Adommy Fanfic: Can't help falling for you 14/?
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Chapter fourteen
Tommy feels like he could slap himself. He is sitting in the cab and he is on his way home. He can still feel Adams arms around him from the last hug. And he remembers all the small touches he shared with Adam. He can’t believe how desperate he was for Adams touch. It’s almost embarrassing how he was searching for any possibility to touch. He was somehow using Adam for his needs. And he was using the fact that Adam must have been sad because of Sauli. And he was using the fact that Adam likes to cuddle. He used Adam just to satisfy his own longing. How does he get this far? He was so desperate for Adam that he forgot about any resistence. And now he is ashamed. Ashamed but also turned on.
Tommy steps out of the cab. His body is burning. He opens the door to his apartment and he starts immediately to pull off his clothes as soon as door shuts behind him. He is throwing them on the floor on his way to his bathroom. He needs to calm down. His body is yearning for Adams touch. He needs a cold shower. He turns on the water and while he is stripping out of his briefs he can’t believe that he is still half hard. It’s like his body would still feel Adams hands on him. He steps in the shower. And he closes his eyes for a moment while the water is running over his head.
But as soon as his eyes are shut he can see Adam in front of him. And he can feel Adams hands on him. Touching him. And his longing for Adam is aching in his body. But it’s his own fault that he is now desperate for a touch. He was just to long under Adams spell. And now there is a hunger under his skin. And he has to satisfy this hunger. And he sets one hand on the wall in the shower. And his other hand is wandering down on his body. And he doesn’t waste time. His hand is in the next second around his cock. And he starts to stroke himself in fast and smooth moves. And he imagines Adam would be there with him. And Adam would kiss him. And he can imagine Adams hands all over him. And his movements are getting faster and faster. And soon a orgasm is thrilling his body. And when it’s over, he leans with his head against the shower wall and lets the water wash everything away. But his pain and his unfullfilled desires just don’t go away. He turns the water off and steps out of the shower.
Then he is laying on his bed and is thinking. He has to have one more rule: no more drinking when he is near Adam. Because when he is drunk he can’t stop from touching and hugging. And now he is drunk enough to feel stupid and embarressed for using his friend for a sex fantasy. But he is not drunk enough to just fall asleep. And he knows that all the heartache is just a part of the pain. Because his body is aching too and this is almost as bad as the heartache.
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Adam is restless. He is walking around his place. He can’t just stop and sit down. And he keeps thinking about the last months. And now he can clearly see what wasn’t visible in the fog until tonight. And he can’t really get over the fact how blind he was. Then he is just thinking about the last hours. Tommy was almost the whole evening glued to him. And this was for sure not the first time. And know that Adam knows he remembers all the signs, he just ignored. All the looks, the touches, the hugs.
And he is wishing he could just go over to Tommy and say something like: ‘Hey, I know you love me. And I love you too.” But it’s in the middle of the night and he can’t do this like that. He has to think about what to do. But he is just to excited to be able to think about a plan. Excited and restless and happy. He jumps on his bed. Then he is laying on his back and looking on the ceiling. And he is smiling. But after a while he is laughing. Laughing in happiness. Because here is he now laying alone and restless while he can feel the fucking butterflies in his stomach. And he can’t stop to laugh.
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Adam wakes up really early. He can’t stay in his bed. Today is the first day he will spend knowing that Tommy loves him. So it’s time to get up. He has to see Tommy. Ok, maybe Tommy won’t be happy to see Adam at 8 o’clock in the morning. But Adam can’t wait any longer. He takes a shower and put some casual clothes on. Then he drives to a small café near Tommys place and get some coffee and donuts and bagels. He can’t stop smiling. He was smiling the whole night and the whole morning. And he likes it.
He rings the bell and waits. After a few minutes he rings again. Then he can hear Tommys viose through the intercom. It sounds very sleepy. “Yeah?” “Tommy it’s me!” Tommys voice breaks a little “Adam? Are you alright?” Adam laughs. “Yes. Let me in!” He can hear the door opener and gets in. Then he is at Tommys door. Tommy left the door open and Adam gets in. Tommy is in the bathroom and takes a shower. Obviously he wasn’t up until yet. Adam sits down and soon Tommy is there. “Ok, what did I missed? Do we have a show or something? I can be ready in five!” Adam laughs at him. “No, calm down. I just wanted to see you. I brought coffee and breakfast. Just sit down and enjoy.”
Tommy sits down beside Adam. And Adam can’t stop watching him. Tommy is really beautiful. And Adam is amazed how good he smells. And it’s like he hasn’t watched Tommy since ages. Like he didn’t allowed himself to really watch Tommy until yet. Probably it was really like that. Because until yet Tommy was his friend, his straight friend. And now it’s different. Tommy is the man he loves and the man he wants so much. And right now it seems like these are the last minutes he can just enjoy the feeling for himself. Without Tommy knowing it. And he enjoys it.
Tommy is too tired to see the change in Adams face. He is just sitting there and drinking coffee. And he is waking up slowly. And he becomes aware of the man sitting on his side. And he feels happy because Adam is there. And he doesn’t want to think about how he will feel once Adam will leave him. He is just happy now and he is tired of all the negativity he felt the past weeks. He just wants to feel good and not think about what will be later. And he starta to relax as Adam lays his hand on his shoulder and pulls him to his chest.
Adam can’t stay away from Tommy any longer. He knows he has to take the next step carefully. But he wants to feel Tommy and it’s perfect to pull Tommy to his chest. “Tommy, I wanted to talk to you.” “I know we haven’t had the time yet to talk about your breakup with Sauli. I didn’t want to ask you yesterday with all the people around.” Adam bites a smile away. “Oh, I am ok about Sauli. It was the right decision to break up with him. It just didn’t feel right.” Tommy laughs. “You did miss the big bang, didn’t you?” “Kind of. I must have been insane thinking I wouldn’t miss it.” Adam pauses, while his hand is stroking over Tommys skalp. “But this is not what I wanted to talk to you about.” Adam takes a sip of coffee. “No? So what do you want to tell me?” Adam smiles to himself.
Oh, Tommy where should I start. There is so much you should know!
“I wanted to talk to you about this friend of yours.” And Adam can feel how Tommy stiffens. Then Tommy pulls away from Adam and sits upright. “Adam, I don’t think I want to talk about him. It hurts too much.” Tommy gets up. “Let’s just face it: we are both not really good in love things, are we?” Adam is watching Tommy while Tommy walks over to his kitchen to get some water. “Tommy, I think we could be much better in these things, when we would be honest. Honest to ourselves and honest to the ones we love.” Tommy looks at Adam. “What do you mean?” Adam sighs and keeps his eyes on Tommy. “I broke up with Sauli because I realized that this relationship wasn’t like the one I could have. And I should have.” Adam pauses and gets up. “With the man I am in love with since I don’t know how long.”
And then Adam is right in front of Tommy. And Tommy feels weak and he can’t take his eyes away from Adam. And then Adam takes Tommys hand and pulls it up to his mouth. And he gives Tommy a soft kiss on his hand. Tommy gasps. “And I think I should take a chance on this man. Because I think he is my soulmate.” And Adam strokes with his index finger over Tommys cheek down to his chin and then over his lips.
And Tommy shivers. His knees are almost giving in. He can’t think straight. “Adam, what are you doing?” His voice is scarcely audible. And then he can see that Adam is moving closer. And everything around slows down. And then Tommy can feel Adams whole body pressed against his own. And one of Adams hands is on his back, pulling him even closer. And the other hand is now on his nape. And Adam is stroking small circles over his skin. And he is looking in Tommys eyes. And Tommy can’t barely breathe now. And Adams face is getting closer. His breath is ghosting over Tommys face. And then Adams lips touch Tommys. And it’s a soft but a really strong kiss. And there is no hesitation. Tommy is kissing immediately back. Without a second thought. And his hands are around Adams neck, pulling him closer. And the kiss goes deeper and Tommys tongue is caressing over Adams bottom lip. Then Adam opens his mouth and their tongues meet to take a slow dance together. And when they eventually pull away, they just look at each other and smile.
Chapter fourteen
Tommy feels like he could slap himself. He is sitting in the cab and he is on his way home. He can still feel Adams arms around him from the last hug. And he remembers all the small touches he shared with Adam. He can’t believe how desperate he was for Adams touch. It’s almost embarrassing how he was searching for any possibility to touch. He was somehow using Adam for his needs. And he was using the fact that Adam must have been sad because of Sauli. And he was using the fact that Adam likes to cuddle. He used Adam just to satisfy his own longing. How does he get this far? He was so desperate for Adam that he forgot about any resistence. And now he is ashamed. Ashamed but also turned on.
Tommy steps out of the cab. His body is burning. He opens the door to his apartment and he starts immediately to pull off his clothes as soon as door shuts behind him. He is throwing them on the floor on his way to his bathroom. He needs to calm down. His body is yearning for Adams touch. He needs a cold shower. He turns on the water and while he is stripping out of his briefs he can’t believe that he is still half hard. It’s like his body would still feel Adams hands on him. He steps in the shower. And he closes his eyes for a moment while the water is running over his head.
But as soon as his eyes are shut he can see Adam in front of him. And he can feel Adams hands on him. Touching him. And his longing for Adam is aching in his body. But it’s his own fault that he is now desperate for a touch. He was just to long under Adams spell. And now there is a hunger under his skin. And he has to satisfy this hunger. And he sets one hand on the wall in the shower. And his other hand is wandering down on his body. And he doesn’t waste time. His hand is in the next second around his cock. And he starts to stroke himself in fast and smooth moves. And he imagines Adam would be there with him. And Adam would kiss him. And he can imagine Adams hands all over him. And his movements are getting faster and faster. And soon a orgasm is thrilling his body. And when it’s over, he leans with his head against the shower wall and lets the water wash everything away. But his pain and his unfullfilled desires just don’t go away. He turns the water off and steps out of the shower.
Then he is laying on his bed and is thinking. He has to have one more rule: no more drinking when he is near Adam. Because when he is drunk he can’t stop from touching and hugging. And now he is drunk enough to feel stupid and embarressed for using his friend for a sex fantasy. But he is not drunk enough to just fall asleep. And he knows that all the heartache is just a part of the pain. Because his body is aching too and this is almost as bad as the heartache.
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Adam is restless. He is walking around his place. He can’t just stop and sit down. And he keeps thinking about the last months. And now he can clearly see what wasn’t visible in the fog until tonight. And he can’t really get over the fact how blind he was. Then he is just thinking about the last hours. Tommy was almost the whole evening glued to him. And this was for sure not the first time. And know that Adam knows he remembers all the signs, he just ignored. All the looks, the touches, the hugs.
And he is wishing he could just go over to Tommy and say something like: ‘Hey, I know you love me. And I love you too.” But it’s in the middle of the night and he can’t do this like that. He has to think about what to do. But he is just to excited to be able to think about a plan. Excited and restless and happy. He jumps on his bed. Then he is laying on his back and looking on the ceiling. And he is smiling. But after a while he is laughing. Laughing in happiness. Because here is he now laying alone and restless while he can feel the fucking butterflies in his stomach. And he can’t stop to laugh.
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Adam wakes up really early. He can’t stay in his bed. Today is the first day he will spend knowing that Tommy loves him. So it’s time to get up. He has to see Tommy. Ok, maybe Tommy won’t be happy to see Adam at 8 o’clock in the morning. But Adam can’t wait any longer. He takes a shower and put some casual clothes on. Then he drives to a small café near Tommys place and get some coffee and donuts and bagels. He can’t stop smiling. He was smiling the whole night and the whole morning. And he likes it.
He rings the bell and waits. After a few minutes he rings again. Then he can hear Tommys viose through the intercom. It sounds very sleepy. “Yeah?” “Tommy it’s me!” Tommys voice breaks a little “Adam? Are you alright?” Adam laughs. “Yes. Let me in!” He can hear the door opener and gets in. Then he is at Tommys door. Tommy left the door open and Adam gets in. Tommy is in the bathroom and takes a shower. Obviously he wasn’t up until yet. Adam sits down and soon Tommy is there. “Ok, what did I missed? Do we have a show or something? I can be ready in five!” Adam laughs at him. “No, calm down. I just wanted to see you. I brought coffee and breakfast. Just sit down and enjoy.”
Tommy sits down beside Adam. And Adam can’t stop watching him. Tommy is really beautiful. And Adam is amazed how good he smells. And it’s like he hasn’t watched Tommy since ages. Like he didn’t allowed himself to really watch Tommy until yet. Probably it was really like that. Because until yet Tommy was his friend, his straight friend. And now it’s different. Tommy is the man he loves and the man he wants so much. And right now it seems like these are the last minutes he can just enjoy the feeling for himself. Without Tommy knowing it. And he enjoys it.
Tommy is too tired to see the change in Adams face. He is just sitting there and drinking coffee. And he is waking up slowly. And he becomes aware of the man sitting on his side. And he feels happy because Adam is there. And he doesn’t want to think about how he will feel once Adam will leave him. He is just happy now and he is tired of all the negativity he felt the past weeks. He just wants to feel good and not think about what will be later. And he starta to relax as Adam lays his hand on his shoulder and pulls him to his chest.
Adam can’t stay away from Tommy any longer. He knows he has to take the next step carefully. But he wants to feel Tommy and it’s perfect to pull Tommy to his chest. “Tommy, I wanted to talk to you.” “I know we haven’t had the time yet to talk about your breakup with Sauli. I didn’t want to ask you yesterday with all the people around.” Adam bites a smile away. “Oh, I am ok about Sauli. It was the right decision to break up with him. It just didn’t feel right.” Tommy laughs. “You did miss the big bang, didn’t you?” “Kind of. I must have been insane thinking I wouldn’t miss it.” Adam pauses, while his hand is stroking over Tommys skalp. “But this is not what I wanted to talk to you about.” Adam takes a sip of coffee. “No? So what do you want to tell me?” Adam smiles to himself.
Oh, Tommy where should I start. There is so much you should know!
“I wanted to talk to you about this friend of yours.” And Adam can feel how Tommy stiffens. Then Tommy pulls away from Adam and sits upright. “Adam, I don’t think I want to talk about him. It hurts too much.” Tommy gets up. “Let’s just face it: we are both not really good in love things, are we?” Adam is watching Tommy while Tommy walks over to his kitchen to get some water. “Tommy, I think we could be much better in these things, when we would be honest. Honest to ourselves and honest to the ones we love.” Tommy looks at Adam. “What do you mean?” Adam sighs and keeps his eyes on Tommy. “I broke up with Sauli because I realized that this relationship wasn’t like the one I could have. And I should have.” Adam pauses and gets up. “With the man I am in love with since I don’t know how long.”
And then Adam is right in front of Tommy. And Tommy feels weak and he can’t take his eyes away from Adam. And then Adam takes Tommys hand and pulls it up to his mouth. And he gives Tommy a soft kiss on his hand. Tommy gasps. “And I think I should take a chance on this man. Because I think he is my soulmate.” And Adam strokes with his index finger over Tommys cheek down to his chin and then over his lips.
And Tommy shivers. His knees are almost giving in. He can’t think straight. “Adam, what are you doing?” His voice is scarcely audible. And then he can see that Adam is moving closer. And everything around slows down. And then Tommy can feel Adams whole body pressed against his own. And one of Adams hands is on his back, pulling him even closer. And the other hand is now on his nape. And Adam is stroking small circles over his skin. And he is looking in Tommys eyes. And Tommy can’t barely breathe now. And Adams face is getting closer. His breath is ghosting over Tommys face. And then Adams lips touch Tommys. And it’s a soft but a really strong kiss. And there is no hesitation. Tommy is kissing immediately back. Without a second thought. And his hands are around Adams neck, pulling him closer. And the kiss goes deeper and Tommys tongue is caressing over Adams bottom lip. Then Adam opens his mouth and their tongues meet to take a slow dance together. And when they eventually pull away, they just look at each other and smile.