I took too many psych classes in school, also TMI

[georgiamagnolia]

I was as an adolescent and teenager the kind of girl, as Jim once said, that boys don't date but the kind of girl that boys marry. I thought that was damn stupid because how do you marry if you don't date? When I grew a little older I was the girl that listened and understood and reassured, I was the perfect transition relationship, when I wasn't

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[shadowpryde]

I think I speak for many when I say that I think many of us out here feel you deserve better

[georgiamagnolia]

There are so many good Jacks out there to enjoy. Jack Harkness is another good one, as is Jack Daniels. *grin

[cosmosmariner]

I wish I could say or do something to help you feel better about things. I'm the wrong person to do so; Rob was my first boyfriend and look where that got me. Married for almost eight years. Although there are times (and I hesitate to admit this, but truth is truth) that I wonder if I settled because at the time I couldn't imagine anyone else ever liking me or thinking I was pretty, and while I love Rob very much and he's my best friend, I often imagine what it would be like were I with someone else (and have for a while). I don't think I'm in love with this person but I do find myself thinking of him often, dreaming about him, etc. Does this mean I don't like being married, or I want out? No. I couldn't imagine my life without Rob. But then again I can't imagine my life without this other person, either.

So basically all this is to say that the heart is a cruel mistress and even when you are happy, it has a way of bringing the sting.

[georgiamagnolia]

I didn't mean to make you feel bad, sweets, and I am really just fine, honest I am. I very often use my journal to get things out of my head so I can see them, it is easier sometimes to understand them like that. A few times a year I feel the need to whine about the fuckedupedness of my current pseudo-relationship and my incessant fear of change and then once I remember that I like it fine, I go on again for a few months not caring. Most of the time I remember that what I would give up (random flirting with delivery drivers, a very important and special understanding with a friend that means the world to me, the freedom to lock myself in my apartment for entire weekends at a time) in order to have a 'normal' relationship would pretty much suck

[cosmosmariner]

Oh, you didn't make me feel bad, hon. I am always a shade melancholy in the middle of the night anyway. Probably wouldn't have been a big deal were I not up thinking about mystery fellow at midnight. But I was and there's the rub.

[georgiamagnolia]

*hugs*

[ic789]

Have I mentioned lately how much you make my introspection that much more fun-you're such an interesting person to understand yourself so well. :) Ironically enough, my first boyfriend ever called me on my birthday (huge surprise) and was fishing for info about me and my life on the West Coast. I don't understand why exactly, but I maintain contact-and now you've put into words something I've been thinking about for myself. I love you!

[georgiamagnolia]

I love you as well, sweetie. I hope that your life is stuffed fuoll of wonderful!