[Fic] Forbidden Love - Ch1
Title: Forbidden love
Pairing: Akame
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: They are the perfect family who has perfect houses and perfects sons. However, their world crumbles when they discover that their sons are having more than brotherly love between them. A struggle of two souls will start, but is a forbidden love will ever be meant to be?
Disclaimer: I own fictional characters that I made for this story, but I don’t own any characters from Johnny’s Entertainment. However, I wish I own Kazu.
A/N: This contains incest, so you’re warned. Also, I don’t promise you a happy ending especially that this fic has a very sad moment, so if you’re the type who hates angst, heavy angst, then this fic isn’t for you.
Changes happen all the time…….Nothing remains the same in this world……
Even love sometimes waver or just fade away……but sometimes……sometimes…..the love is still there……still strong…..but hidden….from everyone……unnoticed……from everyone……because some love…..is just not meant to be… because it’s forbidden they say…..or maybe it is……It is meant to be….but they can’t see it…..or they can, but they pretend not to see it….. they just don’t want you to be close……try to separate you from each other……and you can’t do a single thing about it……you can’t fight against them……. You only have to kill your love……in front of them…... Bury it inside of you……and try to move on…or at least show them you are….hoping that one day……in the future……one day maybe…….maybe then……
Chapter 1: Without You
He's sitting in the classroom, looking at his teacher and at the same time looking at nothing. He was spacing out as usual, his thoughts carrying him to that time of his life where everything was perfect.
He had so many new friends who always told him that they were his best friends and that would cause him so much pain. Best friends, the word itself was reserved for one person only in this whole world and no one could ever be his best friend except that person.
The problem is that this all was still kind of new and weird to him. He still sometimes didn’t believe that he’s here and everything truly happened. It was his second year in high school away from everyone he ever knew except his parents who never looked at him the same way after that incident. He made new friends or actually it was they who made him their new friend and somehow he wondered if it made a difference. Maybe it did because sometimes, on rare occasions, when he comes back and pay attention to them, Koki makes him laugh with his stupid jokes and Taguchi not being able to read the mood and atmosphere of the situation making Koki mad is a nice view. It's not like he never had friends before. He was in a baseball team in his previous school, but.....it was different. He didn't care about anyone else except him, so whenever he had free time, he would always spend that time with him. It's like, his whole life revolves only about him and he doesn't mind because he loved him. He still loves him.
He was brought was to reality again when Maki waved a hand in front of him.
Maki: Kame~~
Kame: Ah! Sorry
Maki: *pouts* you were spacing out again!
Kame: you were saying?
Maki: Want to go to Karoke after school?
Kame: *pain crept his heart* Sorry, but I can't! Maybe another time?
Maki: *mumbles while looking down* It's always another time
And this was Maki, a classmate he met in a very uncomfortable way. It was in the first day he arrived when everything was a mess in his life not that it wasn't at the moment, but he changed a lot from that time. He became a little in charge in some parts in him, but still, his life is still in a mess.
~ Flashback ~
It was a bright day for everyone especially who were waiting for this moment, their first year in high school. If in other circumstances, Kazuya will be happy as well, but instead, Kazuya was deeply in pain. He couldn't stand this foreign place. He wished to be in his school, not this one. He wanted to go to that school instead. Kazuya always dreamed of how school life will be with him. They will be eating lunch together. He will definitely try to sneak around to find a way and kiss him although he knew that the other won't like it, he always was the cautious one when they were in the public while he was the one who didn’t care about a single soul. Well, now he knows why he was that cautious. He was right because if they were more careful, maybe none of this would have happen.
But now, all of those dreams were crushed by his parents, he still can't believe they forced him to move away. How could they do this to him? Images of that night kept popping inside of his head making him wobble and sit.
Pictures of his bruised face still planted on his memory, how he was chasing after their car. He hated this, hated this life, hated his parents and most of all he hated himself for not being able to do anything simply because he was a minor. He wanted to go back to that night and try to do something different, like run away with him, or beat the crap out of his dad. Kazuya tusked, he knew that no matter how many times he played that scenario over and over again inside of his head, nothing will change and the outcome will be the same. He will be here, in this damned school where he knew no one at all while he was there, God knows doing what away from him.
Kazuya missed him, he missed him so much and he had enough of this. Why can’t they be together? Why do they have to be separated? Tears started falling from his eyes and soon, sobs followed and Kazuya lost his control over himself. He couldn’t stop his body shaking or the sobs he was producing, he was tired from all of this. He knew that he probably missed the first class, but he didn’t care about shit like that right now. He wanted out of this place and all he wished right now is for him to come and take him away from this place. Kidnap him like he once mentioned and Kazuya started to giggle remembering that time. Sobs mixed with giggles, whoever is going to see him right now is definitely going to think that he’s crazy.
A hand was placed on his shoulder that made Kazuya froze on his spot, thinking that it might be him, that God maybe answered his wishes not thinking any longer, he raised his head to meet a girl worried eyes. He gulped and turned his face around immediately. He tried to wipe away his tears while smiling bitterly, he should know better anyway. There are no way any of his wishes coming true, or he won’t be going through this kind of pain.
Maki: Are you ok? *heard the sobs and noticed the tears just now and was very worried*
Kazuya: I’m fine……I just need some time alone…
Maki: Ok, be strong!
Kazuya: …….
Maki: see ya
And they did meet each other again to discover that they were in the same class. Kazuya had been trying to avoid her since he hates dealing with girls, but she was stubborn and would always be there when he never would expect her to be. Soon, she became a friend of his and he was comfortable around her, but he noticed that she held a special place for him in her heart and it scared him. After almost 5 months of their friendship.
She called him out on the roof. He saw how she had a weird expression on her face and it brought back a buried memory in his heart and his chest clenched in pain along with his whole body.
Maki: *nervous and looking down* Kame-kun, I want to tell you something.
Kame: Don’t!
Maki: *raise her head to look at Kame* why?
Kame: I know what you want to say, so don’t! Don’t ruin our friendship!
Maki: *pain filled her heart*
Kame: I’m far too damaged Maki-chan! You deserve better!
Maki: *realized that he truly knew her feelings* h-how?
Kame: *walks to the roof side* someone who’s in love could understand other’s feelings easily. I know how you feel.
Maki: *shocked and in pain* you’re in love?
Kame: I’ve been in love with someone my whole life *smiles bitterly* that’s why I’m telling you this is hopeless….I can never love someone else.
Maki: *hurt* are you dating that girl?
Kame: It’s not about dating Maki-chan! We practically were living together!
Maki: But, you’re not anymore, right?
Kame: *pain crept his heart and chest* what is it to you?
Maki: *anxious* Then, how can you decide that without trying?
Kame: Because I know….deep down inside of me that no matter what I do or whom I’m with, I’ll never be over that person….*locked eyes with Maki* never Maki!
Maki: I’m not asking you to promise me anything, let’s just try!
Kame: *sighs*as I said Maki-chan I can’t!
Maki: we’ll just be the same as we are right now, but gradually….maybe…..in the future…..but I don’t need your promises…..
Kame: *getting angry* are you kidding me?
Maki: Kame please! *tears started falling* if you’re in love then you know how it feels when the person you’re in love with loves someone else!
Kame: *pain filled his heart and he bites his lips while walking toward Maki* don’t cry Maki! *pats her head* I’m doing this for your own good! You’ll only get attached more and that will be worse.
Maki: *clenched on his shirt* why are you sad if you’re in love Kame?
Kame: *shocked by the question* Maki!
Maki: *held tighter leaning into Kazuya’s chest* Why can’t we both try together, start something new together?
Kame: *sighs* I can’t promise you anything
Maki: I’m not asking you to!
Kame: *wrapped his arms around Maki* will you stop crying now? Now everyone will say that I made you cry!
Maki: *chuckles* but, you were the one who made me cry Kame!
Kame: *pushing Maki away to look at her* why you little ungrateful girl? I thought I’ll do you a favor, but I might change my mind now!
Maki: *little hurt but smiled* too late! See you later boyfriend!
Kame: HEY! Who are you calling boyfriend???
Maki: *laughs*
Kame: *looked at the sky* I hope that you can forgive me for this! *smiles bitterly* it’s not like it means anything to me anyway, but wouldn’t it be easier for everyone if I just fell in love with a girl? Wouldn’t it? *looks down at his shaking hands* sorry for letting her call me boyfriend, I knew how she felt like, remember that time when we were…..both feeling the same pain….*laughs* we were so stupid for not realizing it sooner….if we did….at least we would have more time, won’t we? *sighs and slides down till he drops on the floor* I’m going crazy talking to myself, but I need to feel like talking to you….*looks at the sky again* I need to feel like you’re still here with me……*raises his hand to the sky* where are you Jin?
~ End of Flashback ~
It’s finally been one year. He couldn’t believe how fast time goes by although it kind of stopped for him at that time. He’s currently in his second year in high school still dating Maki. Yeah right, as if it should be called dating. He never kissed her even once or even touched her hands. He never even treated her like a girlfriend ever, she was always like a friend and he could see how patient she was with him, he respected her for that. He really tried with her, tried to love her and forget himself and gets carried in the moment, but all that came into his mind was one person and that person was him. He didn’t know if he should just tell her already that they should stop this because he’s just fooling her and she knows it. But somehow, he can’t say he hates her company because he definitely grew to like her company more than the others that surround him because she doesn’t ask questions about his past and that suits him perfectly, she knows his past is off limits and she doesn’t pass that line.
Maki was feeling down lately, she had this bad feeling. As if something was bad about to happen and her intuition was never wrong, does that mean that Kame will break up with her? She glanced at Kame who was spacing out as usual during the class time. He was looking at the window while thinking deeply; a sad look on his face is all what she saw. She turned around immediately, she always hated that look, as if Kame was longing to that girl he loved. She couldn’t understand how could someone leave someone like Kame when it was obvious how much Kame was in love with the girl. Anyone could see it and although she always wanted to ask him, but she never dared to do it. She knew if she ever did, then that will probably mean the end of them. Kame hated someone invading his privacy including going to his house, she never went to his house once during their 6 months relation.
Funny isn’t it? She thought. She knew the other never returned any of her feelings back and it hurt so badly, but she’s attached to him more than ever now. She doesn’t think she can let go now or maybe she can, but she doesn’t want to. She glanced back at Kame again and……sighed…..She understands now what he meant by getting attached more…..he was right…..she was stupid, but she’s not regretting it because she’s happy with him and although he seems not caring at all, he never hurt her once and that’s enough. Maybe she just seduces him into sleeping with her and ends this struggle, but would that even be easy? She sighed again.
Kazuya returned back to his house. He just entered the house and went upstairs although he noticed his parents and heard his mom calling him.
Naomi: K-Kazuya, did you have lunch?
Hitoshi: *holds his wife hand annoyed* At least answer your mom when she’s asking you something!
But Kazuya never answered back and went inside his room and lied on his bed. He never talked to his parents after that day, after they snatched him away from him. Pain filled Kazuya’s heart and chest making his breathing heavy. He feels sorry for his parents, but he’s still mad at them and still hasn’t forgiven them yet. He hesitated many times to try and go back to normal, but the pain was too much. His parents have stolen the best thing that happened in his life and he doesn’t plan on forgiving them for that. He knew how tough it was on them and how shocking it was on them, but he didn’t care at all. He wished for them to see how much he loved him. He wished for them to see that their love was true as theirs too, but they stood in their way instead and stepped on their love. How can he forgive them that easy? He could hear the yelling starts downstairs and he can’t believe that his parents has became like this. They rarely had fights before and when they did, they were stupid kid’s fight that he felt embarrassed to be around them because they acted like teenagers. But now, he was the cause of their fights and somehow, he was happy…..
A part of him wished if his parents could maybe get divorce or be separated for a while so that they understand the pain he’s going through because they still have each other while he……he has no one…..no one at all…..
Chapter 2: The Past
Pairing: Akame
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Angst, Romance
Summary: They are the perfect family who has perfect houses and perfects sons. However, their world crumbles when they discover that their sons are having more than brotherly love between them. A struggle of two souls will start, but is a forbidden love will ever be meant to be?
Disclaimer: I own fictional characters that I made for this story, but I don’t own any characters from Johnny’s Entertainment. However, I wish I own Kazu.
A/N: This contains incest, so you’re warned. Also, I don’t promise you a happy ending especially that this fic has a very sad moment, so if you’re the type who hates angst, heavy angst, then this fic isn’t for you.
Changes happen all the time…….Nothing remains the same in this world……
Even love sometimes waver or just fade away……but sometimes……sometimes…..the love is still there……still strong…..but hidden….from everyone……unnoticed……from everyone……because some love…..is just not meant to be… because it’s forbidden they say…..or maybe it is……It is meant to be….but they can’t see it…..or they can, but they pretend not to see it….. they just don’t want you to be close……try to separate you from each other……and you can’t do a single thing about it……you can’t fight against them……. You only have to kill your love……in front of them…... Bury it inside of you……and try to move on…or at least show them you are….hoping that one day……in the future……one day maybe…….maybe then……
Chapter 1: Without You
He's sitting in the classroom, looking at his teacher and at the same time looking at nothing. He was spacing out as usual, his thoughts carrying him to that time of his life where everything was perfect.
He had so many new friends who always told him that they were his best friends and that would cause him so much pain. Best friends, the word itself was reserved for one person only in this whole world and no one could ever be his best friend except that person.
The problem is that this all was still kind of new and weird to him. He still sometimes didn’t believe that he’s here and everything truly happened. It was his second year in high school away from everyone he ever knew except his parents who never looked at him the same way after that incident. He made new friends or actually it was they who made him their new friend and somehow he wondered if it made a difference. Maybe it did because sometimes, on rare occasions, when he comes back and pay attention to them, Koki makes him laugh with his stupid jokes and Taguchi not being able to read the mood and atmosphere of the situation making Koki mad is a nice view. It's not like he never had friends before. He was in a baseball team in his previous school, but.....it was different. He didn't care about anyone else except him, so whenever he had free time, he would always spend that time with him. It's like, his whole life revolves only about him and he doesn't mind because he loved him. He still loves him.
He was brought was to reality again when Maki waved a hand in front of him.
Maki: Kame~~
Kame: Ah! Sorry
Maki: *pouts* you were spacing out again!
Kame: you were saying?
Maki: Want to go to Karoke after school?
Kame: *pain crept his heart* Sorry, but I can't! Maybe another time?
Maki: *mumbles while looking down* It's always another time
And this was Maki, a classmate he met in a very uncomfortable way. It was in the first day he arrived when everything was a mess in his life not that it wasn't at the moment, but he changed a lot from that time. He became a little in charge in some parts in him, but still, his life is still in a mess.
~ Flashback ~
It was a bright day for everyone especially who were waiting for this moment, their first year in high school. If in other circumstances, Kazuya will be happy as well, but instead, Kazuya was deeply in pain. He couldn't stand this foreign place. He wished to be in his school, not this one. He wanted to go to that school instead. Kazuya always dreamed of how school life will be with him. They will be eating lunch together. He will definitely try to sneak around to find a way and kiss him although he knew that the other won't like it, he always was the cautious one when they were in the public while he was the one who didn’t care about a single soul. Well, now he knows why he was that cautious. He was right because if they were more careful, maybe none of this would have happen.
But now, all of those dreams were crushed by his parents, he still can't believe they forced him to move away. How could they do this to him? Images of that night kept popping inside of his head making him wobble and sit.
Pictures of his bruised face still planted on his memory, how he was chasing after their car. He hated this, hated this life, hated his parents and most of all he hated himself for not being able to do anything simply because he was a minor. He wanted to go back to that night and try to do something different, like run away with him, or beat the crap out of his dad. Kazuya tusked, he knew that no matter how many times he played that scenario over and over again inside of his head, nothing will change and the outcome will be the same. He will be here, in this damned school where he knew no one at all while he was there, God knows doing what away from him.
Kazuya missed him, he missed him so much and he had enough of this. Why can’t they be together? Why do they have to be separated? Tears started falling from his eyes and soon, sobs followed and Kazuya lost his control over himself. He couldn’t stop his body shaking or the sobs he was producing, he was tired from all of this. He knew that he probably missed the first class, but he didn’t care about shit like that right now. He wanted out of this place and all he wished right now is for him to come and take him away from this place. Kidnap him like he once mentioned and Kazuya started to giggle remembering that time. Sobs mixed with giggles, whoever is going to see him right now is definitely going to think that he’s crazy.
A hand was placed on his shoulder that made Kazuya froze on his spot, thinking that it might be him, that God maybe answered his wishes not thinking any longer, he raised his head to meet a girl worried eyes. He gulped and turned his face around immediately. He tried to wipe away his tears while smiling bitterly, he should know better anyway. There are no way any of his wishes coming true, or he won’t be going through this kind of pain.
Maki: Are you ok? *heard the sobs and noticed the tears just now and was very worried*
Kazuya: I’m fine……I just need some time alone…
Maki: Ok, be strong!
Kazuya: …….
Maki: see ya
And they did meet each other again to discover that they were in the same class. Kazuya had been trying to avoid her since he hates dealing with girls, but she was stubborn and would always be there when he never would expect her to be. Soon, she became a friend of his and he was comfortable around her, but he noticed that she held a special place for him in her heart and it scared him. After almost 5 months of their friendship.
She called him out on the roof. He saw how she had a weird expression on her face and it brought back a buried memory in his heart and his chest clenched in pain along with his whole body.
Maki: *nervous and looking down* Kame-kun, I want to tell you something.
Kame: Don’t!
Maki: *raise her head to look at Kame* why?
Kame: I know what you want to say, so don’t! Don’t ruin our friendship!
Maki: *pain filled her heart*
Kame: I’m far too damaged Maki-chan! You deserve better!
Maki: *realized that he truly knew her feelings* h-how?
Kame: *walks to the roof side* someone who’s in love could understand other’s feelings easily. I know how you feel.
Maki: *shocked and in pain* you’re in love?
Kame: I’ve been in love with someone my whole life *smiles bitterly* that’s why I’m telling you this is hopeless….I can never love someone else.
Maki: *hurt* are you dating that girl?
Kame: It’s not about dating Maki-chan! We practically were living together!
Maki: But, you’re not anymore, right?
Kame: *pain crept his heart and chest* what is it to you?
Maki: *anxious* Then, how can you decide that without trying?
Kame: Because I know….deep down inside of me that no matter what I do or whom I’m with, I’ll never be over that person….*locked eyes with Maki* never Maki!
Maki: I’m not asking you to promise me anything, let’s just try!
Kame: *sighs*as I said Maki-chan I can’t!
Maki: we’ll just be the same as we are right now, but gradually….maybe…..in the future…..but I don’t need your promises…..
Kame: *getting angry* are you kidding me?
Maki: Kame please! *tears started falling* if you’re in love then you know how it feels when the person you’re in love with loves someone else!
Kame: *pain filled his heart and he bites his lips while walking toward Maki* don’t cry Maki! *pats her head* I’m doing this for your own good! You’ll only get attached more and that will be worse.
Maki: *clenched on his shirt* why are you sad if you’re in love Kame?
Kame: *shocked by the question* Maki!
Maki: *held tighter leaning into Kazuya’s chest* Why can’t we both try together, start something new together?
Kame: *sighs* I can’t promise you anything
Maki: I’m not asking you to!
Kame: *wrapped his arms around Maki* will you stop crying now? Now everyone will say that I made you cry!
Maki: *chuckles* but, you were the one who made me cry Kame!
Kame: *pushing Maki away to look at her* why you little ungrateful girl? I thought I’ll do you a favor, but I might change my mind now!
Maki: *little hurt but smiled* too late! See you later boyfriend!
Kame: HEY! Who are you calling boyfriend???
Maki: *laughs*
Kame: *looked at the sky* I hope that you can forgive me for this! *smiles bitterly* it’s not like it means anything to me anyway, but wouldn’t it be easier for everyone if I just fell in love with a girl? Wouldn’t it? *looks down at his shaking hands* sorry for letting her call me boyfriend, I knew how she felt like, remember that time when we were…..both feeling the same pain….*laughs* we were so stupid for not realizing it sooner….if we did….at least we would have more time, won’t we? *sighs and slides down till he drops on the floor* I’m going crazy talking to myself, but I need to feel like talking to you….*looks at the sky again* I need to feel like you’re still here with me……*raises his hand to the sky* where are you Jin?
~ End of Flashback ~
It’s finally been one year. He couldn’t believe how fast time goes by although it kind of stopped for him at that time. He’s currently in his second year in high school still dating Maki. Yeah right, as if it should be called dating. He never kissed her even once or even touched her hands. He never even treated her like a girlfriend ever, she was always like a friend and he could see how patient she was with him, he respected her for that. He really tried with her, tried to love her and forget himself and gets carried in the moment, but all that came into his mind was one person and that person was him. He didn’t know if he should just tell her already that they should stop this because he’s just fooling her and she knows it. But somehow, he can’t say he hates her company because he definitely grew to like her company more than the others that surround him because she doesn’t ask questions about his past and that suits him perfectly, she knows his past is off limits and she doesn’t pass that line.
Maki was feeling down lately, she had this bad feeling. As if something was bad about to happen and her intuition was never wrong, does that mean that Kame will break up with her? She glanced at Kame who was spacing out as usual during the class time. He was looking at the window while thinking deeply; a sad look on his face is all what she saw. She turned around immediately, she always hated that look, as if Kame was longing to that girl he loved. She couldn’t understand how could someone leave someone like Kame when it was obvious how much Kame was in love with the girl. Anyone could see it and although she always wanted to ask him, but she never dared to do it. She knew if she ever did, then that will probably mean the end of them. Kame hated someone invading his privacy including going to his house, she never went to his house once during their 6 months relation.
Funny isn’t it? She thought. She knew the other never returned any of her feelings back and it hurt so badly, but she’s attached to him more than ever now. She doesn’t think she can let go now or maybe she can, but she doesn’t want to. She glanced back at Kame again and……sighed…..She understands now what he meant by getting attached more…..he was right…..she was stupid, but she’s not regretting it because she’s happy with him and although he seems not caring at all, he never hurt her once and that’s enough. Maybe she just seduces him into sleeping with her and ends this struggle, but would that even be easy? She sighed again.
Kazuya returned back to his house. He just entered the house and went upstairs although he noticed his parents and heard his mom calling him.
Naomi: K-Kazuya, did you have lunch?
Hitoshi: *holds his wife hand annoyed* At least answer your mom when she’s asking you something!
But Kazuya never answered back and went inside his room and lied on his bed. He never talked to his parents after that day, after they snatched him away from him. Pain filled Kazuya’s heart and chest making his breathing heavy. He feels sorry for his parents, but he’s still mad at them and still hasn’t forgiven them yet. He hesitated many times to try and go back to normal, but the pain was too much. His parents have stolen the best thing that happened in his life and he doesn’t plan on forgiving them for that. He knew how tough it was on them and how shocking it was on them, but he didn’t care at all. He wished for them to see how much he loved him. He wished for them to see that their love was true as theirs too, but they stood in their way instead and stepped on their love. How can he forgive them that easy? He could hear the yelling starts downstairs and he can’t believe that his parents has became like this. They rarely had fights before and when they did, they were stupid kid’s fight that he felt embarrassed to be around them because they acted like teenagers. But now, he was the cause of their fights and somehow, he was happy…..
A part of him wished if his parents could maybe get divorce or be separated for a while so that they understand the pain he’s going through because they still have each other while he……he has no one…..no one at all…..
Chapter 2: The Past