I can’t believe I am 35 years old. I was an insufferable, indecisive, whiny little dramatic 15 year old. Oh, to have my only problems be unrequited teenage love ( Read more... )

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SOMETHING IS MISSING AND I WISH I COULD FIGURE OUT WHAT IT IS.

Can you feel your heartbeat racing?
Can you taste the fear in her sweat?
You've done this wrong
It's too far gone
These sheets tell of regret
I admit that I'm just a fool for you
I am just a fool for you

Here is where we both go wrong
Tonight's your last chance to
Do exactly what you want to
And ( Read more... )

"Maybe ( Read more... )

It's pretty sad that you have to die for people to actually show how much they appreciate you and suddenly everyone was your best friend. People are so fucking fake.

I can't sleep anymore.
Sometimes I question life.
Sometimes I try my hardest to not think at all.
Recent events have made me feel so selfish.
I'd like the weather to clear up so I can go to the beach some night soon.
Does anyone even use LiveJournal anymore? No.

I was reading some of my old journal entries and I think I figured out the problem. My problem.They say girls "marry their fathers". It means they marry a guy that shares the same characteristics as her father. I used to be attracted to my complete opposite. Someone wreckless and outspoken. I still am but I'm scaring myself because lately I feel ( Read more... )

I think I hate "emo" music so much because it just gets me down. If I'm sad, why would I want to listen to someone singing about how sad they are, you know? I like listening to it though because it reminds me that someone else feels like shit too. How reassuring.
I think I've watched too many movies and read too many books because I compare my whole ( Read more... )

pro·jec·tion

a.the tendency to ascribe to another person feelings, thoughts, or attitudes present in oneself, or to regard external reality as embodying such feelings, thoughts, etc., in some way. b.Psychoanalysis. such an ascription relieving the ego of a sense of guilt or other intolerable feeling.

Anyways, I'm done with school in 5 weeks. What to

and there is nothing more i want than just one night
that's free of doubt and sadness
one night that i can really feel.