Notes: This is for upupa-epops' Elena Gilbert centric fic Help, I'm Alive (the title of which is also the first track on the mix because that's the way we roll). Without getting into spoilery territory, the premise of her fic is essentially that life sucks and then you die and then it keeps sucking, and thus I have made efforts to offer a suitable soundtrack. Go read, worship, and listen to the following if you so desire (follow the link to dl!).
If we're still alive My regrets are few If my life is mine What shouldn't I do?
02. Band of Skulls - Blood
I want it to be over Turn the boat around and bring that girl in I stumble through the error Hope deferred makes the heart sick, sick, sick
I know you're bleeding, baby But you're not bleeding blood
03. Kim Ferron - Nothing But You
And I've got plenty of time Time to figure it out Time to think about you and me Whatever that was all about Got nothing to prove Got nothing to say No, I'm guessing I never thought you were good for me anyway
04. Aimee Mann - This Is How It Goes
So I try to hold on While you try to let go You won't tell me it's gone But baby, I'll know Baby, I'll know
05. Angie Hart - Blue
High tide Inside The air is dew And where were you?
While I I died And where were you?
06. Daniel Ahearn - I Will Let You Go
Put your hands in the water watch them go under Put your hand to the light watch the light come through And I will let you go
Put your time on the table See who'll sit down with you Give your love to the ones who offer you bruise After bruise, after bruise And I will let you go
07. Panda Su - Eric Is Dead
when i am older, i will change back to the way i once was when we first set our eyes on it
nothing's left, no turning back, i've already told you that count your knees and i'll count mine, we'll settle them in time
08. SaintSaviour - Woman Scorned
And time was we were synchronised And I felt all those ties dissolve in the winter Now I must begin again To be frozen
09. Blonde Redhead - Here Sometimes
A little girl upon the fireplace Only air flying emotionless Ring the bells for she could keep flying This is me, completely me
End of day, we watched the sun go down I can see you're like a firework You want to save me, people will save me But this is you, completely you
10. The Cardigans - My Favourite Game
And this is not a case of lust, you see it's not a matter of you versus me It's fine the way you want me on your own but in the end it's always me alone
11. Interpol - Rest My Chemistry
I haven't slept for two days I've bathed in nothing but sweat And I've made hallways Scenes for things to regret My friends they come And the lines they go by
12. TV on the Radio - I Was A Lover
I'm locked in my bedroom, so send back the clowns My clone wears a brown shirt, and I seduce him when there's no one around Mano why mano, on a bed of nails Bring it on like a storm, till I knock the wind out of his sails And we don't make eye contact, when we have run-ins in town Just a barely polite nod, and nervous stares towards the ground
13. Florence & The Machine - Breaking Down
All alone on the edge of sleep My old familiar friend Comes and lies down next to me And I can see it coming from the edge of the room Smiling in the streetlight even with my eyes shut tight I still see it coming now
14. Aimee Mann - You Could Make A Killing
There is nothing that competes with habit And I know it's neither deep nor tragic It's simply that you have to have it
So you can make a killing Oh you can make a killing
I wish I was both young and stupid Then I too could have the fun that you did Till it was time to pony up what you bid
15. Bon Iver - Blindsided
Taut line, down to the shoreline The end of a blood line, the moon is a cold light
There's a pull to the flow My feet melt the snow For the irony, I'd rather know 'Cause blinded, I was blindsided
16. Declan Flynn - Ease My Pain
Out of time, I hear your voice Break through the noise And pain, my heart’s refrain
Why can’t I convince myself That this is the right time To contend
17. Ellie Goulding - Salt Skin
You're as sharp as a knife and you fit like a glove That is no way to live, that is no way to love Full of fear in your skin and the weakness in giving in Stabbed in the back but you feel no pain Push the heaviest doors that you can't open Yeah, they tied me up and my body lies still, again
18. The Naked and Famous - Girls Like You
How would you cope if the world decided to Make you suffer for all that you were? How could you dance if no-one was watching And you couldn't even care if they were? What would you do if you couldn't even feel? Not even pitiful pain How would you deal with the indecisions Eating away at the days?
Don't you know people write songs about girls like you? About girls like you