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from up here the city lights burn [during timeskip]
The evening is almost unpleasantly warm, nearing stifling, in the cramped space that is Shinji's shared apartment. He stands over the makeshift balcony, leaning on the rusty rail and staring out at Tokyo's skyline, or what little can be seen of it with towering buildings and factories belching smoke into the muggy air. It wasn't much, to be sure, ( Read more... ) -
Cleaning up the chaos
Later the following day, Shinji can be seen out in the wreckage along with the others, heaving debris aside with the aid of Unit 01. The machine itself had emerged relatively unscathed from the carnage compared to its brethren and was now utilizing its staggering amount of strength for a different purpose: rescue and recovery. Shinji was assisting ( Read more... ) -
I checked his gun, and his chamber was empty
[private, but hackable by just about everyone]
I want to cry. I want to throw a fit. I want to go on a rampage, and throw things, and hurt people, and say a ton of nasty stuff to a lot of different faces.
So why can't I?
I should hate Kira and Shiro, but I don't. I should want to quit fighting, but I don't. I should just run away from this place, go ( Read more... ) -
A bittersweet victory
[private, fairly easy to hack]
Phew. I'm glad that mission's over and done with. We chased off ZAFT, we defeated the Angel, but... why aren't I happy? Everyone's so gloomy. I never thought about death very seriously before. It's so harshly real, and it's irreversible. In a video game, when you die on a level, you just start over, but it doesn't ( Read more... ) -
The anger consumes everything, and everything consumes
So it's finally happened, hasn't it?
I always knew it would. I knew you all were fakes. I knew nobody cared.
Do you see what Quatre did out there? He abandoned me. He abandoned everyone. And why? Because he was selfish. You might think he was saving us, but that's such a flimsy excuse. To throw away your life like that with no consideration for ( Read more... ) -
Mystery woman, how you cast your spell on me
[private, unhackable]
I really screwed up that mission. How could I act like such an idiot? Screaming like some whiny brat of a kid... but is that what I am in the end? I wasn't even controlling the Eva this time, but... something about it was just absolutely terrifying. I honestly thought I was going to die that time.
It didn't help that I was stuck ( Read more... ) -
To be apart from you
Life's been so busy lately. My teachers won't stop snowing me with work, and father keeps calling me back for more tests and experiments and god knows what else with Unit 01. What's next, a dance routine ( Read more... ) -
To thank a friend
Everyone, I... I just wanted to thank you for believing in me last night. When I didn't have the courage to believe in myself. I thought I couldn't do it. I thought I was going to die. But all of you, you fought so hard against the Angel. Even if you couldn't win, you just kept on fighting anyway. You have courage that I wish I had. That I want to ( Read more... ) -
A prolonged absence
Get up, eat breakfast, train, and sleep. Wake up, and do it all over again. I haven't seen anyone for awhile. Do I want to see them, even?I'm not sure what's going on. Everything and everyone seems so chaotic, but maybe I just wasn't paying enough attention before. Maybe it was always this way. Maybe ( Read more... ) -
I will keep on fighting, so long as there is breath within me
-It is late. While many of the other members of the base are fast asleep, Shinji is alert and awake. He appears to be battling the simulator's AI with Unit 01's combat data. There are deep rings under his eyes, but he has yet to tire ( Read more... )