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okay so i'm randomly typing on the computer... doing what i always do... avoiding what i'm suppose to do
i guess i'll be honest now... i'm confused about my religion... i mean... christianity has so many contraditions that i though i had a decent story to make with it... but i also support it in a really odd way... and there is also the fact that i have to make a speech in front of the whole student body... who i dont even know more than half of them because the veterians are gone... and i have to make a speech on why i am a good canidate for this church... honestly... i have no idea... wht to do... in the end.. i'm just contraditing my self... which is really sad cause i dont know what to do...
it's not like i hate god and christianity... i just hate the whole contradition it gives to the others and we the church complain that other people are this when in fact i believe we are the ones at fault... it's just odd... i think... but anyway... i guess that's my entry...
hmmmm any movies lately... i saw road trip again... man... such a funny movie... and.... hmmmmm... revenage of the sith was on... but i didn't even bother because i'm soo lost with trilogies and 6thologies... *sigh*
i watched all of the robot chicken on my ipod and halfway through with scrubs... i did a lot of art projects and half my extra credit powerpoint... i studied chem and finished my final review book for precalc... and i'm still avoiding the speech... why do i have to be sooo shy and dislike public speaking...
i dont think it's the fact that i wont get it makes me scared... it's just the fact that i might of done something good for this church... but just thinking that the only reason this person was picked was because she/he is the typical person who popularity was always on their side...
i mean... let's face it... i know i have no chance... but just the idea that i might of had a chance... i dont know... maybe it's just me...
and this is a realyl long entry... but anything to do and avoid what i'm suppose to do...
so about tomorrow... i have to make a speech and then we have to go to a picnic... which i'm sort of disapointed with because i have to be social and "perfect" in my parents eyes and say christian and bragging things like "god is always with our family" and "i got accepted to merrill lynch and that's how much i'm better than you" kind of crap...
and do bible study with the adults... UGHHHH that blows junk...and i feel like god is watchingme so i have to censer whatever i'm saying...
but yea... robot chicken is good... hahahha... it's really funny of american claymation...
so you're probally asking why i'm typing somuch and why can't i type my speech... well if you are soo fed up with it... then i will type it... okay!!!
hahahahahahahhahahaha... okay i'm leaving... sheeeshhh
i guess i'll be honest now... i'm confused about my religion... i mean... christianity has so many contraditions that i though i had a decent story to make with it... but i also support it in a really odd way... and there is also the fact that i have to make a speech in front of the whole student body... who i dont even know more than half of them because the veterians are gone... and i have to make a speech on why i am a good canidate for this church... honestly... i have no idea... wht to do... in the end.. i'm just contraditing my self... which is really sad cause i dont know what to do...
it's not like i hate god and christianity... i just hate the whole contradition it gives to the others and we the church complain that other people are this when in fact i believe we are the ones at fault... it's just odd... i think... but anyway... i guess that's my entry...
hmmmm any movies lately... i saw road trip again... man... such a funny movie... and.... hmmmmm... revenage of the sith was on... but i didn't even bother because i'm soo lost with trilogies and 6thologies... *sigh*
i watched all of the robot chicken on my ipod and halfway through with scrubs... i did a lot of art projects and half my extra credit powerpoint... i studied chem and finished my final review book for precalc... and i'm still avoiding the speech... why do i have to be sooo shy and dislike public speaking...
i dont think it's the fact that i wont get it makes me scared... it's just the fact that i might of done something good for this church... but just thinking that the only reason this person was picked was because she/he is the typical person who popularity was always on their side...
i mean... let's face it... i know i have no chance... but just the idea that i might of had a chance... i dont know... maybe it's just me...
and this is a realyl long entry... but anything to do and avoid what i'm suppose to do...
so about tomorrow... i have to make a speech and then we have to go to a picnic... which i'm sort of disapointed with because i have to be social and "perfect" in my parents eyes and say christian and bragging things like "god is always with our family" and "i got accepted to merrill lynch and that's how much i'm better than you" kind of crap...
and do bible study with the adults... UGHHHH that blows junk...and i feel like god is watchingme so i have to censer whatever i'm saying...
but yea... robot chicken is good... hahahha... it's really funny of american claymation...
so you're probally asking why i'm typing somuch and why can't i type my speech... well if you are soo fed up with it... then i will type it... okay!!!
hahahahahahahhahahaha... okay i'm leaving... sheeeshhh