Comments | dancinbutterfly: Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate the lives of everyone you know

dancinbutterfly

Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate the lives of everyone you know

May 20, 2012 02:12

So. *sighs* There are going to be things in this post that are not pretty. And by that I mean I'm going to be talking about 1)suicide, 2)substance misuse and abuse and 3)sexual assault in relationship to my foster sister Dolores. I'm giving you a heads up so you can scroll on past because holy SHIT is what I found out ugly. I mean wow. Just...wow. ( Read more... )

i can't even deal with this, so fucking wrong, double damnit dolores

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otana May 20 2012, 07:04:45 UTC

I am so, so sorry honey.

I'm around on AIM at flingintoalake if you want to talk, okay?

turps33 May 20 2012, 12:21:51 UTC

*hugs you*

It is hard. Brutally so.

dancinbutterfly May 20 2012, 14:31:47 UTC

I dont know what to do with what they did to her. What all of them did to her but especially at the end i mean oh god Terri how do you deal with that?

ext_63023 May 20 2012, 13:41:58 UTC

Good sweet Christ.

I know it's little consolation, but I'm proud of high-school-you, who tried to save her from this.

dancinbutterfly May 20 2012, 14:29:21 UTC

i...cant

dancinbutterfly May 20 2012, 15:32:32 UTC

Like said to temporeThere's suicide and then there's THAT. I dont know what to do with it. I really dont. I feel like I'm lost in the woods and can't get out while fighting the Other Guy and trapped in bed all at once. I keep thinking about how it must have gone down, what it must have been like, how she just missed it but only because she was DEAD and I just...I dont know how to deal with this. It's a step too far for my brain to understand. I was just starting to wrap my brain around her choosing to die. That abuse followed her into her last seconds is something that complicates those feelings even more and I dont know why. Its not my business or is it? I dont know why this bothers me more than the suicide by itself but it does. Oh god it really really does.

tempore May 20 2012, 14:55:51 UTC

That is horrifying. I'm so sorry that she has had to deal with that all of her life. I don't blame you at all for wanting to Hulk out. :(

dancinbutterfly May 20 2012, 15:29:26 UTC

There's suicide and then there's THAT. I dont know what to do with it. I really dont. I feel like I'm lost in the woods and can't get out while fighting the Other Guy and trapped in bed all at once.

tempore May 20 2012, 15:34:03 UTC

It's going to take time, which I'm sure you know, before you can begin to process any of it or to begin acting upon it. And we'll be here for you, in any way we can.

frausorge May 20 2012, 15:14:27 UTC

(((())))

dancinbutterfly May 20 2012, 15:29:48 UTC

*clings* I dont know how to feel this.