Standalone
Ok just something that had to be written and i hope you won't hate me for it. It has nothing to do with my chapter story Join me in Death
Title:See you in Hell
Pairing: Vam
See you in hell
I’ve just read it, you know. Yeah, Ape brought it to me gave it to me and told me it’s from you. Well, I have to admit you one thing Bammie, you are a master of pranks. No, that’s not fair, fuck it you’re the king of it. The creator of the very term “prank”.
You thought that this is going to make me feel good, huh? Did you really thought this is going to make me feel better and that all this shit you’ve scribbled with your shitty, childish-like handwriting so fucking difficult to read is going to make me cry? You should’ve known better.
Best friends should know each other inside out so I guess we never were that, right? You’ve said it yourself. It turned out you fooled me; I fooled you so we’re even huh? Is that what you were thinking, you little piece of shit? Guess what? We’re not, you motherfucker! I have something to say as well you know.
I hate when people don’t let me say what I have on my mind. I so fucking hate it! And I’m so not going to let you get out with this so easy. I can’t believe you think so little of me. Of all people in the world you were supposed to be the one who’d know I never let go of unsettled scores. You’re the one who was supposed to know I’m going to fight for a chance to say what I want. I can’t believe you never realized that.
It hurts you know. The thought that I thought you knew me and all you knew about me turns out to be that I’m a crybaby. Well guess again you fucker I’m not. I’M NOT GOING TO CRY THIS TIME YOU STUPID LITLE FUCK! I’M NOT GOING TO LET YOU HAVE IT YOUR WAY YOU SHITTY LITTLE MORON! IT’S NOT GOING TO BE THE WAY YOU WANTED IT I SWEAR!
Fuck you Bam! I can’t remember anybody making me so fucking pissed off like you’ve just had. I’m practically eating the whole pack of fags at once right now, so thanks for nothing you shit. You used to complain how I smoke too much and how my teeth are going to be yellow like a rotten lemon and my breath is going to stink like I had swallowed rotten polecat and if I’m lucky enough when I turn 35 there’d be one little white dot actually showing on the x-ray of my lungs. Well fuck me if I care now! And don’t even think of saying you really cared for if you had I wouldn’t have read that fucked up and shitty whining you’ve wrote and I wouldn’t be choking myself with fags right now. So fuck off with your hypocritical care.
I was never so fooled by anyone in my life and you just had to be that shit right? Yeah, you’ve always rambled about having to do something special for me so I could remember you forever. Well I bow to thee you fucker cause you’ve made it! Is that what you had on your retarded mind? To piss me off so much that I’d wish to strangle you to death and laugh at your face while you’d struggle for breath? Well, that’s what I’d like to do now Bam. I fucking hate you for that! Do you hear me? Of course you do, you believed in that shit! And I’m so thankful you did cause it makes it all easier for me now.
You said so much bullshit there that it’s beyond words. How could you lie like that? How could you lie me so coldly without even blinking you fucking idiot? How could you be so cruel to me? What have I done wrong to you, you shit? You wanted me as a friend and I risked everything for that, you fucker. My own fans hate me for hanging out with you, for letting you direct the videos for the band. I had to deal with such shits from everybody for letting you make the whole mess with heartagram. I’m the one who went around persuading the world that you need to be respected and loved.
Did you ever thought how it felt to sit and listen shits people were spilling about you? Did you ever had to tell the press we’re just good friends and people should better just fucking accept it? Have you ever went in public and got asked shitloads of stupid pointless questions and had to answer them while your heart tears apart for the person you care about is being labeled as an idiot and copycat? I broke my own vow for you, you punk. I walked over my own words that I’d never be friend with fan of mine! What for fuck’s sake have I done that? Why for the love of hell had I put myself into all that shit? What did you wanted to prove with this thing? What was it that you really wanted me to do after all these years and after all this shit you’ve done?
I need answers Bam, cause this is not going to be just one of your random pranks and jokes that you’re just going to walk away from. Oh, no, mister. So far I played it by your rules, but now… now I’m turning the page. And you’re not going to like it at all. You’re going to hate my guts like I hate yours right now. And I can hardly wait to witness that you motherfucker.
You fooled the whole world to think you’re this great, sweet, silly boy; an awesome skater, a brave motherfucker you wanted to be. Well, I’ll show it to everybody who you really were. I’m going to show the whole world, especially your lovely fans, what coward you really were and you still are. Yeah, still are. You ran away, Bam. That’s what you did.
You really thought you can hide from me? Yeah I’m sure you did. Guess, you never really thought that that “dark” part of my personality could turn me into this raging revengeful monster I am right now. You never thought I could really lose my mind and wish to kill someone like I do this very fucking moment? Yeah, you went through life thinking Ville’s soft, week and teddy bear, he’d never hurt anybody especially not me so why the fuck not rip his heart out and laugh at him so hard like you are laughing right now. But my friend, I should start calling you the right name now, my enemy, laugh while you still can cause when I get to you, you’re going to wish you never saw my face, ever. You’re going to curse the day you were born you fucking piece of shit! You’re going to regret every single second of your life when I get my hands on you.
You really thought it’s going to be so fucking easy, didn’t you? You thought you’re going to get away with all that shit just like that? Just walk away? Ha! Oh boy, I’m so going to love it. You’re going to make it worth trust me. And you’re going to beg, but not in a good way and I’m not going to give in for your puppy eyes I’d wish to rip out of your skull. You’re going to suffer you dickhead. Big time! I’m going to make you feel the real pain, not that shit you wrote about. That’s just a tickle, a glimpse of what I’m about to give you.
I’m so going to make sure I shatter every good thought everybody ever had about you. I’m going to send this fucking teenage-like letter to every goddamn papers, TV and radio station there is on earth. I’m going to show the whole world how their brave, adorable Bam was actually nothing but fucking coward they should all just spit on! If you were so fucking brave why didn’t you just come and spill it all in my face? No, cause that wouldn’t be so fucking interesting right? Then Ville wouldn’t have another hard shit on his back to deal with, is that it? You fucking masochist, you enjoyed me sweating in interviews trying to clean your shits! You loved me suffering heartache for you, you loved me in pain, in that awful sorrow I was born with, cause only when I was falling apart you were truly happy and rejoicing. Only then I could see your ugly eyes glare with that lucid light like you were on heroin or some other shit. That’s what I meant to you endless source of fun and spring of twisted turn on. You perverted asshole!
It’s a payback time you little fucker! I hope you had laughed enough cause I’m coming to get you right now, the very moment I finish this shit and send it out to everybody so they could all see. It’s going to hit all headlines tomorrow morning and I don’t care about Ape, Phil and others for having to deal with it, you didn’t care about me or anybody I love in my life except about you. You beg me not to blame myself, and there was really no need for that cause I never thought about it. But I’m glad you said that for now the world is going to see how weak you are for begging. How weak you are for running away like a pussy you really were.
Yes, you had run away, but don’t grin on that, cause there’s no place where you can hide from me, so just stop running and save your fucking breath cause you’re going to need it. Save all the strength you have cause you’re going to need it more than anything to survive me. I’m going to show you I can be perverted like you, that I can be heartless bastard you were. I’m going to show you how it really feels to live life in death. You’ve seen and felt nothing so far trust me on that.
Ape asked me to forgive you if there’s anything to forgive so you could rest in piece and play fucking harp on heaven with angels. I’m not going to forgive you, you fucker. I didn’t even go to your funeral for I hated you the moment I heard you fucking blown your shitty head off. I’m just sorry I didn’t see your fucked up ugly face shattered in pieces from the bullet, cause that’s what you really were ugly motherfucker hiding behind the mask.
I’m not going to forgive you for I hope it’s true what Ape said that you’d burn in hell if you’re not forgiven. And I so fucking hope you are there right now. Just want to let you know that’s not the real hell and you still haven’t met the real devil himself. But you’re going to see my face very soon you shit. You’re going to see and feel the real hell that I’m ruling in. I promise you, you’re going to regret every fucking lie you had written in your last letter, every fucking lie about loving me, each word you wasted on telling how sorry you are for hurting people you leave behind. I’m going to make you see how it feels like when prank is on you. I’m going to make you see how it feels when you’re being fooled. You never thought I’ll wish to hunt you didn’t you? Well dude you’re prank is not going to work this time.
You thought you’re so fucking brave for having guts to pull the fucking trigger and blow your head off? Well I’m just about to show you how easy it is, how truly brave it would be if you had said it all to my face how you felt for me. I’m going to show the whole world the fagot you really were, the crybaby you really were and I’d made sure that no one could hide it away. You left the letter for Ape to give me thinking it won’t go any further, well fuck you. I’m pulling you down to the bottom I was already falling on. You’re not going to get away with it this time. You’re not going to run away from me again you shit.
Now get your guts and prepare to meet the real Devil and to burn in real eternal hell that you can never get out of. Prepare cause I’ll be there in a few minutes. Get ready for me Bammie cause I’m coming after you, you bastard. Cause I’m not going to run away like you. Prepare to suffer the way I suffered all these years, prepare your heart to be really shred in pieces and torn apart like mine was when I realized my love for you is in vain. Prepare to live life in hell with no way out for taking me away the only good thing I had in life, for killing the only true love I ever had, prepare… prepare…cause…I’m… walking… through… the gates… of hell.
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So do you hate me or not?
Title:See you in Hell
Pairing: Vam
See you in hell
I’ve just read it, you know. Yeah, Ape brought it to me gave it to me and told me it’s from you. Well, I have to admit you one thing Bammie, you are a master of pranks. No, that’s not fair, fuck it you’re the king of it. The creator of the very term “prank”.
You thought that this is going to make me feel good, huh? Did you really thought this is going to make me feel better and that all this shit you’ve scribbled with your shitty, childish-like handwriting so fucking difficult to read is going to make me cry? You should’ve known better.
Best friends should know each other inside out so I guess we never were that, right? You’ve said it yourself. It turned out you fooled me; I fooled you so we’re even huh? Is that what you were thinking, you little piece of shit? Guess what? We’re not, you motherfucker! I have something to say as well you know.
I hate when people don’t let me say what I have on my mind. I so fucking hate it! And I’m so not going to let you get out with this so easy. I can’t believe you think so little of me. Of all people in the world you were supposed to be the one who’d know I never let go of unsettled scores. You’re the one who was supposed to know I’m going to fight for a chance to say what I want. I can’t believe you never realized that.
It hurts you know. The thought that I thought you knew me and all you knew about me turns out to be that I’m a crybaby. Well guess again you fucker I’m not. I’M NOT GOING TO CRY THIS TIME YOU STUPID LITLE FUCK! I’M NOT GOING TO LET YOU HAVE IT YOUR WAY YOU SHITTY LITTLE MORON! IT’S NOT GOING TO BE THE WAY YOU WANTED IT I SWEAR!
Fuck you Bam! I can’t remember anybody making me so fucking pissed off like you’ve just had. I’m practically eating the whole pack of fags at once right now, so thanks for nothing you shit. You used to complain how I smoke too much and how my teeth are going to be yellow like a rotten lemon and my breath is going to stink like I had swallowed rotten polecat and if I’m lucky enough when I turn 35 there’d be one little white dot actually showing on the x-ray of my lungs. Well fuck me if I care now! And don’t even think of saying you really cared for if you had I wouldn’t have read that fucked up and shitty whining you’ve wrote and I wouldn’t be choking myself with fags right now. So fuck off with your hypocritical care.
I was never so fooled by anyone in my life and you just had to be that shit right? Yeah, you’ve always rambled about having to do something special for me so I could remember you forever. Well I bow to thee you fucker cause you’ve made it! Is that what you had on your retarded mind? To piss me off so much that I’d wish to strangle you to death and laugh at your face while you’d struggle for breath? Well, that’s what I’d like to do now Bam. I fucking hate you for that! Do you hear me? Of course you do, you believed in that shit! And I’m so thankful you did cause it makes it all easier for me now.
You said so much bullshit there that it’s beyond words. How could you lie like that? How could you lie me so coldly without even blinking you fucking idiot? How could you be so cruel to me? What have I done wrong to you, you shit? You wanted me as a friend and I risked everything for that, you fucker. My own fans hate me for hanging out with you, for letting you direct the videos for the band. I had to deal with such shits from everybody for letting you make the whole mess with heartagram. I’m the one who went around persuading the world that you need to be respected and loved.
Did you ever thought how it felt to sit and listen shits people were spilling about you? Did you ever had to tell the press we’re just good friends and people should better just fucking accept it? Have you ever went in public and got asked shitloads of stupid pointless questions and had to answer them while your heart tears apart for the person you care about is being labeled as an idiot and copycat? I broke my own vow for you, you punk. I walked over my own words that I’d never be friend with fan of mine! What for fuck’s sake have I done that? Why for the love of hell had I put myself into all that shit? What did you wanted to prove with this thing? What was it that you really wanted me to do after all these years and after all this shit you’ve done?
I need answers Bam, cause this is not going to be just one of your random pranks and jokes that you’re just going to walk away from. Oh, no, mister. So far I played it by your rules, but now… now I’m turning the page. And you’re not going to like it at all. You’re going to hate my guts like I hate yours right now. And I can hardly wait to witness that you motherfucker.
You fooled the whole world to think you’re this great, sweet, silly boy; an awesome skater, a brave motherfucker you wanted to be. Well, I’ll show it to everybody who you really were. I’m going to show the whole world, especially your lovely fans, what coward you really were and you still are. Yeah, still are. You ran away, Bam. That’s what you did.
You really thought you can hide from me? Yeah I’m sure you did. Guess, you never really thought that that “dark” part of my personality could turn me into this raging revengeful monster I am right now. You never thought I could really lose my mind and wish to kill someone like I do this very fucking moment? Yeah, you went through life thinking Ville’s soft, week and teddy bear, he’d never hurt anybody especially not me so why the fuck not rip his heart out and laugh at him so hard like you are laughing right now. But my friend, I should start calling you the right name now, my enemy, laugh while you still can cause when I get to you, you’re going to wish you never saw my face, ever. You’re going to curse the day you were born you fucking piece of shit! You’re going to regret every single second of your life when I get my hands on you.
You really thought it’s going to be so fucking easy, didn’t you? You thought you’re going to get away with all that shit just like that? Just walk away? Ha! Oh boy, I’m so going to love it. You’re going to make it worth trust me. And you’re going to beg, but not in a good way and I’m not going to give in for your puppy eyes I’d wish to rip out of your skull. You’re going to suffer you dickhead. Big time! I’m going to make you feel the real pain, not that shit you wrote about. That’s just a tickle, a glimpse of what I’m about to give you.
I’m so going to make sure I shatter every good thought everybody ever had about you. I’m going to send this fucking teenage-like letter to every goddamn papers, TV and radio station there is on earth. I’m going to show the whole world how their brave, adorable Bam was actually nothing but fucking coward they should all just spit on! If you were so fucking brave why didn’t you just come and spill it all in my face? No, cause that wouldn’t be so fucking interesting right? Then Ville wouldn’t have another hard shit on his back to deal with, is that it? You fucking masochist, you enjoyed me sweating in interviews trying to clean your shits! You loved me suffering heartache for you, you loved me in pain, in that awful sorrow I was born with, cause only when I was falling apart you were truly happy and rejoicing. Only then I could see your ugly eyes glare with that lucid light like you were on heroin or some other shit. That’s what I meant to you endless source of fun and spring of twisted turn on. You perverted asshole!
It’s a payback time you little fucker! I hope you had laughed enough cause I’m coming to get you right now, the very moment I finish this shit and send it out to everybody so they could all see. It’s going to hit all headlines tomorrow morning and I don’t care about Ape, Phil and others for having to deal with it, you didn’t care about me or anybody I love in my life except about you. You beg me not to blame myself, and there was really no need for that cause I never thought about it. But I’m glad you said that for now the world is going to see how weak you are for begging. How weak you are for running away like a pussy you really were.
Yes, you had run away, but don’t grin on that, cause there’s no place where you can hide from me, so just stop running and save your fucking breath cause you’re going to need it. Save all the strength you have cause you’re going to need it more than anything to survive me. I’m going to show you I can be perverted like you, that I can be heartless bastard you were. I’m going to show you how it really feels to live life in death. You’ve seen and felt nothing so far trust me on that.
Ape asked me to forgive you if there’s anything to forgive so you could rest in piece and play fucking harp on heaven with angels. I’m not going to forgive you, you fucker. I didn’t even go to your funeral for I hated you the moment I heard you fucking blown your shitty head off. I’m just sorry I didn’t see your fucked up ugly face shattered in pieces from the bullet, cause that’s what you really were ugly motherfucker hiding behind the mask.
I’m not going to forgive you for I hope it’s true what Ape said that you’d burn in hell if you’re not forgiven. And I so fucking hope you are there right now. Just want to let you know that’s not the real hell and you still haven’t met the real devil himself. But you’re going to see my face very soon you shit. You’re going to see and feel the real hell that I’m ruling in. I promise you, you’re going to regret every fucking lie you had written in your last letter, every fucking lie about loving me, each word you wasted on telling how sorry you are for hurting people you leave behind. I’m going to make you see how it feels like when prank is on you. I’m going to make you see how it feels when you’re being fooled. You never thought I’ll wish to hunt you didn’t you? Well dude you’re prank is not going to work this time.
You thought you’re so fucking brave for having guts to pull the fucking trigger and blow your head off? Well I’m just about to show you how easy it is, how truly brave it would be if you had said it all to my face how you felt for me. I’m going to show the whole world the fagot you really were, the crybaby you really were and I’d made sure that no one could hide it away. You left the letter for Ape to give me thinking it won’t go any further, well fuck you. I’m pulling you down to the bottom I was already falling on. You’re not going to get away with it this time. You’re not going to run away from me again you shit.
Now get your guts and prepare to meet the real Devil and to burn in real eternal hell that you can never get out of. Prepare cause I’ll be there in a few minutes. Get ready for me Bammie cause I’m coming after you, you bastard. Cause I’m not going to run away like you. Prepare to suffer the way I suffered all these years, prepare your heart to be really shred in pieces and torn apart like mine was when I realized my love for you is in vain. Prepare to live life in hell with no way out for taking me away the only good thing I had in life, for killing the only true love I ever had, prepare… prepare…cause…I’m… walking… through… the gates… of hell.
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So do you hate me or not?