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i don't write about anything anymore. Why should I? I wish people understood me. i wish some people would just leave me alone. I want what I have but it's slowly being taken from me. All the bullshit won't stop. I need to leave this place and find where I belong. Everything has changed.. and not for the better. I thought it started to.. sure just ( Read more... )

Lastnight was the worst.
Cody and I went to the accident site and we were there for like 30 minutes. I was balling my eyes out. I brought James a stuffed panda bear though. I hope he likes it. His Mom called me lastnight too, she didn't sound so good. I know she is hurting bad along with the rest of us. I wish I could change things. <3

Well Today is the day.

at 7:10 the car accident.. and 10:10 he was pronounced dead.
I miss him soo much. 3 Years, I can't believe I have been without my best friend for 3 years.

I'm off to the cemetary and accident site right now.. I might update when I get back.

This is for James.. I love you and Miss you soo much <3 Your Diamond.

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I don't even know what to do right now. Seriously.. I can't take this anymore.. I want to just explode.. but I can't .. I won't.. I can't let myself do this... I'm so emo sometimes I can't take it. But who is really listening anyways. I just want to get away from buffalo and come to ohio, for good. I don't think anyone understands how bad ( Read more... )

I suck at life.. how is that for an entry?

So I'm in ohio again. I got here yesterday around like 6 I think. I'm not going home ever!! j/k I'm going either wed. night or thur. morning I'm not sure.

Today should be a fun day(if steve ever wakes up lol) I want to go play ITG!! Ok and shop too.

end for now.

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I haven't said anything in here for a long time. I don't even know why I am going to start again. I'm going to school.. I start next month. I am happy about that. I don't really have much to say. everything is different now. I don't know why..