Missing Steph

[cfkitty]

Time is supposed to heal but time is not making it any better. I still cry all the time missing her and having a hard time going on. I loved her more than my own and it is not fair that she needed to leave and I could not have taken her place. I try and go on as she would want but I spent 21 years fighting along side her every step of the way

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[anaisdjuna]

I was telling my new BF about Steph recently. About how we all loved her here & prayed and healed her when she could be healed. I really believe that. That all the love around Steph bought her extra time that her body wasn't able to generate just on its own. Steph and that fight of hers, and that spark... everyone loved her. It was an honor to know her & be part of her too short life.

So after telling him.... I had a dream in which I had a video communication ring & I could talk to Stephanie. She was going to come and visit me at the resort where I was staying; so I was working on getting her one.

I miss her too.

I can't imagine how hard this must be for you still and always.... You were the pillar in her life. I wish there were something I could do to ease your pain because I would do anything for Stephanie.

Hang in there mommy.
Hugs from Steph's friend who misses her too.
And from all the kitties I sent her when she wasn't feeling well.

[spirit_of_kina]

You did all you could Momma-J. *hugs*

[tygerchickchibi]

Hey momma.

I was thinking about you for the past few days, actually, as well as her, so I feel ironic that I happened to read a post today.

I wish I was there with you, to give you hugs and reassurance...

I don't really know what to say, really...but I don't like the fact that almost a year has passed and you're still...It reminds me of my grandfather when my mother died too.

I think I'll try to see if I can take some time off. I do want to see you. Please stay strong. <3

~Alissa~

[cuddlethecows]

I never met Steph I only knew of her because we have a lot of mutual friends.. regardless I have been reading hers & yours journal entries through this entire thing and I think it's great that you still update it. I read every word. She touched me with her blogs and I just couldn't stop reading and praying for her. She's an amazing person and was such a fighter.

Don't let your life fall apart though, it's only going to make it harder on yourself. Take care, she's always in my prayers as are you.

[primalelemental]

oh, my God. When did she die? I wish I kept in touch with her more. This past year has just been horrible for me, and I'm sure for her as well. Please e-mail me and let me know everything. I may have not shown her how close I was, but I do consider to be one of her close buds. My e-mail is unicornofatlantis@hotmail.com Please write me, I want to know how Steph was up to then and how she went. If you don't want to go through that pain again, I understand. But I would like to know. Thanks and I'm so sorry.

[still_althea]

Read the journal entries. It's all here. Don't make her mother rehash it again.

(Sorry for your loss).