Yet Another Birthday...
I'm new to posting, this is my first ever Vam, be nice please! sorry about no cut, I'm a slight dunce...
Comments/Con-crit very welcome!!
Summary:He sits alone and contemplates on yet another birthday alone...
Disclamer: I don't know any of thease people and don't have any permission to use their likeness.
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Yet Another Birthday...
Another birthday alone,
She left me yesterday,
Another relationship failed,
All because I can't admit to people what I really am,
Hell I can't even admit it to myself,
I lie awake at night with a beautiful woman beside me,
Yet all I can think about is him the man of my dreams,
That isn't right, I should be thinking about the beautiful model beside me,
Then she wakes up and asks why I'm wanking,
I always tell her some lie about not wanting to wake her and she gets pissed off and starts ranting about how I don't love her, oh how she was right, but I always insist I do love her.
Why couldn't I just have the balls to say how I really feel, to tell her that her naked body, even the thought of it, entering her, it makes me sick to my stomach, that every morning I rolled over hoping, praying, to see someone else, someone really beautiful, someone funny, someone I wanted to love,
Oh how I love him.
And now I sit here, slowly killing my lungs with smoke, slowly killing my liver with whiskey, a pen poised ready over a page already half covered with random lyrics, as I write yet another song about him, she always thought the songs were about her, so did the one before her and the one before her, they were all wrong, they're all about him, they always have been, ever since my drunken eyes met his bright blue ones, in that smoke filled dressing room, all those years ago, then and there was when I found out what love really is!