Happy Fathers Day to you dad...

I'm about to go visit you and spend some time with you.

everyday my heart misses you.

love you.

i hate the holidays.

never did I think I could feel THIS lonely.

2 months today.

i still ache. i'm sure i'll ache for many many years to come. 
its still so hard to believe that my world has been absolutely shattered.

mom is in texas getting radiation and chemo.
dad has passed.

and there is.. me.

i feel alone, and it hurts.

I can't believe that tomorrow is already here. Just about a month since you've been gone. 
I just..want you back. Thats all, feels as if it could be so simple.

the house isn't the same, nothing is the same.

Mom is now in texas dealing with her cancer. 
I feel so ALONE.

my heart my soul, im broken.

i'll see you tomorrow.. with a smile and

its been almost 2 weeks since you've been gone.

i miss you ALL THE TIME.

I CAN'T FIX MOM.

your funeral was yesterday, and I stood up and read a speech about you.
i did amazing.

you would have been SO proud of me.

but .. fuck i miss you

7:22 am.

your beautiful spirit left with that bird this morning.

I'm honored to have been able to take the very best care of you dad.

I love you.

so this is it... you're slipping away, and fast. I can't believe how fast this has happened. You're in your own bed though, with mom right now as she holds your hand. You two have a very beautiful story, such a love story. I'd have to say today was very hard, so hard to see you in the condition you're in. I mean, you don't respond anymore. Since I' ( Read more... )

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