[muffled screaming]

[alethiometry]

so like. i went on a date tonight, and it went AMAZINGLY well. like, we were able to connect right away, he's a super good guy, we have a lot in common (to the point where it's almost eerie), he's someone i would definitely be friends with, basically best case scenario in every way. and i guess i like him? even though i've just met him

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[kalliel]

I'm glad your date went well!!! And commiserations re: the immediate impulse to self-sabotage. I've never been on a date, but I do have that train of thought re: people in general, and I don't really have any exercises or solutions, but maybe you can take it slow, slow, slow, and see if the degree of commonality breaks open a new path forward. <3

[alethiometry]

see, the problem with taking it slow is that i'll have to worry about it for a longer period of time, when, now that i'm two days removed from the date, the last thing i want to do is rekindle that anxiety by being in his proximity. which is kind of a problem, i think, because what kind of person actually experiences this much anxiety from talking to someone who's clearly into them?? and it's not fair for him either if i want to take it slow now and then later be like, nah, failed experiment, let's never see each other again. which is honestly what i want to say/do, like, RIGHT FUCKING NOW.

like, if i break things off with him in as polite a manner as i can manage, is that okay? am i just looking out for myself and prioritizing my own interests in a wholesome, self-care type of way? or is it just enabling my unregulated emotional/mental issues to nip this in the bud asap?