The cruise is over. There are no words to describe it with justice. But I can at least say I had a blast. It's awesome when you can walk away from your life's troubles and have a good time. Yea. I'm more confused after the cruise than before, but it is a good confusion, if that's possible. I saw things I haven't seen in a long time. And not ( Read more... )

Ok, so I'm up at three in the morning. It's about that time. Ready to go am I. And yet, I'm leaving several things behind. Oh well, you know the story ( Read more... )

There is a problem with breadcrumbs. Whenever you start to leave them, they can be blown by the wind, eaten by a crow, or brushed by a passer-by. And it's tough to leave breadcrumbs that take you so far from home you don't remember what home looks like, or even is. Well, week one of my confusion is over, and week two is just beginning. I'm ( Read more... )

Wow, i wrote a song. It made me happy, that I am still productive musically. lol. It is ironic that I am saying that. Oh well. I'd share words, but seeing as how plagiarism works, and that random people look at this thing... Sorry. I still love all of you; but how much I like you is a different story ( Read more... )

So, my day went from ok to good. All by a little trip into my dad's closet. I'm becoming a photography buff, and he pulled out a treasure, basically. He handed me a set of Cokin 49 mm filters. I have about 7 different effects I can mix and match to create really cool photos. And for that I am happy. Now, filters alter the image, by adjusting ( Read more... )

Ok, I am out of things to do. It's sad when all of your friends decide to go to work/chill with girlfriends on the same day. I have nothing to do, and it's driving me crazy. So I decided to write, because I am so wonderful at that. Well, where to start ( Read more... )

Haha, I'm back. So, we had our state solo and ensemble today. My solo went well, I got a one, although the judge grilled me on performance. She gave seven one's (the highest rating, btw) all day. So that means I have AT LEAST a 1:7 shot or making State Champion. Each judge picks their outstanding performer of the day, and that student becomes ( Read more... )

I am flawed. I cannot trust people when placed under stress. I guess I just don't belong. Nothing I do is right. It doesn't help that other people aggravate my condition. I should have known better, but people, and my natural sense of worry finally overtook me. I'm not fit for anything anymore. All you see when you gaze into my eyes is the ( Read more... )

I don't know all of the story, so I can't share it yet with you. All that I can say for now, is that it hurts, whatever the outcome is. I've sat here for hours wondering. I can't keep doing this. i've given up too much, and made sacrifices not easily undone. But, they all may be for nothing. I've been so distraught, and overcome w/ emotion, ( Read more... )

Eleven years into my public school journey. One year left to go. It's rather scary. Oh well. I don't really know how I'm going to face it yet. Everything is marching onward, to the beat of a generic drum. I can't help but go along, even if it is against my will ( Read more... )