sarah is ready for a change.
something so random.
with myself.

my car payment is due today. shiit.
im still convinced in June i will be buying another car. im a car freak.
i love mazdas. and i love mine. but i think its time to go back to ford.
pretty fords.

i cant decide what to change. i want it to be noticeable. ya know?
something that makes me say ( Read more... )

As it hits the ground,
the burst from the pressure is like a stone being thrown into the ocean.
each strike, each splatter has a different meaning.
1.2.3.4.5....
are the lies im leaving behind.
6.7.8.9.10....
are the parts that will never mend.
11.12.13.14.15....
are the thoughts that never came easy.
16.17.18.19.20....
is everything that im missing.
21.22.23 ( Read more... )

Nothing lasts forever, but I can always imagine that things will. You told me flat out that I had to get over it. So I am, this is how Im getting over it... I have to have everything in small doses now. But there are somethings that make me think that I made a mistake, that you made a mistake too. This just cant be one sided... can it?

There are ( Read more... )

Have you ever noticed it rains on the days you
just might feel the saddest?

That maybe someone you lost, or even miss,
someone watching over you in general...
is crying for you.
or even with you?

When it rains,
I feel as if maybe I'm not the only one.
Who just might be sad.

It doesn't matter what kind of sadness.
It comes in all forms.
Pain, is something that ( Read more... )

I feel like as the time gets closer, that maybe I can really do this.
im kind of happy for myself in a way.
im alright with myself.

drink me like water.

  
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 how many times can I break before I shatter?

530 alltel store
after that Kohls.

hopefully i'll see you soon....
just to let you know! I have no other way to do it......

:(

 Apartment 30, on the 3rd floor smells like dryer sheets.
..... the apartment in building 1427, K, smells like pepper.
the same each day.
From 2:45 am to about 7am  (most days) i smoke about 7 cigarettes.
The same old lady sits at the bus stop every morning, with her tan jacket and overly large hat.
The old lady on Pinecrest has so many kittens, ( Read more... )

i guess when i think about it, it somewhat blinds me.
i tend to block things from my mind.
I'm scared to face these things.
but in all reality,
i know why.
I'm deathly afraid of losing.
and i know i would.

i cant let emotions out of me
because i know what i will loose.
and what i'd gain,
which is nothing.

im scared.
but im so caught up in it, that
maybe,
just ( Read more... )