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the bright blessed day, the dark sacred night.
Tomorrow marks yet a return to the rut I've been stuck in for going on 2 years now ( Read more... ) -
social promotion
About five years ago, I was romantically involved with someone who hated my skillset that I had developed over the course of the six years immediately prior to meeting them ( Read more... ) -
gross
My immediate inclination is to make a post about what is usually on my mind: misfortune, the lack of ability to forget my past, or something regarding homosexual activity. In this case, the last item is the most pertinent in my frontal cortex web of things to think about, as many of my recent dates have needed to be cross referenced with ( Read more... ) -
Hmmmm
Believing in yourself and in things people tell you is so incredibly difficult. I have to distract myself with music or information to get through things to finish them to completion. When you actively destroy your own progress to mimic a familiar pattern of experience that you feel is typical of your life, sometimes unconsciously, you have big ( Read more... ) -
Observations
I have little confidence dancing with ladies anymore outside of Texas.
When I'm tired, I have 0 confidence.
Music at non gay venues is great. I could live with going to only non-gay venues outside of Ptown and NYC because it's a great experience, musically speaking.
I'm a good wingman.
White boys in New England can't really dance, but they look ( Read more... ) -
Ongoing
What I've learned about employers:
Dysfunction breeds dysfunction
If you smell a rat, you're probably correct.
High turnover = problems
Criminal record of management = problems
Sales executives have little real skills outside of sales
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Father's Day
Mother's Day and Father's Day are a particularly sensitive time for me. Just take a look back at the early posts of my journal, particularly around Mother's Day, to find some harrowing experiences.
I would estimate that about 75% of my struggles relate to one if my parents' affects on me. The remainder is my response to other stimuli, mostly ( Read more... ) -
rose-colored lenses
I'm typing from a first floor den of a farmhouse, where I know share a two bedroom, two-story apartment with a roommate ( Read more... ) -
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Notes to self: not bouncing back as quickly as I get older ( Read more... )