I wish I could be okay. But this is what I'm stuck with for now. I have nothing to look forward to. No moving at least for a month. No boyfriend. My sister isn't coming to my graduation. I have no way to work up there now because I can't drive an hour there and an hour back five days a week. And there's nothing besides fast food here. I don't have ( Read more... )

Hip piercings Saturday :) birthday tomorrow. Seeing my sweetie tonight and tomorrow. It sucks that drill weekend is also my birthday weekend, but it's alright :)

Things are just so fucked. We're not even together and you're already messing with my head. I know you slept with her around Christmas. Things your /mom/ has said have shown me that. And you neglected to tell me that you were with her when I asked what was up last weekend. And she made a huge deal about hiding it from him. Then you tried to tell me ( Read more... )

Wednesday we went to pay his phone bill and stuff. Since we drove an hour, we decided we'd go to the mall so he could get clothes and then go to a movie. We saw the descendants, and it wasn't at all what we were expecting, but it wasn't bad. It was a good night ( Read more... )

You're my best friend and I want to move in with you, but I'm starting to have second thoughts. I'm nervous. You've always been a great friend and you're the one who's always pulled me through hard things. But now that I'm starting to talk to him, you're not being a good friend. I know it's hard since you like me, but I can't make myself feel the ( Read more... )

I'm so happy you're home and we're getting closer. I don't know what I'm going to do when you have to leave again. :/ I know we're not together, but I care about you. You make me smile more than I have in months. I don't know where this will end up, but I'm enjoying every minute that I get with you.

But today you want nothing to do with me. You care about me when it's convenient for you.

Fuck I had a great night last night :) I think my pills are working, I wasn't even nervous walking up to his house even though his mom hates me. But I've been having these weird pains in my chest, not sure if they're from that. I hope not, I like feeling a bit more normal. But anyway, when I got there, he was busy doing something so I sat in the ( Read more... )

It's been a week since I've had a real meal.

If this stuff keeps making me feel this terrible, it's not worth it. Unless I get to the point that I'm too afraid to leave my room, I'd rather just keep doing what I have been for the past six years...