The best days of my life have come to an end. I will miss her. Waking up tomorrow alone will suck more than I can fathom right now. I will drink tonight ( Read more... )

Monday totally sucked. I worked from 9am to 5pm. Then I went to the catering thing till 9. To be followed by the cleaning party till 1am. I had to cook the orders as well as cook for the catering thing and do the inventory plan the show for Halloween and deal with personal drama. I got pissed and threw some noodles across the room and yelled ( Read more... )

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things are going outlandishly well. Other than the finances. I just don't have the mind set to save. My woman makes me happy. Like a real happy. Not like a I'm content. I found out that my whole world as I know it might crumble into nothing. But everything should be fine I was asured. thursday is father-son bonding at the lewis black show. ( Read more... )

One of my idols has fallen off her pedestal into a moat of broken morals. It makes me wonder if looking up to someone or more there actions as if I should live up to that expectation, when nobody is perfect. In the end they are exactly like everybody else. They just have overcompensated for there mediocrity. I've been trying to write a love ( Read more... )

So I ceep on coming accross situations that totally suck. It's like I am doomed from the start. And people ceep picking apart my life and then turning around and doing those things they said where wrong only worse. If I dated a 17 year old that would be 4 years. Is that the same as a 31 year old and a 19 year old. I really don't think so. I ( Read more... )

I am growing more and more depressed with the more rejection I get. I'm on the verge of a total break down. Last night was SUCK. I just needed to go on a drive. Went to the east end to play some music with some friends. The singer sucks. After I left I called almost everybody even those who I hadn't talked to in a while with no response. ( Read more... )

It is going well. I have the apartment to myself. I'm not lonely wich is wierd cause I'm always alone. It's a good thing that I can be with just myself and have a good time. they still havn't moved all there stuff out so I threw it all in the closet they can go through it. Went on an adventure to big rock and got high for the first time in a ( Read more... )

Saw smashmouth got a little buzzed the rest of the night didn't go as planed. Got some fresh ink. Have been going to bed early. Got a date tonight. had to open and the server didn't show up today and rishu didn't answer his calls or bangs on the door. I cooked and served by myself did like 100 something dollars. I'm proud.

I really have no clue what to think. Or what I should think.