SummerThe first summer was weird. Her mother cried a lot, and that made Cristina decidedly uncomfortable. This was, perhaps, the start of the downward spiral of dislike for her mother - the constant need to hug and be touched, coupled with the nagging need to talk and cry it all out while all Cristina wanted to do was disappear. She was seven then ( Read more... )

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
Shudder deep and cry out:
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"
I was nine. I was in the fourth grade, top of my class. I did ballet three days a week after school. I had a French tutor. I rode a horse. I was a busy kid, but I was a good kid - ( Read more... )

If all of your friends were jumping off a bridge, would you jump too?Friends are weird. They come with feelings and hugs, the constant need to be loved and listened to. They’re irksome. That’s why I only have one. I have a person, one person. No one else matters enough to have that title. She’s my person, and though she has her moments, she would ( Read more... )

Write a fan letter.Colin ( Read more... )

Hear it! I'm screaming it! You tremble at this sound.
You sink into my clothes and this invasion
Makes me feel worthless, hopeless, sick.She wants to scream, but screaming isn’t her style. But if it was, then she would. She would scream, loud and clear for him to leave, to get as far away as possible, to stop ruining the one good thing she’s ever ( Read more... )

How have you changed in the past year?He changed me. I've always been the one with the answers, the abilities, the edge. I've always been on my own, using and stepping over whomever I had to in order to get my way, to get what I want. I’ve always taken advantage of any potentially beneficial opportunity to get ahead and never felt guilty. There’s ( Read more... )

Time.Time is a funny thing. There are moments when you think you have all the time in the world. And, it’s in those moments where you decide not to tell your best friend something because you assume you can tell her later, that there will be a later, because time isn’t an issue. But, then time stops. It stops because she almost dies, was almost ( Read more... )

Do you believe in ghosts?No ( Read more... )

It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not. -Andre Gide

She wonders sometimes if she's gotten to the level of hated. She knows she's pissed of a wide variety of nurses - especially that head nurse whose name she doesn't remember because she doesn't matter. And, she knows only some of the interns like her, but ( Read more... )

Do you believe in happily ever after?This is Cristina as a child ( Read more... )