Exploring the Love Before Me by Aingeal
Title: Exploring the Love Before Me
Pairing: Fraser/Vecchio
Author: Aingeal
Rating: NC-17
Prompt: 83. - Vecchio is completely inexperienced in gay sex but Fraser is not.
Summary: Fraser shows Ray the way during their first time.
Author Notes: Much thanks to leda_speaks for a lovely beta job. I would also say with this fic - slight sap warning.
Exploring the Love Before Me
Ray sat waiting. His hands gripped the table so hard his knuckles were white. He’d said it, he’d actually said it, he’d blurted it out. He loved Benton Fraser. The reaction from the Mountie had been silence. Ray could feel his cheeks flushing. All he wanted to do was stand up and get out of there so he didn’t have to deal with this. He’d get home, go to bed and hope the whole thing was a nightmare. His body, however, was not co-operating with him and he remained rooted to the spot.
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Benton Fraser stood on the other side of the apartment seeing the fear in Ray’s face, Ray was actually afraid. Fraser was still trying to process what Ray had just told him. It hadn’t been the moment he’d spent months envisioning; it had been said in a fit of annoyance but still, Ray meant every word he said. Perhaps it had taken that tension to push them both into this. Only Ray wasn’t moving, he was pale, and scared.
For once Fraser wasn’t sure what he should do next. He’d never dreamed that Ray would ever utter love for him, would ever admit it. And now Fraser himself found the words caught in his throat, unable to be spoken out loud. All his emotions were held back by a dam of uncertainty.
The moments ticked by, each one seeming slower than the last. Both of them were still as statues. Even Diefenbaker was silent. There was a calm in the air was the calm but Fraser knew a storm was coming and one of them would have to unleash it. It was another long moment before he faintly decided to take that action.
Fraser strode to the table but, Ray wasn’t meeting his gaze. He gently tipped Ray’s face toward him so he could show him what he felt but couldn’t speak it. His thumb lingered a caress on Ray’s cheek but still Ray was silent. Fraser bent down and pressed their lips together, hoping this would be the sign that would tell Ray everything was alright.
However this didn’t have the desired effect. Ray got up from the table but his actions were stilted, still laced with insecurities. He backed away slightly as if he wasn’t sure what to make of Fraser, his supposedly chaste best friend kissing him. Fraser took a step closer but this time Ray remained rooted to the spot, the fear still strong in his eyes.
Fraser smiled gently and enfolded Ray in his arms. He could feel the tension that lay below the surface, reflected in Ray’s stiff muscles.
“Ray, relax,” he whispered.
“I am relaxed, Benny,” Ray replied, a slight stutter to his voice.
“You’re not, Ray, I can feel you’re very tense,” Fraser said leaning into Ray and whispering into his ear.
Ray shivered slightly in anticipation and Fraser didn’t let him down. He moved in for a kiss and this time Ray didn’t pull away or seem surprised as the fear began to leave him. When their lips met this time Ray’s arms crept around Fraser echoing the embrace that already held him.
As Fraser ran his tongue across Ray’s lips and was allowed access to that wonderful generous mouth he could finally felt Ray’s tension dissolve, replaced with the feeling of a man both relaxed and aroused. He slowly coaxed Ray to participate in the deep kiss they were sharing, and they became more wrapped up in each other. Ray responded with fervour, enjoying the playful aspect of this new form of intimacy.
The kiss broke and Fraser caressed Ray’s cheek. There was still some fear there but it was outweighed by the love and arousal.
“Sorry, Benny,” Ray croaked. “It’s just this is new to me, with a guy, you know?”
“I thought so, Ray,” Fraser’s words were gentle. “Don’t worry, I won’t hurt you.”
“Know what you’re doing, Benny?”
Fraser nodded, “Yes, Ray.”
“Show me,” Ray said.
Fraser couldn’t be sure there wasn’t more to be said but any words may have been uttered were lost in another kiss. Ray knew how to kiss, Fraser was sure of that but of all the people Fraser had kissed not one had come close to Ray. It was simply because it was Ray’s lips and Fraser was addicted.
Ray was so caught up it was easy enough to manoeuvre them both to the narrow bed. Fraser lost track of Dief but he was pretty sure the wolf had left by the fire escape, well aware of what was about to happen. He was a very perceptive wolf.
It was Ray who fell onto the bed first with Fraser toppling onto him. Fraser looked down at Ray as they broke their kiss. Ray was smiling and there was joy in his eyes. He seemed to have a contentment about him as he reached to touch Fraser’s face. Ray’s fingers were long and elegant and caused a shiver to go down Fraser’s spine, heightening his arousal which was making itself felt lower down their bodies.
They didn’t seem to need words at this point as Fraser began to slowly remove Ray’s clothing, His heart leapt with joy at the trust Ray had placed in him. Ray was willing to do something he had never done before, to put aside cultural stereotypes and fears and make love with him. Fraser was so grateful all he could do was gently smile and kiss at each part of Ray’s flesh he exposed.
For he could never tire of this exploration. As soon as Ray’s jacket, tie and shirt were removed Fraser had to discover Ray thoroughly. He nuzzled at Ray’s chest, breathing the gentle scents of male perfume both artificial and natural. He’d seen men’s chests before but Ray’s was a thing to sample and enjoy and Ray himself was so responsive, touching Fraser, stroking his hair and murmuring endearments in between rather unsubtle moans.
Fraser enjoyed kissing and licking and nipping Ray’s skin, observing which got the best response and gave Ray the most pleasure. He soon found Ray’s nipples were especially sensitive and lingered there for long while suckling and softly biting at the tender buds.
He didn’t have as much time as he would like, however. His foreplay always tended to do that, to leave himself and the other person teetering on the brink. He removed his own clothes in such a hurry he thought he had heard ripping fabric. But Ray’s hands were still there, gently exploring with touch. They were perhaps more hesitant than Fraser’s had been but there was no doubt Ray was enjoying the feel of Fraser’s skin. Fraser himself blushed as he lay there naked in front of his partially clothed lover.
That situation was soon remedied. He couldn’t wait to see the rest of Ray, having been spoiled by what had been revealed so far and he wasn’t disappointed. He would have spoken, told Ray of his beauty but he realised that it wasn’t needed at this moment. All that mattered was getting his skin to touch Ray’s.
When their bodies finally touched it was electric. Now they were both naked Fraser was able to document the way their skin felt as it brushed together, the way their kisses and the melding of their mouths complemented the feeling of melding he felt everywhere they touched. Ray rolled them so they were facing each other, wrapping his arms firmly around him and Fraser returned the gesture.
It seemed Ray was reciprocating every move Fraser made for licking his lover’s ear to stroking his back. Fraser spent time worshipping Ray neck then he himself felt a love bite placed on his own. Despite his lack of experience Ray was a quick learner and Fraser felt privileged to be Ray’s guide to this new form of lovemaking. Fraser drew on every past experience he had ever had but none seemed to compare to this. Part of him wondered if it was just the passing of time that had dulled the memories of all of his other encounters but somehow he doubted it. He’d rarely made love with someone he was in love and who was in love with him.
Ray was exploring his chest now, mirroring Fraser’s earlier actions. Ray seemed to realise Fraser had been doing what he himself enjoyed and he was delighted at Ray’s attempts. Ray was getting good as his movements lost their uncertainty and began to take on a certain confidence that reflected the fact that although Ray was making love with a man for the first time he wanted this more than anything.
Gradually Fraser felt the end nearing and stopped. He pulled away from Ray who looked puzzled, looked hurt as if he had done something wrong. Fraser stopped Ray from speaking with a gentle finger on his lips. He followed this with a kiss before he once more rolled Ray onto his back.
Fraser wanted something, something he had never had before. This was all new territory for Ray, but now Fraser wanted to take it one step further and make love with Ray in a way that would be new to both of them. He knew the logistics of the act, he even had the items he required for the preparation, perhaps he had hoped beyond hope they would be needed someday.
Fraser left the bed leaving a rather confused Ray, but Ray had trusted him this far, Fraser hoped he’d trust him just a little bit longer. It took longer to locate the items in question than Fraser had thought it would; they had been hidden away after she had come into their lives.
Fraser moved back to the bed to be met by a glorious sight. Ray was still lying there, breathing hard as he tried to control his arousal, his cock long, upright and ready. He looked at what Fraser had carried over the bed and whilst he was starting to realise what Fraser had in mind he still looked slightly puzzled.
Fraser knelt on the bed straddling Ray. He took the condom and carefully extracted it from its foil shell. He ran a lazy finger along Ray’s erection which caused a slight bucking from his eager lover. Taking hold of Ray’s cock he gently but firmly squeezed it to dampen Ray’s arousal, as an old friend of his had once done. It was a useful trick.
He unrolled the fresh condom onto Ray’s erection, making sure it was a snug, comfortable fit. He smiled slightly at Ray’s continued confusion. He didn't want to speak, or say out loud what they were about to do. He wondered if Ray would object, perhaps not but still, he didn’t want to cheapen the moment.
It seemed as if Ray had some inkling when Fraser squeezed the slippery substance from the tube. Ray shook his head slightly and Fraser finally felt the need to speak.
“Trust me, Ray.”
Those three words seemed to calm Ray who was still nervous and sweating and not only from his prolonged arousal. Fraser turned away as he worked his slick fingers inside himself, opening up and making himself ready. He’d seen other men do this, though he had never done it himself. He’d been in Ray’s position then, not sure what was happening but wanting it all the same.
He finally felt as if he was ready for Ray. This was what he wanted, to take Ray inside his body, to love him. He knew this would be a huge step for Ray who had barely had time to adjust to making love with a man, to loving a man but if they were going into the pool, they might as well jump in with both feet.
Fraser gently straddled Ray again and looked at his face. Ray seemed to understand Fraser’s need and gently caressed his cheek as he hovered above Ray’s cock, ready to complete the act.
Taking a deep breath Fraser slowly lowered himself down. He hadn’t asked Ray to do so but he helped by guiding his cock into his lover’s body, for which Fraser was grateful as he tried to catalogue all that he was feeling. Physically it was uncomfortable and there was some pain and it was uncomfortable but emotionally the dam had broken and his emotions were pouring out.
He realised Ray was fully inside his body and stopped. He realised he had his eyes closed. Slowly he opened them to see Ray there in front of him, the shock gone from his face, replaced by lust and desire. Fraser looked down at his own his erection had softened somewhat so he began to stroke it lightly. Ray hands came to help him and he guided Ray’s hands in the way he enjoyed pleasuring himself. He left Ray's hands renewing his erection and braced himself. He looked at his body joined to Ray’s and finally felt ready to move.
He went slowly at first, not sure about this new feeling. He was doing the work as Ray concentrated on keeping Fraser’s cock happy. But gradually Fraser sensed a change as Ray pushed up to meet him as he slid down. The friction of Ray inside in his body was something he wasn’t used to, but it was an incredible feeling. Ray was pushing harder and managed to hit Fraser’s prostate which gave him a feeling of intense ecstasy.
Everything was a blur now as both their movements sped up. This was such a new feeling, so wonderful that a part of Fraser wanted it never to end. It had to though, and it was Ray that came first. Fraser felt his lover's cock spasm inside him and with Ray still caressing him, Fraser cried out as he came, slumping forward as Ray caught him.
They stayed in that position for a few minutes whilst they got their breath back. Fraser’s seed was splattered over the both of them and he knew they had to clean up. He moved forward a little more and Ray slipped from his body. Both men moaned at the loss of the connection as they stretched out together, tired from their exertions.
Ray was already starting to doze off when Fraser fought off his own sleepiness to remove the spent condom and get a cloth to wash them both down. Ray mumbled and latched onto Fraser as soon has he got back in the bed. Fraser gently laid his head on Ray’s chest and whispered, “I love you.” All other words could wait until morning.
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When Fraser woke up he could see Ray was already awake. For a moment he worried that last night hw had gone too far and scared his lover off, but it was not the case, Ray’s eyes were shining and a gentle smile played on his lips. “I love you, Benny,” he said.
Fraser again struggled to respond to that statement so, as he had last night, he chose to respond with an action, a gentle kiss to Ray’s cheek. That gave him the courage to reveal his feelings. “I love you too, Ray.”
“Yeah, you really showed me that last night.”
Fraser gulped. “I hope you didn’t think I was being too…forward.”
“You took me surprise, Benny. I would’ve never thought a guy like you would have known how to make love with a guy.”
“I have to admit, Ray, I have done it before.”
“So you’ve had a lot of sex?”
“Not that much, Ray. Well comparatively speaking.”
“But you’ve done it with guys before?”
“Yes, Ray although there are some aspects I’m not an expert at.”
“Such as?” Ray rolled closed.
“Well the erm…” Fraser gestured crudely, indicating the act they had performed last night.
Ray laughed. “I don’t believe it, you can’t even say it.”
“To answer your question, yes I’ve sexual relations with males before but it never went as far as erm…the most intimate act we enjoyed.”
“You mean you never…”
“No, Ray.”
“Why me?”
Fraser gently caressed Ray’s cheek and stroked the soft, short hair. “It just felt right to do with you. It’s never felt right to do that before.”
“Cool.”
“Cool?”
“That you would trust me enough for that.” Ray snuggled closer.
“I think it was more because you trusted me,” Fraser noted.
“How about because we trusted each other?” Ray offered.
Fraser smiled. “Fair enough, Ray.”
“But we are going to make love again, right?” Ray’s voice was expectant, hopeful.
“Of course, Ray, there are many more things I could show you and there are many more things we could explore together. It might take a long time however.”
“How long?”
“The rest of our lives.”
“And after,” Ray added.
“Forever then, Ray.”
“Yeah, Benny, forever.”
As they gently began to caress each other Fraser noticed Dief re-enter the apartment out of the corner of his eye. He’d have to explain things to Dief later. For now he had Ray and Ray had him and for now, that was more than enough.
Pairing: Fraser/Vecchio
Author: Aingeal
Rating: NC-17
Prompt: 83. - Vecchio is completely inexperienced in gay sex but Fraser is not.
Summary: Fraser shows Ray the way during their first time.
Author Notes: Much thanks to leda_speaks for a lovely beta job. I would also say with this fic - slight sap warning.
Exploring the Love Before Me
Ray sat waiting. His hands gripped the table so hard his knuckles were white. He’d said it, he’d actually said it, he’d blurted it out. He loved Benton Fraser. The reaction from the Mountie had been silence. Ray could feel his cheeks flushing. All he wanted to do was stand up and get out of there so he didn’t have to deal with this. He’d get home, go to bed and hope the whole thing was a nightmare. His body, however, was not co-operating with him and he remained rooted to the spot.
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Benton Fraser stood on the other side of the apartment seeing the fear in Ray’s face, Ray was actually afraid. Fraser was still trying to process what Ray had just told him. It hadn’t been the moment he’d spent months envisioning; it had been said in a fit of annoyance but still, Ray meant every word he said. Perhaps it had taken that tension to push them both into this. Only Ray wasn’t moving, he was pale, and scared.
For once Fraser wasn’t sure what he should do next. He’d never dreamed that Ray would ever utter love for him, would ever admit it. And now Fraser himself found the words caught in his throat, unable to be spoken out loud. All his emotions were held back by a dam of uncertainty.
The moments ticked by, each one seeming slower than the last. Both of them were still as statues. Even Diefenbaker was silent. There was a calm in the air was the calm but Fraser knew a storm was coming and one of them would have to unleash it. It was another long moment before he faintly decided to take that action.
Fraser strode to the table but, Ray wasn’t meeting his gaze. He gently tipped Ray’s face toward him so he could show him what he felt but couldn’t speak it. His thumb lingered a caress on Ray’s cheek but still Ray was silent. Fraser bent down and pressed their lips together, hoping this would be the sign that would tell Ray everything was alright.
However this didn’t have the desired effect. Ray got up from the table but his actions were stilted, still laced with insecurities. He backed away slightly as if he wasn’t sure what to make of Fraser, his supposedly chaste best friend kissing him. Fraser took a step closer but this time Ray remained rooted to the spot, the fear still strong in his eyes.
Fraser smiled gently and enfolded Ray in his arms. He could feel the tension that lay below the surface, reflected in Ray’s stiff muscles.
“Ray, relax,” he whispered.
“I am relaxed, Benny,” Ray replied, a slight stutter to his voice.
“You’re not, Ray, I can feel you’re very tense,” Fraser said leaning into Ray and whispering into his ear.
Ray shivered slightly in anticipation and Fraser didn’t let him down. He moved in for a kiss and this time Ray didn’t pull away or seem surprised as the fear began to leave him. When their lips met this time Ray’s arms crept around Fraser echoing the embrace that already held him.
As Fraser ran his tongue across Ray’s lips and was allowed access to that wonderful generous mouth he could finally felt Ray’s tension dissolve, replaced with the feeling of a man both relaxed and aroused. He slowly coaxed Ray to participate in the deep kiss they were sharing, and they became more wrapped up in each other. Ray responded with fervour, enjoying the playful aspect of this new form of intimacy.
The kiss broke and Fraser caressed Ray’s cheek. There was still some fear there but it was outweighed by the love and arousal.
“Sorry, Benny,” Ray croaked. “It’s just this is new to me, with a guy, you know?”
“I thought so, Ray,” Fraser’s words were gentle. “Don’t worry, I won’t hurt you.”
“Know what you’re doing, Benny?”
Fraser nodded, “Yes, Ray.”
“Show me,” Ray said.
Fraser couldn’t be sure there wasn’t more to be said but any words may have been uttered were lost in another kiss. Ray knew how to kiss, Fraser was sure of that but of all the people Fraser had kissed not one had come close to Ray. It was simply because it was Ray’s lips and Fraser was addicted.
Ray was so caught up it was easy enough to manoeuvre them both to the narrow bed. Fraser lost track of Dief but he was pretty sure the wolf had left by the fire escape, well aware of what was about to happen. He was a very perceptive wolf.
It was Ray who fell onto the bed first with Fraser toppling onto him. Fraser looked down at Ray as they broke their kiss. Ray was smiling and there was joy in his eyes. He seemed to have a contentment about him as he reached to touch Fraser’s face. Ray’s fingers were long and elegant and caused a shiver to go down Fraser’s spine, heightening his arousal which was making itself felt lower down their bodies.
They didn’t seem to need words at this point as Fraser began to slowly remove Ray’s clothing, His heart leapt with joy at the trust Ray had placed in him. Ray was willing to do something he had never done before, to put aside cultural stereotypes and fears and make love with him. Fraser was so grateful all he could do was gently smile and kiss at each part of Ray’s flesh he exposed.
For he could never tire of this exploration. As soon as Ray’s jacket, tie and shirt were removed Fraser had to discover Ray thoroughly. He nuzzled at Ray’s chest, breathing the gentle scents of male perfume both artificial and natural. He’d seen men’s chests before but Ray’s was a thing to sample and enjoy and Ray himself was so responsive, touching Fraser, stroking his hair and murmuring endearments in between rather unsubtle moans.
Fraser enjoyed kissing and licking and nipping Ray’s skin, observing which got the best response and gave Ray the most pleasure. He soon found Ray’s nipples were especially sensitive and lingered there for long while suckling and softly biting at the tender buds.
He didn’t have as much time as he would like, however. His foreplay always tended to do that, to leave himself and the other person teetering on the brink. He removed his own clothes in such a hurry he thought he had heard ripping fabric. But Ray’s hands were still there, gently exploring with touch. They were perhaps more hesitant than Fraser’s had been but there was no doubt Ray was enjoying the feel of Fraser’s skin. Fraser himself blushed as he lay there naked in front of his partially clothed lover.
That situation was soon remedied. He couldn’t wait to see the rest of Ray, having been spoiled by what had been revealed so far and he wasn’t disappointed. He would have spoken, told Ray of his beauty but he realised that it wasn’t needed at this moment. All that mattered was getting his skin to touch Ray’s.
When their bodies finally touched it was electric. Now they were both naked Fraser was able to document the way their skin felt as it brushed together, the way their kisses and the melding of their mouths complemented the feeling of melding he felt everywhere they touched. Ray rolled them so they were facing each other, wrapping his arms firmly around him and Fraser returned the gesture.
It seemed Ray was reciprocating every move Fraser made for licking his lover’s ear to stroking his back. Fraser spent time worshipping Ray neck then he himself felt a love bite placed on his own. Despite his lack of experience Ray was a quick learner and Fraser felt privileged to be Ray’s guide to this new form of lovemaking. Fraser drew on every past experience he had ever had but none seemed to compare to this. Part of him wondered if it was just the passing of time that had dulled the memories of all of his other encounters but somehow he doubted it. He’d rarely made love with someone he was in love and who was in love with him.
Ray was exploring his chest now, mirroring Fraser’s earlier actions. Ray seemed to realise Fraser had been doing what he himself enjoyed and he was delighted at Ray’s attempts. Ray was getting good as his movements lost their uncertainty and began to take on a certain confidence that reflected the fact that although Ray was making love with a man for the first time he wanted this more than anything.
Gradually Fraser felt the end nearing and stopped. He pulled away from Ray who looked puzzled, looked hurt as if he had done something wrong. Fraser stopped Ray from speaking with a gentle finger on his lips. He followed this with a kiss before he once more rolled Ray onto his back.
Fraser wanted something, something he had never had before. This was all new territory for Ray, but now Fraser wanted to take it one step further and make love with Ray in a way that would be new to both of them. He knew the logistics of the act, he even had the items he required for the preparation, perhaps he had hoped beyond hope they would be needed someday.
Fraser left the bed leaving a rather confused Ray, but Ray had trusted him this far, Fraser hoped he’d trust him just a little bit longer. It took longer to locate the items in question than Fraser had thought it would; they had been hidden away after she had come into their lives.
Fraser moved back to the bed to be met by a glorious sight. Ray was still lying there, breathing hard as he tried to control his arousal, his cock long, upright and ready. He looked at what Fraser had carried over the bed and whilst he was starting to realise what Fraser had in mind he still looked slightly puzzled.
Fraser knelt on the bed straddling Ray. He took the condom and carefully extracted it from its foil shell. He ran a lazy finger along Ray’s erection which caused a slight bucking from his eager lover. Taking hold of Ray’s cock he gently but firmly squeezed it to dampen Ray’s arousal, as an old friend of his had once done. It was a useful trick.
He unrolled the fresh condom onto Ray’s erection, making sure it was a snug, comfortable fit. He smiled slightly at Ray’s continued confusion. He didn't want to speak, or say out loud what they were about to do. He wondered if Ray would object, perhaps not but still, he didn’t want to cheapen the moment.
It seemed as if Ray had some inkling when Fraser squeezed the slippery substance from the tube. Ray shook his head slightly and Fraser finally felt the need to speak.
“Trust me, Ray.”
Those three words seemed to calm Ray who was still nervous and sweating and not only from his prolonged arousal. Fraser turned away as he worked his slick fingers inside himself, opening up and making himself ready. He’d seen other men do this, though he had never done it himself. He’d been in Ray’s position then, not sure what was happening but wanting it all the same.
He finally felt as if he was ready for Ray. This was what he wanted, to take Ray inside his body, to love him. He knew this would be a huge step for Ray who had barely had time to adjust to making love with a man, to loving a man but if they were going into the pool, they might as well jump in with both feet.
Fraser gently straddled Ray again and looked at his face. Ray seemed to understand Fraser’s need and gently caressed his cheek as he hovered above Ray’s cock, ready to complete the act.
Taking a deep breath Fraser slowly lowered himself down. He hadn’t asked Ray to do so but he helped by guiding his cock into his lover’s body, for which Fraser was grateful as he tried to catalogue all that he was feeling. Physically it was uncomfortable and there was some pain and it was uncomfortable but emotionally the dam had broken and his emotions were pouring out.
He realised Ray was fully inside his body and stopped. He realised he had his eyes closed. Slowly he opened them to see Ray there in front of him, the shock gone from his face, replaced by lust and desire. Fraser looked down at his own his erection had softened somewhat so he began to stroke it lightly. Ray hands came to help him and he guided Ray’s hands in the way he enjoyed pleasuring himself. He left Ray's hands renewing his erection and braced himself. He looked at his body joined to Ray’s and finally felt ready to move.
He went slowly at first, not sure about this new feeling. He was doing the work as Ray concentrated on keeping Fraser’s cock happy. But gradually Fraser sensed a change as Ray pushed up to meet him as he slid down. The friction of Ray inside in his body was something he wasn’t used to, but it was an incredible feeling. Ray was pushing harder and managed to hit Fraser’s prostate which gave him a feeling of intense ecstasy.
Everything was a blur now as both their movements sped up. This was such a new feeling, so wonderful that a part of Fraser wanted it never to end. It had to though, and it was Ray that came first. Fraser felt his lover's cock spasm inside him and with Ray still caressing him, Fraser cried out as he came, slumping forward as Ray caught him.
They stayed in that position for a few minutes whilst they got their breath back. Fraser’s seed was splattered over the both of them and he knew they had to clean up. He moved forward a little more and Ray slipped from his body. Both men moaned at the loss of the connection as they stretched out together, tired from their exertions.
Ray was already starting to doze off when Fraser fought off his own sleepiness to remove the spent condom and get a cloth to wash them both down. Ray mumbled and latched onto Fraser as soon has he got back in the bed. Fraser gently laid his head on Ray’s chest and whispered, “I love you.” All other words could wait until morning.
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When Fraser woke up he could see Ray was already awake. For a moment he worried that last night hw had gone too far and scared his lover off, but it was not the case, Ray’s eyes were shining and a gentle smile played on his lips. “I love you, Benny,” he said.
Fraser again struggled to respond to that statement so, as he had last night, he chose to respond with an action, a gentle kiss to Ray’s cheek. That gave him the courage to reveal his feelings. “I love you too, Ray.”
“Yeah, you really showed me that last night.”
Fraser gulped. “I hope you didn’t think I was being too…forward.”
“You took me surprise, Benny. I would’ve never thought a guy like you would have known how to make love with a guy.”
“I have to admit, Ray, I have done it before.”
“So you’ve had a lot of sex?”
“Not that much, Ray. Well comparatively speaking.”
“But you’ve done it with guys before?”
“Yes, Ray although there are some aspects I’m not an expert at.”
“Such as?” Ray rolled closed.
“Well the erm…” Fraser gestured crudely, indicating the act they had performed last night.
Ray laughed. “I don’t believe it, you can’t even say it.”
“To answer your question, yes I’ve sexual relations with males before but it never went as far as erm…the most intimate act we enjoyed.”
“You mean you never…”
“No, Ray.”
“Why me?”
Fraser gently caressed Ray’s cheek and stroked the soft, short hair. “It just felt right to do with you. It’s never felt right to do that before.”
“Cool.”
“Cool?”
“That you would trust me enough for that.” Ray snuggled closer.
“I think it was more because you trusted me,” Fraser noted.
“How about because we trusted each other?” Ray offered.
Fraser smiled. “Fair enough, Ray.”
“But we are going to make love again, right?” Ray’s voice was expectant, hopeful.
“Of course, Ray, there are many more things I could show you and there are many more things we could explore together. It might take a long time however.”
“How long?”
“The rest of our lives.”
“And after,” Ray added.
“Forever then, Ray.”
“Yeah, Benny, forever.”
As they gently began to caress each other Fraser noticed Dief re-enter the apartment out of the corner of his eye. He’d have to explain things to Dief later. For now he had Ray and Ray had him and for now, that was more than enough.