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playing catch up
I feel as though life is catching up with me ... like a dog at the track that actually caught the rabbit. I am letting things slip in... sometime feeling a bit too deep. I hope things get better, but i feel and though my whispers are upon deaf ears for thing grow worse and worse. Hopefully this will shed light upon a new life. -
i dunno
Today I feel like a scatter of people trying to survive the ocean in a life raft. There is so much water and no shore, watching the sharks swim below us just waiting for us to give up. As we try what we can too stay sane and feed, no matter what we do it seems not to matter for the days are long and sun beats down. Its a feeling of waiting to drown ( Read more... ) -
long time
It has been a long time from the last post ... life has changed a hopefully i will be better able to keep up with it this time ( Read more... ) -
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Date: Sep 9, 2006 1:19 PM Subject Love is pain Body: Love is pain, ITs something you fright for and Hope to God to never let go of as long as you may live. Losing a loved one and still loving them today. Thoughts of the past still drive you crazy from a hot shower in the morning or other things .... Love is strong but painful at times, you found ( Read more... ) -
lost
i feel as if i am lost to the world around me a wondering soul trying to break free. I am torn down about the world around me. Suffering to a lost cause. I am ripped up and spit out lost in this viscous cycle. needing to get out. -
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I feel as though i don't belong. As if I am an outsider looking in. Watching the world of a person that is screwing it all up, knowing it's me. But what can i do i am on the outside. Watching myself shrug it off, knowing I care, but just not wanting to say. I crazy how it seems, yet how i know it is. Watching this complete stranger do things i ( Read more... ) -
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The ups and downs of life are in full force.especially the downs. feeling like life is dragging me down. the full force of the world pulls and naggs, but life goes on like usual. all the while i am going threw my own torments and demons, but yet the world keeps going with out me.lost to my manipulations of my own mind. A coverup for what is ( Read more... ) -
shades of gray
I am a lost for the colors have drained from my world and black into colors of grays and black. There is no comfort and i miss that so for i made my own comfort. But now that is ripped from me i have always been the one that takes matters into their own hands but now i just let it go where ever, sadlly i am stuck by my own resistancce to go. I ( Read more... ) -
Update
Hating it all pissed to the point I wanna explode. Nobody cares about what i am tring to do nobody cares about me. And yet that all of course we do but yet still don't for it's the little things that show me you care. It's simply crap feed from there mouth. Sucked in like a vortex and spit out a hollow shell. Fucked.