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i do not wish the pain iv been going through to anyone else on the planet. but it is also arrogant of me to think that i am the only one who will and has gone through all of this. As a matter of fact, i know several people who are in quite the same perdicament as i, and to them i wish nothing but the best and all the patience in the world.
the greatest person iv ever known has fallen into what seems to be the end of the rope. No i am not being pessamistic, but who am i trying to fool by hopeing and praying that i will get another 5 years with this wonderful person. Prayer can only take you so far. i am beyond greatful for the past 10 years god has given us together, because at the begining of all of this, the prediction did not exceed 12 months. But modern medicine can only take him that far.
the marvelous thing about this whole situation is my fathers extreem possitivity and willingness to get past this stage- despite having tumors in his brain, liver, spine, and pelivs. His love, determintation, and overall acknoledgement of the beauty of life is something that i have learned along with him and take amazing pride in keeping for the rest of my life.
its a horrible thing for a daughter to have to feel and write like this, but im a firm believer in "hope for the best but prepare for the worst." i love him with every inch of my heart.
and as cheesey as this may sound, i have realized that you have to let everyone who is close to you know how much you love them as often as possible. because you really never know what can happen. So to all of you, i love you with all my heart, and thank all of you who were there for me for doing so. You have no idea what it has ment to me.
the greatest person iv ever known has fallen into what seems to be the end of the rope. No i am not being pessamistic, but who am i trying to fool by hopeing and praying that i will get another 5 years with this wonderful person. Prayer can only take you so far. i am beyond greatful for the past 10 years god has given us together, because at the begining of all of this, the prediction did not exceed 12 months. But modern medicine can only take him that far.
the marvelous thing about this whole situation is my fathers extreem possitivity and willingness to get past this stage- despite having tumors in his brain, liver, spine, and pelivs. His love, determintation, and overall acknoledgement of the beauty of life is something that i have learned along with him and take amazing pride in keeping for the rest of my life.
its a horrible thing for a daughter to have to feel and write like this, but im a firm believer in "hope for the best but prepare for the worst." i love him with every inch of my heart.
and as cheesey as this may sound, i have realized that you have to let everyone who is close to you know how much you love them as often as possible. because you really never know what can happen. So to all of you, i love you with all my heart, and thank all of you who were there for me for doing so. You have no idea what it has ment to me.