Work is gonna kill me...or rather driving Ana to work during the day and then working all night is gonna kill me. I got about 3 hours sleep last night, got up at 9 and now I have to be back at work at 2...trying to decide if it is worth going back to sleep for those two hours or just staying up....the bad thing is Ill be tired when I get home, and ( Read more... )

I need to find my dark place again, where I can sit, think create...its not that Im happy or anything...but I lost that edge, that darkness that came out now and then...I need, I want..., I can never have ( Read more... )

an hour and a half to go at work..ahhhhhhhh I hate this time of morning, but at least I got most everything done early. I should be writing a report instead of typing here, but nothing really happened last night...so I dont really see the need for a report ( Read more... )

So Im sitting here at work...uh yeah....and I thought *maybe I should start writing in my journal again* So here I am back again. Ill start by saying that being out of school has just left me this empty feeling, like there is something im supposed to be doing but Im not doing it. Well I guess there is something I supposed to be doing...looking ( Read more... )

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I told myself I wasnt going to write anything negative in here. Its bad enough I have to listen to myself belly-ache about my life, I didnt feel other people needed to read about. The last 6 months things have just really went from bad to worse, and though I see a light at the end of the tunnel, Im thinking it may just be someone left their ( Read more... )

I'm tired, sitting here in a big dark basement...the bed is there...I have sat on it, put my head on the pillow, looked into the darkness, and rolled over and over again. So then I started to move stuff around and repack things into more of an organized mess...and then I saw it.....The biggest fucking spider I have ever seen (well not really...but ( Read more... )

Been awhile since Ive posted anything..so here goes...Well today I went for my final interview with BestBuy..for those of you that dont know..I was 100% doing school and had no job..wife is leaving..so yeah now I gotta make money again..but I got the job..pending a drug test, but I dont do the drugs so Im cool there. We have (or I have) kicked ( Read more... )