→ Changed
→ YunJae | Slight YooSu | Slight 2Min
→ 16/27
→ PG13
→ Angst | Romance | humor | Fluff | Smut
→ Yunho came from London after four year with his degree. He was composed, serious and successful; the total opposite from his old playboy, reckless and wild self during high school. He met his only best friend from high school, who was the ultimate geek who worked hard to achieve his goals, in a club. He was shocked to see how his friend had turned into a prostitute. Yunho then realized how much his friend had changed and how their roles had been reversed.
→ Beta/Basic Plot ->
kkogiChapter 16: Saturday Morning
The night was long; longer than it ever was. Jaejoong rolled on his right side after giving up sleeping on his left side. He soon gave up and rolled on his back. He ruffled his hair and growled loudly. It was already eight thirty in the morning and his eyes didn’t even close for an hour. He was tired, confused and overwhelmed with emotions he didn’t know where to put or how to comprehend.
“Did he mean it?”
He sat and crossed his legs for the nth time since he put his head on his pillow to sleep.
“Does he really like me?”
He took a long breath before shaking his head.
“No no no no no no. He must be just drunk. He forgot about our kiss last time. So, yeah, he was just drunk”
He hopped out of bed and dropped his shoulders. He touched his lips and remembered the feeling of Yunho’s soft and warm lips pressed against his.
“But this wasn’t just a kiss. We almost slept together. Why did I stop him?”
He bit his lips and asked himself but then slapped himself, literally.
“Shut up Jaejoong, you know what it feels like to be taken advantage of. You are not going to do the same thing to the person you love” He nodded his head in agreement.
“But it felt so good” He whined and hit the ground with his feet and then turned around and dropped himself on his bed, screaming into his pillow.
“What if I didn’t stop him? What would happen? Would we do it? With Yunho?”
He felt his body heating up, reacting to the mere idea of being pressed against Yunho’s larger frame and receiving hot wet kisses from his lips. He found himself whimpering slightly.
“Stop it” He scolded himself and held the sheets tightly.
“I need to talk to someone”
He threw the covers away and ran towards his wardrobe. He fished a jeans, not bothering if it was tight or not, and a green old shirt. He headed to the door and out of his apartment.
Less than fifteen minutes, he found himself face to face with his friend’s wooden door. He pressed the doorbell twice and waited for the door to open. After a minute of waiting, the door opened revealing a freshly showered Changmin.
“Wow, you’re early” Changmin said.
“And I knew that you are an early bird” Jaejoong answered passing Changmin and going inside his place.
“Aah, you know me. And by the way, don’t make any sound please; Minnie is sleeping in my room”
Jaejoong gave him a confused glare.
“I thought you had triple Minnie problems!”
“Well, I dragged him on sudden date and ended up making love all night long. So I don’t expect him to wake up any time soon if you understand what I mean” Changmin smirked.
“Spare me the details”
“So, what brought you here so early? Coffee?”
“Plain coffee please, no sugar or milk”
“Oh, that’s so bitter”
“Believe me, I need it”
Jaejoong dropped himself on the sofa and inhaled sharply waiting for Changmin and his coffee to return. After few minutes, Changmin was back.
“So, drama boy. How was your date?” Changmin chuckled.
“It was definitely, a date”
Changmin choked on his coffee but then raised a surprised eyebrow.
“What?”
“We went to the mall, shopped for a suit and then went to eat dinner. But he got drunk” Jaejoong finished his sentence with a dramatic sound.
“Don’t tell me he kissed you again” Changmin sipped from his coffee.
“This is the problem. It wasn’t just a kiss” Jaejoong rubbed his face and then dropped his arms beside him with a sigh.
“What do you mean, not just a kiss. Woah, boy did you two…?” He asked suggestively.
“Almost, almost Minnie, Almost. But I stopped him before anything happens”
“Why? I thought you loved him!” Changmin asked rising his shoulders.
“I love him alright, that’s why I couldn’t take advantage of him”
“Hmmmm” Changmin nodded in acknowledgment. “Did you have that thing that happens in anime? You know the two angles over your shoulders, the white one and the red one. One telling you to do it whiles the other telling you to stop?” He giggled evilly making Jaejoong blush.
“Shut up you moron. Those things don’t just happen in anime. They actually do happen in real life, alright” Jaejoong shoved Changmin’s side and pouted.
“Fine fine” Changmin giggled and raised his hands in defeat.
“He said he liked me” Jaejoong said hugging his legs and resting his head on top of his knees.
“He did?” Changmin adjusted his position and stared at Jaejoong, Jaejoong just nodded.
“Wow, you must be really happy” He said grinning from ear to ear, tapping Jaejoong’s shoulder.
“I should be. But I’m not sure if he meant it”
“Look Jae…”
“No, don’t start. He was drunk. The last time he kissed me he…”
“Forgot? I know. Just don’t beat yourself about it too much ok? Who knows, he probably will remember and will tell you later”
“I don’t know” Jaejoong shined and buried his face deeper. “I don’t want to get my hopes up in the sky, only for them to crash on me later. Truth hurts you know”
Changmin sighed and crossed his legs. “Hey Jae”
“Hmm?”
“What did you feel?”
Jaejoong was startled by the question. “W-what do you mean?”
“You know! Being kissed by the person you love and feeling him instead of… you know… others” Changmin shrugged a shoulder. Whispering his question.
“Oh…” Jaejoong sighed and then a smile found its way on his lips. “It was…”
“What?”
“I don’t know how to express it. I felt so good, for the first time, I felt that I didn’t want him to stop. I really wanted to know how it feels to be kissed and held by the person I love”
He paused for a second.
“To tell you the truth, I thought it was the same. Just a man touching you, whether you like it or not. Yes I would feel that he loves me, but would never feel the pleasure of us being so intimate together. I thought just the kisses would be different, but the rest… well, it would be the same. Touching you, pleasing himself and leaving you without a choice. But he was different… and even when he was drunk, he asked me”
“What?” Changmin asked softly.
“Does it feel good?” He smiled. “He cared about what I felt even when he wasn’t in his right mind. I felt… Loved. Minnie, I felt loved and I just couldn’t take advantage of him”
Changmin escorted closer and hugged Jaejoong and resting his head on his shoulder while Jaejoong was still hugging his legs.
“I think you did the right thing” He said patting his head.
“Will he remember? I will feel so disappointed if he didn’t”
“And hurt” Changmin added.
Jaejoong sighed and nodded.
“And hurt”
“You haven’t been with anyone for how long?” He asked taking his arms away and sipping from his coffee.
“Almost a week” Jaejoong whispered back.
“That’s the longest you’ve held back” He smiled eyeing his friend.
“I know. And strangely, I don’t feel guilty. It’s like… I don’t know… I mean… Junsu is so nice to me, he cares about me now. He even jokes about my food like he used to do. He even talks about his boyfriend with me” he chuckled lightly.
“And Yunho?” Changmin asked wiggling his eyebrows making Jaejoong blush with a smile.
“He makes me rethink all my decisions. What have he done to deserve a friend like me? I made him cry?” He asked in disbelief. “God and that was just about hearing what I did. What would he do when I go back to my customers?”
“Just don’t” Changmin said in a pleading tone. “I don’t want to sound harsh but… You’ve never thought about Junsu and what would he feel like when you go back to your so called customers. All you thought about is Yunho and what would he feel…”
“Are you saying I’m not considering my brother’s feelings?” Jaejoong cut him sounding shocked and hurt.
“No no, I didn’t mean it that way… What I meant was… Think about it this way. You were hurting yourself every time you met one of them, and every time of those, you hurt Junsu in the way. Yunho has been hurt by this for just a week or so, but Junsu has been suffering with you since years. What do you think he feels like whenever he uses your money? Have you ever asked him?”
Jaejoong was quiet for a while, thinking and comprehending Changmin’s words.
“Why do you think he is trying so hard now? I’m almost 100% sure he wants you to stop, for you more than for him”
Jaejoong lowered his legs and covered his mouth. He’d heard those words before, from Changmin and from Junsu, but he never thought about them seriously. He always convinced himself that he was doing the right thing, even if the method was wrong. He thought that even when he was hurting Junsu, this was the only way to make a pleasing amount of money. Yes he knew that he was hurting himself and yes he knew that Junsu hated him for what he did, but he also thought that Junsu would cope, just like anything else. He thought that the money, the place they were in, the school he was attending would make things less hard on him. He believed that even when he hated him, it was because he was used to hating him, not because of his job anymore.
“Oh my god” He suddenly blurt out. “I’ve never thought about it seriously before. All I thought about was the food, the bills, and how to get the sufficient amount of money for all of that. Oh God, I closed my eyes and ears and shut you up hundred times”
“Jae?”
“I can’t believe how ignorant I was…” He chuckled bitterly. “Ignorant I am”
Changmin held Jaejoong’s hands and looked at his eyes.
“Jae… I’ve been thinking about what we talked about yesterday, and I’m really sorry”
“For what?” Jaejoong was still in daze of his thoughts.
“I mocked whatever Yunho was going to offer to you. But when my head was finally clear, I discovered how stupid I was. You should totally accept whatever help he can offer”
“Minnie…” He called a bitter smile crept on his lips, only to be swift of by a pout and then bit on the lips. He exhaled sharply and tried to hold back his tears.
“Junsu is an adult now…” Changmin continued. “He is almost eighteen, he will go to college, and I don’t think that he will accept anything more from you. It’s good to think about your brother, but don’t forget about yourself. You should just quit this job…” He paused for a second and then scoffed.
“You even convened me that it’s actually a job. God Jae, I feel horrible. Please, would you consider whatever Yunho offers? I’m sorry for being a loser rich friend who doesn’t have access for his own money…”
“Minnie…”
“I know, it’s ok, you don’t have to and I understand your situation. But I could’ve helped but I didn’t work so hard for you”
“You were there for me, all the time” Jaejoong said stroking Changmin’s hair. “I’m grateful to have a friend like you” He added kissing Changmin’s hair.
“Thanks Jae”
Silence sudden engulfed them, but neither minded it. Each one thinking about what they said, what they did. Jaejoong was contemplating the possibility of finding another job, a real one and living a normal life. Whether he would be able to go back to being normal again.
“By the way” Changmin suddenly spoke.
“What?” Jaejoong answered his call.
“Never kiss me when my baby is here, your precious lips would be shoved off”
And Jaejoong laughed.
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Yunho kicked the door of his bedroom making it hit the wall with a thud. He practically ran and jumped on the bed.
“What the fuck?” Donghae groaned when the bed dripped dramatically and his body jumped off the bed and landed with a hoff.
“Waky waky, we have a plane to catch” Yunho announced shaking Donghae’s body.
“What fucking plane. Leave me the fuck alone. Isn’t it enough that you dragged me here in my Saturday morning, and you’re fucking faking a flight? Fuck you asshole”
Yunho made a face and shivered.
“Man your mouth in the morning is so effing dirty”
“Then shut up and fuck off if you don’t want to hear it”
Yunho swore he heard him muttering a ‘fucking motherfucker sonofabitch asshole’ before burying himself in his own pillow in his own bed.
“You know the CEO just called” Yunho whispered in Donghae’s ears.
“Who the fuck?” Donghae whimpered in frustration.
“You know. The CEO of the company we’re working in” Yunho added poking Donghae’s side. He then turned his head, and opened an eye.
“Mr. Kwon?”
Yunho nodded with a grin. Donghae growled and screamed in Yunho’s pillow.
“Fuck this shit, what the fuck does he want?”
“Oh, I’m sure Mr. Kwon would fire Mr. Dick if he heard what he said about him” Yunho voiced in a sing song voice still poking Donghae’s sides.
“You’re such an ass in the morning you know that?” Donghae said after he sat on his knees, hair tossed to the side, eyes puffed and cheeks red.
“And you’re quite cute for someone who curses so much in the morning”
Donghae sighed exasperatedly and threw the covers away.
“He said we need to be in the airport twelve sharp, the plane will take off at one and we should be in the meeting in Jeju by four.
“Fuckin old man. It’s my fucking Saturday and he still makes me work. What does he think of me, his slave? One day I will own my own company and I will not even think about any of you and I will be rich and a big bald bastard…”
Donghae blabbered his complains on his way to the bathroom. Yunho grinned behind him like a fool and laughed at him and his mood. Donghae suddenly turned before closing the bathroom door.
“…And you won’t even dare to call me a dick anymore. You will be my personal slave”
And he slammed the door shut behind him. Yunho laughed some more and then sat on his bed with a sigh. He fished his phone and flipped it in his hands thinking whether it was a good idea calling or not. He finally settled that it’s better now than later.
“Jaejoong, hi, good morning” He greeted once the other line was picked.
“Morning” Jaejoong answered awkwardly.
“I just wanted to tell you that I’m going on a trip to Jeju after few hours”
“Oh, have a nice trip”
“It’s actually a business trip…” Yunho laughed awkwardly. “And don’t worry; I will be back before Tuesday. So our date is still on”
“D-date?”
“I mean… Mmmm, you know, the saloon and the competition”
“Ahh, hahaha, yeah sure. Have a safe trip then”
Yunho could feel the tension even when they were on the phone.
“Ok then, I will leave you to prepare” Jaejoong said trying to get over the weird atmosphere.
“Oh okay… and Jae… Mmmm”
“What is it?”
Yunho swore he heard desperation in those words and he could imagine Jaejoong holding the phone in his hands tightly.
“About yesterday…”
“Y-you remember?”
“I think I do and I’m really…”
“It’s ok, just forget about it, it was nothing really…”
“No Jae, wait. Forget about it? Do you want to forget about it?” Yunho practically screamed in phone startling Jaejoong on the other line.
“I… I thought you wanted to forget about… because it like… it was kind of, a mistake since you were kinda drunk and…”
“I meant it” The words went out of Yunho’s mouth without him realizing.
“Eh?”
“I mean, not what happened but what I said… I think I meant it…”
“You think? Oh… we’ll talk about it later then… When you really know”
Yunho closed his eyes and hit his head with his fist.
“Jae, I… Ok, just don’t forget about it… I don’t want to, unless you want to…”
“Yun…”
“You know what… you’re right. We’ll talk about it later”
“O-okay”
“Need anything from Jeju?”
“No thanks. Just come back safe okay?”
“Okay”
Yunho closed the phone with another sigh. He ruffled his hair and then pulled it between his fingers.
CLICK
Yunho turned his head only to see Donghae in a towel and his phone in hand.
“You know what. This picture will look the best in youtube”
“Delete it” Yunho warned, but Donghae smirked and closed the lid of his phone.
“You wish”
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