Just sunshine and blue sky//Is this all we get for living here

[weaver_girl]

Characters: Kagerou (weaver_girl) and OPEN
Date/Time: 14 February AND 16 to 19 February 2011, all day
Location: Section Three/ Smoke's Bar/ Dojo Island/ around Edensphere
Rating: G for Kagerou, might go up to PG-13
Summary: Kagerou goes about her week, meeting people old and new that she's been sort of neglecting.

[OOC: In other words, the player owes logs

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Breakfast time- February 14th

[pompous_today]

Simon hummed quietly to himself as he made breakfast on Monday morning. He had a late shift at the clinic later, so he had time to make a proper breakfast instead of merely grabbing something quick at his house or stopping at the Bazaar for a bag of doughnuts on the way there. Still, it was simple- bacon, eggs, and toast, with a pot of tea on to boil. He made sure to make plenty, more than just for himself and Qi- he always reasoned that he could use the leftovers in other things. He was dressed in casual clothing- a sweater and cargo pants, his feet bare- not wanting to bother with his usual attire before his shift.

Simon's heart still hurt a little from all of the losses he had endured lately, but as he'd thought the other day, he no longer felt like being miserable. Even in spite of them, he knew he still had a lot to be thankful for.

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"I believe so," Simon agreed, smiling rather shyly. "Maybe you and your sibling had a close relationship as well; that's what my first instinct is

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Kagerou wasn't really squeamish as such. Pain and injury distressed her, but she'd learned to stomp down her own anxiety and focus on relieving that of others when her work as a medic demanded it. Her own world had had its share of bloody battles, that much was evident, too.

This was different. It was... Surely there should not be such people in the world, horrible and cruel enough to do something like that to a girl who was perhaps her own age at best?

"Oh, Simon," she said, and then she said nothing for a long moment, just rested a hand on his shoulder and wondered what had happened to a quiet breakfast between friends.

Maybe it was necessary. Maybe she should know this. She wasn't quite certain yet.

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Simon screwed his eyes shut and took a few deep, steadying breaths, wondering for a moment if he was doing the right thing by sharing this with Kagerou. Indeed, he often wondered if he himself would have been happier and better off not knowing, much less Qi.

Finally opening his eyes, he gave her a wary but genuine smile.

"It probably explains a lot," he said. "I don't know how much of her illness is because of that and if any of it is because she was simply born with some sort of mental disorder, but it's why she stays so close to me. She needs me to stay stable."

given the right trigger this girl is a living weapon

"And I'll do anything I can to help her and protect her."

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"Of course you will," she said before she could think twice about it. "I... I know there are evil things in my world. There are even some here. But I... I want to say that that's horrible, that I can't understand why anyone would do that, but... it still doesn't mean enough."

She shook herself a little, as if to scatter her clenched anxiety, and looked at Simon. "I'm sorry. I think it takes some getting used to. Even the idea of it, I mean."

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Simon sighed and retook his seat, folding his hands in his lap.

"It is horrible, and it IS difficult to fathom the idea, very difficult. She's a teenager, for God's sake." His tone was filled with anger he rarely ever felt; he stopped again, taking a few deep breaths, centering himself. "I don't know much more about it than that- not who did this to her, or why. But after I saved her from that place, we found a group of people who took us in and sheltered us from those who wanted to harm her further."

The 'or why' part was a lie, of course, but the part about Qi being a human weapon she'll be ideal for defense deployment was not something Simon had shared with anyone aside from those who had witnessed his memory, with his sister, and with Inara. Nobody else needed to know. Yet.

"Edensphere may not be our true home. It may be a prison. It may be a place that separates us from our loved ones and strips our memories. But at least she and I are here together. And people are not hunting her."

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Kagerou nodded, feeling curiously heavy, but knowing it was simply the lingering shock. Simon had shown remarkable trust in telling her about his past, and she knew she had to be equal to that knowledge now.

"I know. I understand how that might make this place seem better, maybe? Or at least safer." She bit her lip. "I would understand that feeling, I think. There was something in our world that we had to fight, or maybe someone, I'm not really clear on that just yet."

She smiled, even if she didn't quite feel it, and finished her juice. "I wish we had more time for this. It... feels like whatever I do, I'm going to be rushing out after this. So I'm sorry for that, in advance."

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"Safer than the place we came from in some ways, more dangerous than it in others," he agreed. "Of course, my picture of the place I came from is still incomplete. But again, for now, she's here. I know where she is and that's what's important to me."

Simon got up again and hovered near Kagerou, wanting dearly to give her a hug, but not knowing if she would appreciate the gesture yet.

"It's alright," he said quietly. "I doubt think you were expecting this conversation to happen, either, so... I apologize for unloading that on you, too. If you need to get going, I understand; I have a late shift today, myself."

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"Soon," she said, swallowing to wet her mouth. "I'm not in a hurry yet, but I do kind of... have to mind the time."

As some of her polite demeanour had already crumbled, she leaned her elbows on the table and just breathed against her half-fisted hands for a moment. She'd start back to the conversation, to what she had learned, later, she knew, but it would sink in in the end. People were capable of such cruelty. She was aware of that, had even seen it in the Sphere.

Realising Simon was standing there beside her, she pushed back the chair and got onto her feet. "I think I could use a hug right now. If you wouldn't mind," she muttered, half guessing that he was trying to somehow comfort her.

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Simon gathered Kagerou into a warm hug without another word, wondering briefly if he had done the right thing by sharing this.

If you want to help your sister, to try and make her well again, you have to trust others. Even when you don't want to. Even when asking for help makes you feel like you've failed her on some level. Even when you just want to hold Qi close, never let go of her, shut the rest of the world out and have it be just the two of you.

"I want to try and help her here. See if there is anything I can do to heal her. I need to trust more people with my secret if that is going to happen."

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Kagerou sighed, a long slow petering out of breath, and embraced Simon in return. This was something she had learned reasonably early on: when you could show you cared, you did it, because whether the other person was there tomorrow was anyone's guess.

"I... Right. I understand. It's a lot to take in, but... it must be even more to actually tell someone else." She swallowed, then stood back. "I do... want to talk about this more. Later. Just let me think it through, right?"

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"I know the feeling," Simon said quietly, letting go of the hug. "Believe me, I know. And it is difficult to tell, because it seems so unbelievable. But I also firmly feel that it's the right thing to do."

That, and nothing will ever compare to how hard it was to tell my sister all of this, he added silently, his eyes becoming unfocused as he remembered the day he and Inara had gone to the movie theatre, and how he'd come back and had to tell his sister how her brain had been mutilated.

"Whenever you're ready to talk about it, I'll be here. I promise."

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Kagerou got up, relieved to find her feet steady (she hadn't been quite sure, for a moment there) and went to help herself to a cup of tea. That was always good for your nerves, right?

"I didn't think you would have told me unless you were certain," she said. "And I'll stay for a while more, and... then I will go to work and this day will go on, right?" She let out a thin chuckle, but turned to look at Simon with a faint smile. "It rather has to, or I'm inclined to be very cross with it."

I think we can wrap this up, y?

[pompous_today]

Simon was rather pleased that she had gone for the tea; he himself always found it reassuring, as the smell and taste reminded him of Inara and of his chosen father. And it was a good sign that she wasn't immediately leaving, as well, he thought.

"Life always goes on, no matter what it dumps on us," he agreed, able to give her a similarly-faint smile in return. "And we keep going with it. I can't imagine doing otherwise."

*ties a neat bow on top of it*

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"Even when it throws the meanest curveballs," Kagerou said with a small sigh as she brought her cup of tea back to the table. "Maybe helmets would be good standard gear... oh." She gave a soft, sheepish laugh.

"I'm sorry. I think I sort of went for a goof-off there, even though, well." She paused for a fraction. "I talk silly sometimes. Maybe it's good for you to get used to that, too. If I'm sticking around for a while."

It was, after all, all she could hope for.

It was enough.