buried wreckage my soul
It's not me, so who am I now?
It's not me, buried wreckage my soul
It's not me, so who am I now?
Is there another side
Beyond the black and the white
Place I could meet you by
A place on the other side
I'll let you know when I go
I'll let you know when I go
When I'm gone
It's not me, buried wreckage my soul
It's not me, so who am I now?
IIt's not me, buried wreckage my soul
It's not me, so who am I now?
It's not me, buried wreckage my soul
It's not me, so who am I now?
Who am I now?
(Um, let's just go back to the beginning.)
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[11] maybe memories
[Axel] ‘I was told I'd be destroyed if I disobeyed this command, and I failed it.’
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As we trudge along through the mud
We tried to call it home
But we weren't alright, not at all
Not for one for one for one second
Never have been one to write it down
Now I think I can
I know I'm stronger now
Who's looking south
Not me I'm not looking back
I'm done denying the truth to anyone
Cause I'm alive
As we trudge along through the mud
We tried to call it home
But we weren't alright, not at all
Not for one for one for one second
You showed me how
You seemed to find a hole
But I just laughed and smiled
Begged and rolled my eyes
Even cried and
Denied the truth to you
Just like the truth to me
Mostly lied
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
White it out like glittering wax butterflies
Never have been one to write it down
Now I think I can
I know I'm stronger now
Who's looking south
Not me I'm not looking back
I'm done denying the truth to anyone
Cause I'm alive
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
I'm not going to look back
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[12] sold my soul
[Axel] "We both miss someone we care about."
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I think of the worm that I've become
Left blind from the brightness of your halo
No one shines like you do
My filthy mouth and broken words
This small disease that leaves me crawling
Crawling to you
Crawl on the ground for cover
Staying close to the dark to keep from falling, falling
From falling
Sold my life to bring the rain, maybe to wash me clean
Sold my soul to stop the pain, hoping you'd set me free
All your fear, all your shame
You know that you can lay it all on me
That you can lay it all on me
I took every chance to lash my tongue
You wore the scabs just like an angel
There's something about you
Horrible things that I have done
Seems this disease is slowly spreading
Start running
What would you do?
I crawl on the ground for cover
Staying out of my mind to keep from dying, dying
From dying
Sold my life to bring the rain, maybe to wash me clean
Sold my soul to stop the pain, hoping you'd set me free
All your fear, all your shame
You know that you can lay it all on me
You know that you can lay it all on me
Could you forget then what I said, and how I died inside my head
We're starting over, not pretending that the past is dead
All the pain you feel you owed, and times I've should have known
Don't keep it inside, let it out and lay it all on me
Sold my life to bring the rain, maybe to wash me clean
Sold my soul to stop the pain, hoping you'd set me free
All your fear, all the blame
You know that you can lay it all on me
That you can lay it all on me
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[13] let it bleed
[Axel] "Nah… I can handle these punks. Watch this!"
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This poison's my intoxication
I broke the needle off in my skin
Picked the scabs and picked the bleeding
And assumed that it was all in vain
A positive scab that's never healing
Calloused hit me in the face
A burning bridge that's so misleading
Poison's more potent now with the flame
Let it bleed
Take the red for what it's worth, woah
Watch the fire
Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying you might wanna sing
The fire department couldn't drown the city
They didn't even try to wash it clean
And what did you think, that I was sober?
Put me out cause I'm on fucking fire
A positive scab that's never healing
Regret that I kept this clean
The most that I can do for you is keep on lying
It's not a lie if you can let it sing
Let it bleed
Take the red for what it's worth, woah
Watch the fire
Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying you might wanna sing
Ohoh you might wanna sing
Ahaha you might wanna sing
Hahah you might wanna sing
Hahahaha sing
You might wanna sing
You might wanna sing
You might wanna sing or scream it...
This poison's my intoxication
I broke the needle off in my skin
Picked the scabs and picked the bleeding
Yeah assumed that it was all in vain
Let it bleed
Take the red for what it's worth, woah
Watch the fire
Mamma fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying
If you feel like dying
If you feel like dying, you might wanna sing
Hahaha you might wanna sing
Haha you might wanna sing
Ha you might wanna sing or scream it...
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[14] outro: sun comes up
[Axel] "I wanted to see Roxas. He...was the only one I liked... He made me feel... like I had a heart. It's kind of...funny... You make me feel...the same..."
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[Even in a place where sunlight cannot penetrate, and it's unknown whether time even flows, there is morning.
Waking up in bed, Axel stared blankly at the ceiling.
'Today I have a mission to bring Roxas back. Failure won't be forgiven.
If I was asked whether I'm confident I’ll succeed... I wouldn't really know.
That day, exactly seven days ago, Roxas went to seriously pull out of the organisation, and I couldn't stop him, or even fight. Why, I wonder.
I couldn't stop Roxas.
I couldn't stop Roxas as he went to betray the organisation.'
"I'm... lonely, aren't I...” muttered Axel, in a small voice.]
And it all falls down at once
And I try to get some sleep
And the comforts of this bed
Have all been shattered to pieces
I have a knack for feeling lost
All those times I couldn't eat
Like I couldn't yell enough
But getting tired of screaming
[Axel: Get goin'!
Sora: Why?
Axel: Don't ask. Just do it!]
The sun comes up and now you have a chance again
The world falls down, we all forget where to begin
The world collapses
You hold it in
[Sora: You're...fading away...
Axel: Well, that's what happens when you put your whole being into an attack.
You know what I mean? Not that Nobodies actually HAVE beings...right? Anyway, I digress. Go, find Kairi. Oh, almost forgot... Sorry for what I did to her.
Sora: When we find her, you can tell her that yourself.
Axel: Think I'll pass. My heart just wouldn't be in it, you know? Haven't got one.]
Maybe I have said too much
Or really haven't said enough
All these words they come undone
I'm getting lost in the meaning
And all the coldness in my thoughts
Of being frozen all alone
In a world that we destroy
And try to pick up the pieces
The sun comes up and now you have a chance again
The world falls down, we all forget where to begin
The world collapses
You hold it in
The sun comes up and now you have a chance again
[Sora: Axel, what were you trying to do?
Axel: I wanted to see Roxas. He...was the only one I liked... He made me feel...like I had a heart. It's kind of...funny... You make me feel... the same...]
All you've lost
Leave yourself you drift away and your eyes
Open up as you catch me
Caught before I hit the ground I'm
Dying for you only
My feeling is forever, happens
All at once
All at once
[Axel: Kairi's in the castle dungeon. Now go.]
The sun comes up and now you have a chance again
The world falls down, we all forget where to begin
The world collapses
You hold it in
The world collapses
You hold it in
The sun comes up and now you have a chance again
*All quotes borrowed from music by The Used, KH2, KH358/2 Days, and my own translations of lines from Japanese media such as KH2FM+, KH game novels, and short stories
*Cover by Crono8 and KleeB of deviantArt, cover line art taken from doujin "X External Brigtness -Diamond-" (thank you thank you <3)