this is my first thanksgiving away from family. i AM homesick, i'll admit, but remembering the awkwardness of having to spend the whole day with a grammy who doesn't know me anymore, (as well as other humorous/uncomfortable circumstances), makes it ok. it's just another day, i suppose, but the holidays sure do make me eager for those in my future ( Read more... )

so, workin' at starbucks now. not great. could be worse. i'm still looking for better. but early mornings and free caffeine make me feel weird.

i need a job. i need sun light. i need to still be taking prozac. prozac. prozac. i don't want to have to take it. that's why i don't take it. i want friends. not gay guys that merely pretend to be my friend in an attempt to get to mark (isn't he pretty, though?) and not people i hang out with simply because i "should be hanging out with ( Read more... )

still no job for certain, though there are a couple strong possibilities.

definitely feeling too voluptuous recently. move more, eat less, drink tea, stop buying cookies! of course!

funds depleting quickly without a job. go figure.

i think i really miss arizona.

clean your act up, chicago. seriously.

update:

blue hair, no job, wtf.

so, watching the show called "made" on mtv right now. it used to be about individual personal development, but now they've turned it in to a competition, between friends, no less! ugh ( Read more... )

somehow i was under the impression that there were fewer pot smokers in chicago than flagstaff... i was wrong. ha!

job = money = good.

i really wouldn't mind if mark moved out. i think he would be happier living in his own place and it would make everyone else's lives much more liveable.

meeting people = interesting.

i shouldn't be looking at www.mydeathspace.com before bed..... i just want to hug suicidal people. good thing i've never known anyone who has committed suicide cuz i would surely blame myself. though the fact that no one i know personally has died recently kinda makes me paranoid that maybe i'm going to die..... again, shouldn't be looking at ( Read more... )

oh, flagstaff, you pit of awfulness and stupidity and stagnacity (fake word, i hope), you.