Lets see... a lot has happened since my last post. I have a job. I'm moving to Madison or not. I can't really make up my mind. There's this girl. She has given me a second chance or might. She's married now, but she still loves me and wants to be with me. Her husband is in Iraq though so she can't divorce him till he's back. I don't know that she ( Read more... )

My mind is screaming, "What am I gonna do, what am I gonna do?" It's time to move on I guess. Just about everyone else has. I find myself still here in this city. There's so little here for me. I should go. I should disappear. How long would it be without my meds before I got picked up again. I've been experimenting. After three days of not taking ( Read more... )

Only myself and the cats are still awake... they meow for attention, speaking to me in a language I don't speak. Sizzling Italians on my little Forman grill. Snickers slips into my room when I enter. I don't know what he is going so crazy about. He leaps in the window and quiets down... just looking for a safe spot to sleep. I spark up the ( Read more... )

I had a dream about her again last night. It's strange really I rarely think about her anymore. I know I owe her an amends when I get back. I hardly slept last night. I awoke again ang again thoughts racing brooding overpowering. Where to go from here. My emotions are in constant motion fear anger joy rage hate love terror digust sorrow pain ( Read more... )

The Army is sending me home. I got to basic training and had a mental break. My mind and body became flooded with the urge to hurt to kill to destroy myself the people around me. I started to see things things I know are not real. No one would beleive me they sent me to a mental hospital and said we know you're faking it. They said you're just ( Read more... )

I'm leaving for bootcamp I'll miss you guys ^.^

And I'll be gone from here. I'm off to bootcamp and AIT. I won't be back until around July.

Even the cookies know!


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Love is the souls recognition of its counterpoint in another. I don't know if I love her, but I could see myself falling for her.