in the mirror of invention (soundtrack: 9 crimes).

[conditionelle]

title: in the mirror of invention.
author: conditionelle
pairing: Kris/Adam.
rating: R, for language and fairly abstract sex.
summary: He says, I don't want to hurt you but I need for this to hurt, and you shiver, because yes, that's it, that's precisely it. You remember best the things that hurt you, above and beyond that which makes you happy and makes you

Comments

[like_i_love_you]

this was just perfect. I actually got interupted in the middle so I already have to read it again-uninterupted this time.

[conditionelle]

Thank you so much! For me, it's really easy to forget how old (rather, how young) so many of them still are when they get on the stage, and how much doubt must be lurking beneath the conviction. But yeah, much appreciated -- I'll definitely keep the pacing suggestion in mind.

[like_i_love_you]

Also, I stayed up late to read this- so glad I did. I also saved it.

[conditionelle]

Thank you so much, for both of your comments! That's a huge compliment, though I'm sorry to have kept you up for longer than necessary.

[sweetmm]

Wow your writing is full of beautiful insights, tq :)

[conditionelle]

Thank you!

[demotu]

Wow.

I am a skimmer of fic, often, but I love second person and the sheer beauty of the prose in this forced me to read every single word. The complexity of the images you drew were the perfect match for the complexity of Kris's thoughts and emotions - really really outstanding. There are so many brilliant lines, but this was one of my favourites:

Your heart speaks in major-third murmurs as flashbulbs permanently white out overlapping circles of your visual field, the blankness from which you are curiously detached serene and surreal, a body that is not your own leaning (point counterpoint) into and against a body that you implicitly trust.

The music metaphors are especially marvelous, and this sentence gets that distant-but-internal self-denial so brilliantly.

[conditionelle]

Oh wow, thank you so much! That sentence was one of the first ones that I wrote, actually, and whatever I was trying to say with it, I think you've just said it better than I managed to, so thank you for that as well.