what's the point of this, to be oppressed and be happy about it, this place these people. they can suck dick. and i'm sure they do. the ignorance and just plain meanness that have went into the last 5 years is incredibly unbelievable. but believe it. greedy little mean hearted fucks

i'm pretty sure everyones pimped and capitalized on music so long that its lost all meaning to me. I'm pretty sure the worlds pushing me towards suicide. They really find life to be a game because they've heard people say that a bunch. hahhahah

i guess theres really nothing I can do but hope to die. This isn;t a life im willing to live.
lets go from there.

Ok so its been years since I've posted anything in the good ole live journal. Wow have things changed. I wanna go back and read some old posts before shit went to hell. All I did then was complain too much before I had any real reason to complain. Talk about livin hard knocks aahahahahahahah. its not funny. Anyway. Now things are ok enough I ( Read more... )

I dreamt about you last night we were so in love and happy together. you were smiling the way you do and we were making love. I asked you to marry me and i swear i felt you light up just like you were there. i was so damned happy. i just want to tell you i still love you but i dunno what good it would do. I'll never stop hoping though.

They're forming ranks against me. something unanticipated.

Wow. This journal used to mean a lot to me. Maybe it's still a place where free speech reigns free and freedom of thought as well
P.m. I'm doing fine

my mom just freudian slipped and said YOUR NOBODY TO US (the us referring to the family, I all ready knew that, but hearing her said it just kinda confirmed suspicions)

I've got a clean shaved head and a bag of hippie weed, winning combo.

Now I want pretzel and cheese combos.

I'm high and i'm drunk, and I still need something I don't have. At least not right now. A woman some cocaine. Whatever it is ( Read more... )