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How long does it take to disconnect from that one person? Out of sight does not mean out of mind. And now, it has been reduced to a race against the clock. How do i disconnect? Can I distance myself enough so that when I am replaced I will be able to handle it ( Read more... )

funny thing is, i never did anything to you intentionally. anything. you are in complete control right now, and it is you intention to make me feel like shit. can you see the difference? is this what you really want?

so, out of all the options you had, you picked pretending to not know me. to ignore me. to pretend that everything is ok. interesting choice, but i dont know how long its going to last. i hope not long, but if this is what you feel will best help you, then fine. if you were trying to bring me down, to make me sad, and make me miss you, then its ( Read more... )

i couldnt think of any better way to close out 2008 and begin 2009. a lot happened last year, and i cant complain about any of it. even the worst proved to add more to my life than subtract. the worst proved that with the few amount of people i had problems with, there were an infinite amount of people to bring me back and make me happy ( Read more... )

so i think it is only after tonight that i could fully understand and reflect on how badly my last relationship affected me. just know, im not trying to piss anyone off or be an asshole. i just feel i should tell how ive interpreted what happened and what kind of person it made me. i dont know if many of the people reading this truly know what ( Read more... )

i made an entry on october 7th. one of the most optimistic lj posts ive ever had. i said many things, including that i was close to something ive never had before. well, its not the same thing, but it is something ive never had before. ive never felt that someone has had the upper hand over me to such an extreme. i feel like i have no control ( Read more... )

i'm fucking bitter.

i like you more and more each day. and now, i'm beginning to feel more and more comfortable being with you. it sill is weird, like you said, even for me. i'm very close to something that i really have never had before, and i know you really havent either. i'm very optimistic and excited for whats to come, because everyday i laugh a little bit ( Read more... )

oh dont you worry, i know you very well. i'm not making a big effort? funny, cause pretty much everywhere i go now and with everything i do i invite you. funny, cause i text you everyday and asks your friends why you hate me for no reason and for all of a sudden. maybe try talking to one of your best friends (me) for once about why you are ( Read more... )