Rather Screwed
Yesterday till today, I have made enough mistakes till I feel like just bang my own head to the wall... It doesn't help that my friend (cum colleague) kept laughing at me... sigh...
3 major incidents (+ a few minors one + sorry mum and dad that I raised my voice...)
1) Ignore colleague
When we were going home yesterday, I didn't realised that our colleague was saying 'hi' to us. My friend replied, but I just looked up and down on my phone again because I was processing if I should delete that email or not... ANYWAY, I totally forgot her face... We met on the first day and after that I totally didn't see her around anymore. She stared at me once wondering while I didn't reply her at all. Utterly rude! If I was the other party, I might feel slightly annoyed and bewildered. "Why did this person just DAO me when I didn't even do anything wrong?!" is probably what I will feel...
Even worse, after we went separate ways, I told my friend about it (cause she didn't realise I didn't greet back?). My friend didn't make me feel any better AT ALL. I was really quite depress... Sometimes I really don't know what had gone through my brain. The funniest thing is, when reaching the MRT station then I realise that I mistook her for another person. So firstly, I forgot about her. Then, I mistook her. It felt liked it was really too late by the time I realised...zzz so my friend make fun of me the second time...
I seriously have this issue of opening my mouth to greet people and apologising for little mistakes lately. Just lately only... is it because I got treated badly too much during the morning rush hour and last week at work? lol... I don't like these excuses myself...I hope this can improve tomorrow. Really...please...STOP PICKING UP THIS WEIRD HABIT.
Anyway, I see her today at the pantry, pressing for her drink at the vending machine. I reeeallllyyy wanted to clear the misunderstanding with her...but I felt like it wasn't a right place. (and lack of courage?) If only she saw me, I would have told her, but she didn't. It is weird to stop someone just to explain this right? Sigh... I hope another chance will come again tomorrow. The toilet maybe? Though that's where gossips are from... I really want to explain to her badly. Though my friend said it's worse telling her that you can't recognise her, I thought differently about that. At least let the person know that she/he is not being disliked? That's what I think. Hope I can clear things up soon!
2) 'Perfumed' Peporo
Ok, I know it sounds weird. Today my friend's boss gave us some snacks (like a form of celebration since their fasting is over). A hungry pig as I would be, I ate it during tea time (3+ p.m.). It tastes weird. So I got my friend to try it, while I pick up another stick. She said it shouldn't taste like this, suggested I should stop eating jokingly. After 3-4 sticks, my friend found the problem. Apparently the boss puts the snacks near her (malay) 'perfume' (they usually don't use alcohol but some heavy scented liquid), and the peporo sticks contacted with the liquid or something...and I ate it... Don't think I will get cologne poisoning I...hope... And there, my same friend make fun of me...again...
3) Oh! Today is 30th July?!
I know my friend's birthday is on 30th July, but I didn't know today is 30th July! That's my problem lately...So...in short, I kind of upset my friend now...
Even now as I am typing this, I am clearing things up and I can feel that the 'hahaha' is just to make everything lighter. But deep inside, the real issue probably still hasn't been solved. I have just created a knot in the friendship by myself (that-kind-of-feeling). So sorry. However, I have a further explanation to this! I didn't it would be such a heavy issue! Since she didn't really wish me happy birthday too...And I was asking her to attend our common's friend birthday in 2-3 weeks time... She replied with, "sock ar, you are asking me to attend other people's parties on my birthday..." That's like a real impact to me... Anyway, really sorry. I don't mean to forget!!!
Even as I am typing this, a new problem occur. A family problem. This is definitely not going to be easy to solve, but I just hope I can manage myself for now and go one step at a time. Stay strong grandma! You are definitely much stronger than this! Nobody is going to abandon you!
3 major incidents (+ a few minors one + sorry mum and dad that I raised my voice...)
1) Ignore colleague
When we were going home yesterday, I didn't realised that our colleague was saying 'hi' to us. My friend replied, but I just looked up and down on my phone again because I was processing if I should delete that email or not... ANYWAY, I totally forgot her face... We met on the first day and after that I totally didn't see her around anymore. She stared at me once wondering while I didn't reply her at all. Utterly rude! If I was the other party, I might feel slightly annoyed and bewildered. "Why did this person just DAO me when I didn't even do anything wrong?!" is probably what I will feel...
Even worse, after we went separate ways, I told my friend about it (cause she didn't realise I didn't greet back?). My friend didn't make me feel any better AT ALL. I was really quite depress... Sometimes I really don't know what had gone through my brain. The funniest thing is, when reaching the MRT station then I realise that I mistook her for another person. So firstly, I forgot about her. Then, I mistook her. It felt liked it was really too late by the time I realised...zzz so my friend make fun of me the second time...
I seriously have this issue of opening my mouth to greet people and apologising for little mistakes lately. Just lately only... is it because I got treated badly too much during the morning rush hour and last week at work? lol... I don't like these excuses myself...I hope this can improve tomorrow. Really...please...STOP PICKING UP THIS WEIRD HABIT.
Anyway, I see her today at the pantry, pressing for her drink at the vending machine. I reeeallllyyy wanted to clear the misunderstanding with her...but I felt like it wasn't a right place. (and lack of courage?) If only she saw me, I would have told her, but she didn't. It is weird to stop someone just to explain this right? Sigh... I hope another chance will come again tomorrow. The toilet maybe? Though that's where gossips are from... I really want to explain to her badly. Though my friend said it's worse telling her that you can't recognise her, I thought differently about that. At least let the person know that she/he is not being disliked? That's what I think. Hope I can clear things up soon!
2) 'Perfumed' Peporo
Ok, I know it sounds weird. Today my friend's boss gave us some snacks (like a form of celebration since their fasting is over). A hungry pig as I would be, I ate it during tea time (3+ p.m.). It tastes weird. So I got my friend to try it, while I pick up another stick. She said it shouldn't taste like this, suggested I should stop eating jokingly. After 3-4 sticks, my friend found the problem. Apparently the boss puts the snacks near her (malay) 'perfume' (they usually don't use alcohol but some heavy scented liquid), and the peporo sticks contacted with the liquid or something...and I ate it... Don't think I will get cologne poisoning I...hope... And there, my same friend make fun of me...again...
3) Oh! Today is 30th July?!
I know my friend's birthday is on 30th July, but I didn't know today is 30th July! That's my problem lately...So...in short, I kind of upset my friend now...
Even now as I am typing this, I am clearing things up and I can feel that the 'hahaha' is just to make everything lighter. But deep inside, the real issue probably still hasn't been solved. I have just created a knot in the friendship by myself (that-kind-of-feeling). So sorry. However, I have a further explanation to this! I didn't it would be such a heavy issue! Since she didn't really wish me happy birthday too...And I was asking her to attend our common's friend birthday in 2-3 weeks time... She replied with, "sock ar, you are asking me to attend other people's parties on my birthday..." That's like a real impact to me... Anyway, really sorry. I don't mean to forget!!!
Even as I am typing this, a new problem occur. A family problem. This is definitely not going to be easy to solve, but I just hope I can manage myself for now and go one step at a time. Stay strong grandma! You are definitely much stronger than this! Nobody is going to abandon you!