I feel like no one believes me when I say I'm moving to Germany. I really am btw. I have my ticket and my job already. Oh well, I guess it will become reality for everyone when I'm gone. Not like anyone will notice I guess. I sometimes feel like because I'm really introverted that I tend to become invisible. It's the only logical explanation as to ( Read more... )

I got the job in Germany! I'm so excited but I'm really nervous. Good things never happen to me, so there must be some catch to this whole trip. What if they leave me at the airport or change their mind now? I'll have to go to Germany anyways because I can't cancel the flight. Well I can, but there are no refunds so we wouldn't get our money back. ( Read more... )

After all the job searching I've done, I've still got nothing to show for it. I feel like I'm getting nowhere and it's ruining everything. People don't seem to understand my ambitions and why I push them away the way I do. All I've ever wanted was to have a family of my own. But I can't do that until I'm financially stable and I can't be stable ( Read more... )

I should be tired. By all means, I should be exhausted. I look it, but I don't feel it? Why? It's been two days now. I close my eyes, but I can't sleep. I zone out, but I know I'm not sleeping. And then I "wake up" but I'm still not tired. I really need to sleep.

To say I'm getting depressed would be a serious understatement. I don't understand. Why am I not good enough for ANYONE?? No one wants to fucking hire me. I'm qualified to do pretty much every job I've applied for and still nothing. I've been turned down so much and these last few months, that I just don't have the energy to keep looking. It doesn' ( Read more... )

Omg I am super nervous and excited. I really hope that lady picks me so I can go to Germany. o.o

If it doesn't come soon, I'm going to start panicking.

Omg seriously, what is wrong with me?

If not having a birthday party wasn't enough, the a/c decides to go out ON MY BIRTHDAY. It is SO hot in here, and maintenance won't come until Monday. So that means, no sleep for two days because I can't sleep if I'm hot. But I am definitely cranking the thermometer down to 65 when it gets fixed, Barbara can suck my ass for all I care. SHE'S not ( Read more... )

I sometimes wish I was more liked by people or knew how to communicate better and what not. I've always wanted a birthday party with friends. Like a big bash or a bbq or something. I wish people would remember my birthday and WANT to celebrate it. But I guess I don't blame them. I'm not a very likable person and I'm always forgotten. There are so ( Read more... )