Fic: The Masseur (19/?)
Title: The Masseur (19/?)
Author: Amberwinters
Pairing: Adam/Kris
Rating: R
Summary: AU fic where Kris Allen is a successful pop-star and Adam is an out of work actor that just got his massage license and a good job.
Wordcount: 2897
Notes: Not as dark as last chapter. Lighter but still angsty. Thanks for all the comments; if I don’t respond right away it is because my internet connections sucks.
Warnings: Not too many, some cursing, some sexy times, some angst, some bad jokes.
Oblivious. Kris woke up alone and wondered where Adam had gone. It was a little past midnight and the wind had died down. He could see the glow of a fire through the tent. Kris waited a few minutes than wrapped the sleeping bag around himself and went outside. He was confused by the scene before him. It appeared Johnny, Scott and Peter had been fighting, Jake looked out of breath and Adam was pale.
Kris had a feeling something was amok and asked, “What is going on?”
Jake shrugged after exchanging glances with Adam, “Johnny drank too much and we were trying to get him to his tent.”
Johnny seemed to wake but Jake stumbled and accidentally hit him in the head.
Kris grimaced at the impact, “Careful, Jake. That was his head.”
“Hmm. I guess I am more tired than I thought and it’s making me a bit clumsy. Well, I think we should all go to bed since we are going to start early in the morning.” Jake grabbed Adam’s pack and handed it to him, “Thanks for sharing your supplies.”
Kris led Adam back into the tent. Kris crawled back onto the smurf sleeping bag and spread his out holding it up for Adam to join him. Adam laid down at the edge of the makeshift bed. Kris tried to pull him closer and snuggle. Adam flinched and pulled away. Kris had a feeling Adam was mad because he fell asleep right after he came. It was rude not to reciprocate the favor so Kris understood Adam’s annoyance and decided to kiss Adam to initiate the payback. Adam pulled away suddenly claiming he had a headache. He was hurt Adam had rebuked his overture. Kris worried Adam was growing bored with his inexperience and reluctance to have full sex. Not knowing how to broach the subject, Kris just rolled over went to sleep.
The next day Adam was still cold toward Kris. Adam seemed in a bad mood and refused to supply anything more than one word answers. Kris just tried to respect his desire to keep to himself and left him alone. It seemed that everyone was subdued and ready to be go home. Adam was dropped off first and he just mumbled goodbye to everyone in the car and left. Daniel spoke up,
“I don’t think Adam liked hiking after all. He was in a much better mood yesterday.”
Kris defended him, “I didn’t warn him about the cold and I think he was dehydrated.”
They dropped off Scott, Kris’ drummer next. Daniel was going to crash at Kris’ house so they proceeded in that direction. It was only Kris and Daniel in the car with Jake driving.
“Aside from Adam not feeling well, what did you think of him?” Kris asked his brother.
“Seemed like a nice enough guy but a little rude. I think he had a chip on his block toward Johnny and Peter but-
Jake slammed on the breaks, “Your buddies Johnny and Peter should be in jail along with Scott. I sort of promised Adam not to say anything but I can’t keep quiet. Last night, they attacked Adam for being gay. Johnny held a knife to him, ducktaped him, and threaten to rape him. I think if I wasn’t there they would have gang raped him to “teach” him a lesson. Adam was subdued because he was scared out of his mind.”
Kris felt the blood pounding in his head, “When? What exactly happened? Why didn’t he say anything?”
“He was embarrassed or maybe he didn’t think anyone would be on his side. No offense, Mr. Allen, but he has been unfairly persecuted by the media for misunderstood events.”
“I need to make sure he is OK. We’ll drop you off, Daniel, and then I have to go see Adam.” Kris needed to make sure Adam was OK. He was angry that anyone had tried to hurt Adam but also sad that Adam didn’t confide in him. After they dropped off Daniel Kris directed his frustration and fear at Jake,
“You work for me you should have said something earlier. Why didn’t you?”
“It wasn’t my story to tell and frankly I wasn’t sure how you would react. It is not like your previous actions illustrated a willingness to endure difficulties on Adam’s behalf.”
Kris knew he was right, “Does Adam blame me for this?”
“I don’t know. He didn’t want to talk to me about it. If it were me, I’d blame you for being friends with such people and being the reason I was on the hiking trip in the first place. Actually, if I were him, I would have cut my losses right after you threw me to the paparazzi wolves.”
Kris laughed tightly, “Lucky for me, Adam is a much more forgiving person.”
“Mr.-Kris, be careful because what they did was pretty bad. Johnny said some nasty stuff and their intent to rape him was very clear.”
Kris became anxious, “Did they touch him or violate him?”
“They took his pants down while I held him.”
“You held him!”
“Kris, there were three of them and one had a weapon. I had to wait for an opportune moment and catch them off guard. I feel bad that it probably scared Adam more because he thought I was going to hold him down as they raped him. However, it would have helped neither of us if I fought back and lost.”
They got to Adam’s apartment. Kris told Jake to wait in case Adam wanted to be alone. Kris went up to the apartment and knocked on the door. He was surprised when a towel clad Brad answered the door.
“What do YOU want? Come to finish the job?”
“I came to see if Adam was alright.”
“He’s fine now get the fuck out of here. I am sick and tired of mopping up your mess. Every fucking time Adam gives you a chance you fuck him up. Not too mention each time it is exponentially worse.”
“This wasn’t my fault. I didn’t know.”
“Save your bullshit for someone who cares. I love that man in there and I am not going to let you destroy him. If you really like him, you would realize how bad you are for him. Shall I recap? First meeting-Adam loses his job and becomes a public pervert, second meeting-Adam gets locked up in jail, third meeting- he gets gaybashed. Really, the only thing left is his death so I don’t think I am going to let him see you a fourth time.”
“I am trying to make things right.”
“Really? Than try leaving him alone so he can have a pain free life.”
Kris hated Brad especially because he was right on some level. If Brad could make Adam happy…
“You really love him?”
“Yes and he loves me. You are just a shiny new toy and Adam unfortunately gets easily distracted. I was too jealous when we dated and I stupidly broke it off with the only man I ever loved. I want him back and I think he wants me.”
Kris could not place it but for some reason he had the feeling Brad wasn’t being truthful. Kris was going to question him more but Adam came over and Kris’ heart stopped as he watched Adam wrap his arms around Brad and kiss him. Adam was also in a towel so Kris could only assume they had been making love. Kris felt his heart breaking and for the first time wished he was someone else. He wished he were Brad and had Adam’s loving arms around him intimately kissing his neck. Kris looked into shocked blue eyes and heard Adam whisper his name in surprise.
“Kris?”
“Hi…er…I just wanted to see if you were OK. Jake told me a little bit of what happened.”
Adam immediately moved back from Brad and was obviously uncomfortable and spoke,
“I thought you were Cassidy. Brad was just-
Brad became furious and pushed Adam hard, “You mother fucker! I can’t believe you are going to make excuses to him for being with me. Could you make me feel anymore like sloppy seconds! Straight boy here doesn’t put out, you call Brad. Douche bag here gets your ass locked in prison, you call Brad. Retardo takes you on a hiking trip with a bunch of homophobes, and you call Brad. I am not a doormat Adam. The only reason I keep helping you is because I am an idiot and so in love with you. I want us to be a couple again.”
Brad had tears in his eyes. Kris felt guilty and empathetic to Brad. Adam seemed to just be staring at Brad with an unreadable expression. Brad was the one that had been there for Adam through the bad times. Kris didn’t deserve him and Brad did. Kris decided to do the right thing.
“Adam, I just wanted to make sure you were OK and if you want to go to the police I understand. I don’t know all the details but from what Jake told me it is totally unacceptable and I will support whatever you want to do. Well, you have company so I will go. Why don’t you just sleep on it and give me a call tomorrow. Goodnight, guys.” Kris tried to smile and headed back to Jake. He left with a heavy heart knowing he just lost the only key to his happiness.
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Adam was shocked to see Kris standing at the door which is why he uttered his name. He didn’t want to deal with this situation especially on the heels of almost being raped. Adam was surprised by Brad’s outburst and pissed since he knew Brad was totally acting. Adam might have been off his game from trauma but he was not stupid enough to believe Brad had been pining for him and wanted to be in a relationship with him. Sure, Brad loved having sex with Adam but Brad loved having sex with other men too. Jealous? Brad only got jealous if it inconvenienced him. No, boyfriend Brad was not in the cards. Kris, however, was proving to be a worse option and not working. Adam felt like he was nearing some sort of epiphany when he was interrupted by Brad’s whining,
“…I can’t believe you were even going to be civil to that guy. Surely he must have noticed his friends were not exactly rainbow flag waving material. Adam, I may not be a gay relationship guru but I am pretty sure it helps when both parties acknowledge they are gay and are willing to act like it’s a good thing. He will never be your boyfriend. Besides, even I am a better boyfriend than he would be.”
“Really? I think I am a better judge of that and actually I find it more offensive when the man I am with is sucking other people’s cocks than simply keeping our relationship secret.”
Brad pouted, “That was just mean. Anyway, he’s not “just” keeping you a secret, he is placing you in serious danger.” Brad bitch slapped him.
Adam became furious at Brad hitting him. He grabbed Brad and threw him on the couch and climbed on top of him trapping his wrists. He knew Brad hated when he overpowered him with his size and strength. Brad was struggling with little success which turned Adam’s anger into amusement. Adam laughed at Brad.
“Get off me, bitch.”
“Say ‘I will never hit Adam again because he is the fiercest, hottest man to grace this earth.””
“Shut the fuck up.” Brad shifted, “Now that you got me here what are you gonna do, big boy?”
Adam smirked, “Tease you.” Since they were both naked for all intents and purposes, Adam kneeled up a little and ran the tip of his cock across Brad’s stomach, “Get you all worked up…” Adam kneeled back down pressing against Brad’s intense erection. “…and then go jerk off in the shower without you.” Adam got up laughing.
“You mother fucking cocktease. Get back here and fuck me.”
Adam went in the bathroom and turned on the shower. He heard the door open and Brad came over and dropped to his knees and looked up with puppy dog eyes, “I’m sorry I hit you.” Adam just looked down and watched as Brad took him in his mouth. Adam’s willpower left him and he wrapped his hands around Brad’s head pushing in deeper. As he came, Adam felt all the tension, fear, emotionalism, and terror of the day release. Brad got up and turned off the water. He pulled a sluggish Adam to the bedroom and into his bed. They heard a knock at the door.
“Now that has to be Cass. Go to sleep baby, you can take care of me in the morning.” Brad kissed him short on the lips.
Adam just fell right to sleep but woke up in the middle of the night from a nightmare.
Struggling to breathe and not scream, Adam pulled Brad closer. Brad wrapped himself tightly around Adam which helped him relax and fall back asleep. Adam woke up to Brad talking on his cell.
“Really? How would you make it up to me? Listen gorgeous, I gotta go Adam just woke up…I’ll tell him.”
Brad hung up his phone and smiled, “That was Joey and he thinks you should make a statement in case these guys get nervous and go after you.”
Adam just nodded not wanting to discuss it, “When did you start talking to Joey again?”
Brad shrugged, “When I ran into him a couple days and fucked him. Hey babe, I gotta go to a photo shoot, if you want me to come over or you want to sleep over tonight let me know. Cass and I are going to the Viper room and you should come.”
Brad kissed Adam short on the lips and left. Adam checked his phone and saw a text from Kris, Call me when u r up.
Adam grabbed a cup of coffee, happy Brad had made a pot before leaving. Little things like that made Adam miss living with Brad. Of course, there were another 200 reasons for not living with Brad. Adam’s cell rang and it was Kris.
Adam sighed, “Kris, I really am not ready to talk about this.”
“I understand you are very upset but we need to deal with this. From what Jake told me, it sounded very serious and you might want to press charges. My drummer, Scott, called me and told me they were really drunk and Johnny was just trying to scare you. He wants to apologize to you.”
Adam felt pissed, “I am not sure what he could possibly say to make things right and I really don’t want to see any of them again.”
“Why didn’t you tell me what happened that night?”
“I was freaked out and I didn’t know how you would react. I was afraid you would blame me. No offense but when things happen to me around you they seem to go from bad to worse and I usually end up taking the fall.”
“I know. I am so sorry. I think it would be better for you if you stayed with Brad. He seems to love you and he treats you more like you deserve. I am not good for you and you rate so much more.”
Adam felt hurt because he knew Kris was saying this because the hiking trip proved their worlds were too different. It probably also reinforced all Kris’ fears of coming out and he didn’t think Adam was worth it. Adam decided to let him go gracefully.
“You are right. Brad and I have a long history together and I think we always knew we would end up back together. Maybe this was the push we needed,” Adam lied convincingly.
“Maybe we can stay friends.”
“Well, I am sure we will run into each other professionally but I really would rather not actively pursue a friendship, Brad gets jealous.” The lies seemed to be rolling off Adam’s tongue and was thankful all the expensive acting lessons were paying off.
After a brief pause, Kris responded, “Yeah, ok. I won’t call you anymore. What do you want to do about the attack? I am supposed to be going on a six-month tour in two weeks and I need to know if my drummer is getting arrested.”
What a dick! This call was about finding out if he could honor his tour dates. Piece of shit! Adam took a deep breath, “Relax, this faggot won’t make waves in your tour schedule. I suggest if you get drunk with your band, you keep your delusions of homosexuality to yourself. Goodbye, Kris.”
“Whoa-where is this coming from?”
“Go fuck yourself.” Adam hung up his cell and diverted his calls to his voicemail. Adam decided to focus his energy on his music and career. As far as he was concerned he was going to be celibate. Hopefully, his usual hyperactive sex drive would calm down enough to let him. Adam was well aware sexual self discipline was not his strong point but he was going to try. At the moment, Kris Allen was making it easy.
~~~End Part 19~~~