What do you do when a mind meld gave you feelings and in this universe you can't have that person? Cue the Kirk angst, of course! I seriously just wanted an entire fanmix devoted to Kirk pining for Spock in a big way, thus this was born. I like to think that my photoshop skills are all right, but all I can say for sure is that they're getting better, so I suppose that's something. Also, this is all technically one-sided, but I believe that as much as I believe that Kirk and Spock are completely straight, so no worries on that front. Enjoy and wallow on the couch with Kirk, tissues, and a collection of chocolate that is sadly not being consumed by or smeared on a randy first officer.
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01. Ryan Star - Brand New Day
I've stayed in one place for too long
Gotta get on the run again
I saw the one thing that I want
Hell bent, get outta bed
I'm throwing rocks at your window
You're tying the bed sheets together
They say that we're dreaming too big
I say this town's too small
02. Snow Patrol - Perfect Little Secret
In the blinding darkness
of the night it seems simple
all I know is that
I love you here right now
It's not as if I wanted
to fall so hard for you,
or even understand
these woken feelings
03. Aqualung - Strange and Beautiful (I'll Put a Spell on You)
I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart, unseen.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.
04. The Killers - Mr. Brightside
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Turning through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr. Brightside
05. Florence + the Machine - Heavy in Your Arms
This will be my last confession
I love you never felt like any blessing
Whispering like it's a secret
Only to condemn the one who hears it
With a heavy heart
06. Linkin Park - Waiting for the End
Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last,
I wish it wasn't so
I know what it takes to move on,
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got
07. Blue October - Amazing
Can you pretend I'm amazing?
I can pretend I'm amazing
Instead of what we both know (x2)
I cut to the punch line baby
Can we pretend I'm amazing
Instead of what we both know
and now our history is for sale
And for that I apologize
08. Melissa Etheridge - Breathe
I played the fool today
I just dream of vanishing into the crowd
Longing for home again
Home, is a feeling I buried in you
I'm alright, I'm alright
It only hurts when I breathe
09. The Bird and the Bee - I'm a Broken Heart
Cry as much as I want to
Weep, I know I cant have you
I wipe my tears away, away
10. The Smiths - Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want
Haven't had a dream in a long time
see, the life I've had
can make a good man bad
So for once in my life
let me get what I want
Lord knows it would be the first time
11. Adele - Make You Feel My Love
I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
12. Ani DiFranco - Untouchable Face
Tell you the truth, I prefer the worst of you
Too bad you had to have a better half
She's not really my type
But I think you two are forever
And I hate to say it but you're perfect together
So fuck you
And your untouchable face
Fuck you
For existing in the first place
And who am I
That I should be vying for your touch?
Who am I?
Bet you can't even tell me that much
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