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i went to the doctor today and spilled everything from inside. about my anxiety attacks and how i can't just DEAL with shit anymore. Zoloft is now my best friend, aside from jen and lindsey here in vermont. the physical went okay. i don't weigh as much as i thought, and i am offcially 5 foot 6.
i got up this morning and dropped my sister off at school so i could have the car for the day. a little after 9am i picked up brandon from SBHS and we hugged then drove off to go downtown. the wind was such a bitch. my thighs were not apparent from the numbing cold, i couldn't even feel that i had any. we bumped into a few drug-sucking shitbags and while they talked i pretended not to care. same old, same old. stories about his friends getting slammed from the cops and the heavy hand they gave for their QP of cocaine and half pound of heroin. YOU ARE DUMB. it's so gross the shit i hear. & it's even more sad that there's worse shit out there than small town heroin in vermont. then again, a big ecstasy ring is about to happen. you guys remember that big bust with girls[prostitutes] coming up from NYC? yeah. pathetic. that was 3yrs ago i think. whatever i'm getting more film tomorrow.
ryan and i talked on the phone today and it went pretty well. he makes me laugh, i needed to hear his voice. there's something magnetic between us, i can't help it. love, would you call it?
i got up this morning and dropped my sister off at school so i could have the car for the day. a little after 9am i picked up brandon from SBHS and we hugged then drove off to go downtown. the wind was such a bitch. my thighs were not apparent from the numbing cold, i couldn't even feel that i had any. we bumped into a few drug-sucking shitbags and while they talked i pretended not to care. same old, same old. stories about his friends getting slammed from the cops and the heavy hand they gave for their QP of cocaine and half pound of heroin. YOU ARE DUMB. it's so gross the shit i hear. & it's even more sad that there's worse shit out there than small town heroin in vermont. then again, a big ecstasy ring is about to happen. you guys remember that big bust with girls[prostitutes] coming up from NYC? yeah. pathetic. that was 3yrs ago i think. whatever i'm getting more film tomorrow.
ryan and i talked on the phone today and it went pretty well. he makes me laugh, i needed to hear his voice. there's something magnetic between us, i can't help it. love, would you call it?