Thank you so much, babe! I've been wanting to meditate on Sam for awhile and this just kept lingering in my head so I decided that it was best to play it out. I'm glad that you think I did a good job of getting into his head.
Oh, I feel an AU coming on...that is interesting to think about. I don't know how things would have gone if Jess hadn't died at that point and time. I think eventually she would have found out because I don't think Sam could keep the truth from her forever; those things have a way of coming out. I'd imagine though, that if she learned the truth, decided to stay with Sam...when she met John and Dean, she would resent John for how Sam's life has been.
*hugs hard* I've got two very different SPN fics in the works right now - a Dean/Sam/Ruby piece and a Sam/Dean comic schmoop kind of thing. Thank you for the encouragement! :)
Your idea of one secret per defensive move is a good one. You're making me totally want to write this and I can't! I have so many other stories to finish first. You foul temptress. ;)
I really liked Ruby and it's sad that Katie Cassidy won't be coming back. I think Ruby will still be around, but not in that form so you just don't know if she's still going to work all right or not. I guess we'll see! I think the problem with Jo is that they tried to put her with Dean. I always wonder if she would've been received differently if she was meant for Sam. Though I may be biased, because I like the idea of her with Sam. But one thing I've noticed about the SPN fandom is that it seems far more accepting of women if they're meant for Sam. It seems overall like the only approved choice for Dean is Sam.
I have seen that picture! Jared's so funny, he has no qualms about being as completely goofy as possible. lol. :)
"Something dies inside of him then. Hope. Faith. Love. All of it. Cold anger seeps in as he clutches the shot gun in his hands, and it turns his soul dark."
Oh Sam!!!! And what a great sense of foreboding and setting up for the series. I loved this story, Sam-worshipper that I am. Thank you!
Hello, fellow Sam-worshipper! :) Always nice to meet another of my kind. I'm glad that you enjoyed this story - it always means a lot coming from readers who love Sam through and through, it makes me feel better that I did all right in capturing him.
this was totally awesome Laura! I loved this exploration of the Standford years. I loved at first when he liked Neil being tidy, but then how it made him crazy later... how he related it to him and Dean. every section was so great, and it hurt, too. ohhh, sammy, you'll never ever be "normal", as hard as you try... *pets pets*
Thanks Lou! I'm sure Sam's time at Stanford has been done to death, but I just couldn't resist throwing my own version of it onto the pile. I feel like I'm kind of working through Sam right now like I did with Jack, getting to know him a bit better. Or trying to, anyway! I'm glad you liked how the situation with Neil played out. You know me, I hate creating original characters and then I do it anyway - I must be a masochist who secretly loves the stress of it. lol!
Poor Sammy indeed, never getting to be normal. Even when he was pretending, he knew it was all a lie. :( *pets him too*
Thank you so much for reading this and for your kind words. I'm really thrilled that this felt like a peek into Sam's psyche because I wasn't sure if I was getting him right or not. I'm also glad you liked the scenes I chose to present; I kept going back and adding things in, thinking of other things I wanted to show. :) It means a lot that you think this fic is a good look at Sam at Stanford - I haven't read many but I'm sure there are tons and tons out there.
His time at Stanford has been so unexplored on the show and it was a long time - over three years! - so it does leave a lot open to the imagination, you're right. I'd like to write more about Sammy sometime soon. :)
Someone below said you rec'ed my story to them, so I'd like to say thank you very much for that! That's so nice of you. *glomps*
Isn't that just slappable? I hesitated doing that scene because there's of course more to the story behind that, from Dean's POV, but I couldn't show that in Sam's side of the story. It makes me kind of want to write a version of this story about Dean, about what he was up to while Sam was at Stanford.
Thank you for reading and for your compliments! They are very much appreciated. *hugs*
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Oh, I feel an AU coming on...that is interesting to think about. I don't know how things would have gone if Jess hadn't died at that point and time. I think eventually she would have found out because I don't think Sam could keep the truth from her forever; those things have a way of coming out. I'd imagine though, that if she learned the truth, decided to stay with Sam...when she met John and Dean, she would resent John for how Sam's life has been.
*hugs hard* I've got two very different SPN fics in the works right now - a Dean/Sam/Ruby piece and a Sam/Dean comic schmoop kind of thing. Thank you for the encouragement! :)
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I really liked Ruby and it's sad that Katie Cassidy won't be coming back. I think Ruby will still be around, but not in that form so you just don't know if she's still going to work all right or not. I guess we'll see! I think the problem with Jo is that they tried to put her with Dean. I always wonder if she would've been received differently if she was meant for Sam. Though I may be biased, because I like the idea of her with Sam. But one thing I've noticed about the SPN fandom is that it seems far more accepting of women if they're meant for Sam. It seems overall like the only approved choice for Dean is Sam.
I have seen that picture! Jared's so funny, he has no qualms about being as completely goofy as possible. lol. :)
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Oh Sam!!!! And what a great sense of foreboding and setting up for the series. I loved this story, Sam-worshipper that I am. Thank you!
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Thanks for reading and for the feedback!
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Poor Sammy indeed, never getting to be normal. Even when he was pretending, he knew it was all a lie. :( *pets him too*
*hugs you*
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Someone below said you rec'ed my story to them, so I'd like to say thank you very much for that! That's so nice of you. *glomps*
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This was a wonderful look at Sam's life, with Jess, at Stanford, and the bright future he might've had. You really got into Sam's head at that time!
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Thank you for reading and for your compliments! They are very much appreciated. *hugs*
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