sucker
I’m feeling murderous right now. If I suddenly burst out with a litany of profanities, throw an apoplectic fit, or bang my head unto this table until I bleed to death with a forehead covered with dust that I’m supposed to wipe off with this bimpo near the speaker, worry not about me. I was told that this is perfectly normal; after all, I just allowed my self be duped into revealing one of my darkest secrets to a classmate I barely know.
You know those “quizzes” that ask for your name and the names of the three people you “desire” that in reality are fucking traps that will send your answers to the person who set up the link, right? When I darkly told Pia that I answered such shit, she laughed. Shaking her head, she informed me it was an old gimmick. Now, imagine the humiliation. -_-‘
When I read the message “Haha! You’re trapped! All your answers will be forwarded to *insert classmate’s name*”, I gawked at the PC like an imbecile. I waited for another pop-up that will go: “It’s only a joke you moron.” I waited. And waited. And waited. And then Reality started poking me: BISTADO NA AKO. I tried to disappear from the face of the earth by burying my head under numerous pillows. And then I went berserk.
JEZZAH’S “DESIRE LIST”
1. Vic Zhou
2. Classmate
3. Friend’s cousin
Now you can understand why it’s been driving me nuts. WTF. Vic Zhou? Dyuloooogs! Sure, I still find the guy *gwapo* but…but...it’s an info that shouldn’t be obtained by someone just like that. But why the fuck am I posting this shit here, then? I don’t know. Shit. I’ve really gone mad.
But the real problem is Guy 2. The classmate who now knows my secret, Guy 2 and I are block mates. I don’t think I’m really attracted to G2. Honestly. I used to for a jiff, but my crush on him evaporated when I realized he’s a jerk. I don’t know what got into me that I put his name on the list. Maybe it’s because hours prior to filling out, I heard his name from someone. Fuuucck. >: (
I’m annoyed-scratch that, I’m angry. Not at The Classmate Who Now Knows My Secret but at myself. Really. TCWNKMS is a good person, although she did use a veritaserum on me. I’m an idiot. Damn it, I fell for an old antic! Nyaaaargh!
Oh yeah, and because my anxiety did not allow me to sleep (I felt like hurling myself out the window every five minutes), I made myself a new layout. I think it looks nauseatingly babyish ergo I nicknamed it Sickeningly Sweet. I did the background agesss ago-summer vacation I think. I don’t think it reflects me but I still am proud of the cursor.
And I now have a multiply site. I won’t use it much, I have trouble updating my LJ already.
BTW, Happy Halloween. I hope yours will be better than mine.