self preservation and forgiveness...

[emilytaylor]

I have seen what an emphasis on preservation of the self over forgiveness of others, does to people. I have seen it evidenced in my husband and my lover: steventaylor and davidshaw. Neither are what you would call happy men. They both strive for excellence in their own ways. They both are obsessed with the pursuit of their goals. And neither is ever satisfied. They are

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[davidshaw]

Emily... can we talk?

[emilytaylor]

"I thought I made it clear that you were not to call again, David." Emily begins to laugh. It is a hard laugh. Not the light tone that David is used to. "Although I really should get out of the habit of calling you that. No. I should be out of the habit of calling you anything at all. Goodbye, David... Winston, whoever you are now." She doesn't hang up, not straight away, she can't.

[davidshaw]

David hears the momentary reluctance and continues to speak. "Emily, don't be like this. Please. Let me explain --"

[emilytaylor]

"Explain? You don't need to explain. My husband already did that for me. I know everything. I know about the widow in San Fransisco, I know that it was no coincidence we met, I know you didn't study in Berkley." Emily feels her temper rising, she cannot believe he still affects her this way. "All I can do is be thankful that despite what I did to him, to us, that Steven is willing to forgive it. To move beyond it. I doubt I would have been so charitable if he had invited some career criminal into our bed."