No matter how hard I try, I'm still the same old me that I don't like.

It's so depressing that no matter how hard I want something...or want to be something, or want to have the ability to do something...I'm stuck in the me that can't do it.

I want to be able to change to the me that CAN do it. Does that make sense?

I need to leave. NOW.

Even the good things aren't good anymore.

If I knew how many days there were in august this is where I would put the number of days till I leave.

Tonight I was in a gas station buying sun chips and m&ms and I was incredibly depressed and lonely. I felt like there was no one anywhere that was worth my time, and no one that thought I was worth THEIR time. So I was in this gas station...and there was this man in front of me in line, and he was buying two rolls of toilet paper and talking to ( Read more... )

I'm at YPI right now...it is so weird to be here...but I really have no intention of talking about why ( Read more... )

n. pl. ca·thar·ses (-sz): A release of emotional tension, as after an overwhelming experience, that restores or refreshes the spirit.

And how amazing it feels.

Time for one of those declarative lj posts ( Read more... )

So...Northwestern I guess ( Read more... )

Story of my life...the highest highs and the lowest lows....

I could not be more pissed right now.

Essentially someone ruined my reputation with my parents and with a lot of authority figures at school.

How about minding your own fucking business?

I just realized how much i have coming up to be excited about. I'm obviously pumped for CDA tomorrow. I'm psyched to start Midsummer rehearsals. Finding out from colleges (for better or worse...at least i'll know). ITALY is WAAAY sooner than it seems. Then it's like my fucking birthday, Midsummer, and graduation ( Read more... )