My psych told me channel some of my feelings into being creative rather then into self-destructing. So it's my job to now do that. I've become semi-addicted to cigarettes again over the last week so this is as good a time as ever to do some brainstorming over how I can ritually incorporate that into my life.

I also had acupuncture today for the ( Read more... )

My name is Sebastien. I am an Egyptian Australian with European ancestry. I am a Trans Queer activist that wants to be seen and heard. I commit to this cause however it kills me. Im learning how, for the first time, to put my foreign heritage in front of my Colonial ancestry. To learn from my not to distant relatives about survival and passion. ( Read more... )

All these feelings I've been having recently have manifested to fight off the leftovers f all this trauma i didnt know cnsume me

The white-washing of everything thats been in my life

From racism to islamaphobia to ignorance to hate that has divided my family a thousand times over

It's sections within sections within faces within hands

that held the ( Read more... )

My grandparents who loved me just wanted the wrld fr me,

took me and cared for me like it all shuld have been

My mother was dead then and s what would becme of me

A white little baby held by a freign daddy

A nice man, a kind man, who did everything t keep me

Safe and happy away frm the bad dreams

Scary faces, voices and endless chasing

of entities ( Read more... )

I've been afraid, I have to admit to myself for so long. I've been afraid to confront my creativity through any means necessary. Its like putting pen to paper culd errupt something so strong in me that I could flod my life with emtin

Ive stepped upn the precipice of a new life and yet there are s many left ver feelings and experiences frm the last ( Read more... )

my first entry on the new editor

Considering my woeisme post last week I thought I'd do a catch up post today ( Read more... )

Isn't it just like me...considering it's 5am...I have only slept two hours and I have so much going on in my head that I have no other choice but to turn to lj. When I'm so depressed I don't know what to do with myself ...here is where I come ( Read more... )

Dear livejournal ( Read more... )

I have to find stillness. I've been avoiding it for a while ( Read more... )