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yeah yesturday i found out this girl cut herself like 2 months ago but she only did it once so it isnt that bad. i talked to this kid named kameron on the internet for ever i love kameron he rocks! i lov ehim like a brother not like seriously love him. i love the show trigun but i love inuyasha more. it is extremly hard to explain. i love the show InUyAsHa! it rocks HARD CORE TO THE MAX! i am going to go shoping over the weekend and get extremly weird clothes for this dance we are having. it is a hawian theme. but i am not going to wear anything hawaian. its not liek they will kick me out. ir will they? no they wouldnt it is a catholic school. i wiish i could invite frined but i cant because our school SUCKS! i am i love with this guy i sit next to in homeroom but he has a girlfriend and my best frined(well one of them) liked him and i told her i started liking him but i wont be like flirting with him i am going to let her try to get him becasue i dont want her to be pissed at me if i am flirting at him when she is in love with him more then i am! she told him i liked him key word liked him as a joke well she was like christine liked you like a few weeks ago and igot all red and was like no i didnt! i liked him in 6th grade and he was ike when and she was like a 2 weeks ago and i went no it was not 2 weeks ago she was like remember when you sat next to her in church(she usually sits next to him because she loves himn so much) and he was like aw that was a long time AGO! and she was like no it wasnt. i was like 20 shades of red and i tried to cover it but i couldnt. then she told him i broke up with my boyfrined for him and i was like hell no! i didnt i had my reasons! and he was like did you really and i was like no i swear i ddint i had like 20 reasons why i dumped him. but i am extremly bitter i am getting mad at this one frined who has been my frined for like ever! al she does is like obsess with my other frined and i am like ok this is starting to get retarded adn everytime i talk to her and she sees her she will Oh A***** remember when you and i were hanging out and i am like o yeah ok and just walk away! (my besest frined in the world!) -->******* is like maybe you should burn them and i was like no i cant there parents are like bestest frineds with mine and he was oh too bad. he is like so nice! i feel like cutting myself and i told hinm that i trust him from anyone from my school and he doesnt even know me look at this -->
: if u need help call me 1-***-382-***
ZzNever ApartzZ: aww ok! i will
: or just wanna talk ill be here 4 a while
ZzNever ApartzZ: ok
i dont want to like give all this crap about him nbecasue i dont know him enoughand i just want to like kill myself i am so upset at her! she was just like never there for me and he is! and he is not even in this state i think(maryland) i like him so much he is like the ideal boyfrined his girlfriend doesnt know how lucky she is! but i am not going after him adn i decided today i dont like the guy i liked anymore i like someone else someone whjo is ther for me even though they are in a different state but i am keeping this from all my friends becasue it is my best frineds cousin and i dont want to be like i love ******* it isnt right and she would tell him! i got to go i am thinking of calling him but i am like nervous to! i am like getting the biggest lumps in my throat ok got to go

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