forcing out an entry...

[brandeks]

I feel like my life right now is in a holding pattern, that I'm just going through the motions of day to day life, waiting for it to really happen again. I've had the last few days off of work, and all I've done is lock myself in my room, websurfing and reading the galley of the Peter David book that's coming out in June, Tigerheart, until my eyes

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[figbash]

I think what you are feeling is normal under the circumstances. I often find myself sort of...um, disengaging, I guess you could call it, when I'm depressed, or even when I'm just processing a lot of stuff in my subconscious. Repetitive things like video games or re-runs on the tube, don't take focus or energy that I don't really have to give, yet they while away the time while I'm going through whatever process while eliminating the hurt that comes from dwelling on things.

One way I like to look at it, is that it's sort of like using a mandala to meditate: You have something that you are loosely focused on, but your mind is kind of quieting down (or turning off). Obviously there are the psychological factors (above) contributing too, so it's not really meditating, but I think that in times of over-whelm or needing to re-ground and re-group, it can have the same benefits. So don't be down on yourself... Your flavor for life will come back to you when your inner-self is ready re-engage. Make sense?

[brandeks]

It does! Thanks Darcy. {hugs}