i had a gun in my mouth tonight.

i dont fear death.

it hurts to not.

i now regret.

whatever

Hatred is the only worthwhile emotion. Anything else is like leaving a fortress with its gates unbarred.

the only thing that keeps me putting one foot in front of the other and plodding aimlessly through life is my basic, organic will to survive: the same thing that makes single-celled organisms eat and reproduce.

i try to think of ways to get under your skin, i know they wont work. I may have to lie.

sometimes, loneliness is crippling...

In my mind, i know you've lost...but in my heart, i feel like I'm the only one losing anything.

i'll never make the mistake of thinking a person can change.

you're all shit.

I will treat you as such.

and i thought at least YOU werent shitty.

you missed out on so much, but i feel like i missed out on more.

different cunt.

I AM SICK OF THIS SHIT.

i fucking give up. whatever.