I'm tired of restricting myself because of self-imposed insecurities. Honestly, I shouldn't become my own worst enemy. I don't like being trapped in my own head lately. I have no idea why but as of late I've really been contemplating the rest of my life and death. No, I'm not suicidal or anything. I have just come to realize I am way too incredibly ( Read more... )

I don't really like college too much. I've been working about 24 hours a week and I have so much studying to do that I kinda feel like punching a hole in the wall. I guess it wouldn't be so bad if my throat wasn't entirely raw from the cold I'm getting. Not to mention my voice is just about gone. This is turning out to be an amazing year. HA ( Read more... )

Wow, I miss my livejournal ( Read more... )

I can't stand this. I feel alone and sick to my stomach. Why should I hurt this bad? I wasn't supposed to have any feelings. I hate emotions. I hate myself. I'm not gonna sleep tonight. Screw this. I hate everything.

I don't know whats wrong with me tonight. I suddenly got this overwhelming rush of emotions. It feels like I'm back in ninth grade again. The stress of working ten days straight is getting to me. The stress of AP exams is getting to me. The stress of graduation is getting to me. The stress of going to college and planning my future is getting to me ( Read more... )

for so many reasons i dont know, i'm so incredibly hurt right now. i feel as if nothing is turning out the way it should. i'm tired of working hard only to be shot down. i miss so many things and i'm tired of everything changing ( Read more... )

i miss when my life used to revolve around livejournal. it always seems to bring me back to a simpler time. i dont even think that made sense ( Read more... )

So tonight was an all English night. I had dinner at Cornish Pasty on Mill with Peter, Tim, and my mother.

Then we went to go see Hamlet. I'm pretty much in love with the guy who played Hamlet. Is it sad that I thought about jumping on the stage and raping him or something? I was sitting probably 8 feet from him. *sigh ( Read more... )

I reserved my plane tickets to London today with Peter. I leave on the 29th of May. We're going to London and then off to Dublin and somewhere else in Scotland. I dont come back until the 16th of June. I'm so excited, its insane. I guess now it really, truly feels like its happening! We also reserved tickets at the theatre at Stratford-upon-Avon. ( Read more... )

hello 2006.

here's to hoping you'll be much better than 2005. i'm guessing its not bad starting out the year burning calories and laughing your ass off playing ddr. very nice.

♥